I ve always wondered why people love to think so much over simple things when the answers are just dere. Its like the sum of 1+1=2 which some of us would most likely answer it as 11. You know i am just det sorta of person...in fact i feel that i am the biggest contradict to my own beliefs, anyhow lately i am forced to faced myself to provide answers to my own uncertainties...my mom always tells me to think on what i could achieved from my level but i always think to another level,its like i yearn to overachieve,in everything and anything becuz i just felt that if i dun try to aim myself on a higher note i could not possibly be satisfied in reaching anything...
Nevertheless, i ve to admit that some things in life its not up to how u want it, it just happens....i guess rationale and being sentient just don't come in as the answer to these things.Yet, i cant help feeling vulnerable choosing an option which risk myself to an unsecure passage, i guess i m just to rational for my own good.Probably thats how God wants me to understand that sometimes in life being concious is just not enough, its like u ve two options a road which provide u a secure life and another that u r taking a risk at.Yet either one that u chooses u ll still ve to sacrifice something.Being at a secure path, u might not get things which the risky path offers...thats why the uncertainty crepts in...its like i feel like turning away n just being a coward n not faced it...
Anyhow, i guess i just have to answer to myself for i am still my biggest decision maker or probably just a coward looking for an easy way out, dere's just so many things to do, but so little time to do so needless to say... thats why my journey just started ...and i guess i should just follow a secure path for now..n try to make the most out of it..then again i m just crapping away becuz i just think too much....sigh...(bear with me..)
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