Its been exactly a year again, and life had been interestingly up and down. I almost forgot about my blog, until I pick up this book by a family friend daughter, who publish her recent biography and experience. It hits home for me, because maybe its to do with the fact that our upbringing is so similar. Of course, hers was much more glamorous to say the least. Yet, for her to transcend and become such a difference, it takes a lot of courage, a lot of humility and a lot of strength to do so. And I must say that, I am very proud of the fact that I had been acquainted to her once upon a time when I was much younger.
To those females especially the ages of 18-62 yrs or so, if you truly need inspiration. Trust me, you will get it through this book.(http://bookstome.blogspot.com/2010/03/call-me-paris-jamie-khoo_24.html)
Having said that, I am now strongly motivated to continue with my own stories reviving this blog, in order to bring in some form of inspiration and to document these one of a kind experiences, which deserve a chance to be told. I left off with my last blog where I was to travel to HK and Florida, US. Hence, starting with the family trip to HK. It was a treat again from the lovely brother as an Xmas pressie.(Told you he was the best brother on earth!!!! :)
We went to Disney HK, and sadly as I think back. I was so ashamed of myself for being so pissy, because I was comparing it to the Disneyland in Orlando ( Just because I had that privilege of being to the World's number #1 Disney park). Of course, not to mention that card which grant unlimited access, my Sea World's employee card.
Imagine being able to go in and out of Universal studios like your Taman Negara, or better still the the normal park right in your neighborhood. Yet, you have people all over the world, coming all the way once in a lifetime just to visit, being so excited, for this was probably their first and last time.
In HK Disney Feb 09 ( mini version) with fml and below version of Woody and his gang in the Orlando, Disneyland park Oct 08.
It was certainly a contrast, or as quoted by Jamie's book. A gal spoil for choice and so ridiculously lucky and yet, so ridiculously unhappy. Man , I am seriously in need of brain check. However once again, as they say the pen is mightier than a sword. Thus, the purpose of my blogging is to reach out to people of the world today, that the idea of happiness is truthfully nothing but letting go your egos, facing your fears ,finding your true calling and being grateful and ultimately humble towards yourself and your creator ( be it Buddha, Jesus, Allah or GOD as we all know altogether).
(With one of my best gf and I. We have been through so much together, words cannot describe the journey that we experienced. Yet, she is also one inspirational individual who I truly believe will unleash her potential and soar towards the sky, I have my absolute faith and trust in her!! :)Hence, of my 26 yrs journey in life. I truly had experience miracles which I cannot deny,tragic incidents which are heartfelt and still paint such strong effects to my soul. However, the holy spirit and I play such a crucial role because, it helps me through and it tells me that if we constantly believe in the best and think the most positive thoughts. No matter what happens, you survive it and you will emerge stronger, and a more wholesome individual.
I could tell you so much, but really a picture do speak a thousand words. One minute I am being send to swim with dolphins in fairytale land which I would only dare to dream upon whenever I read those Disney or Enid Blyton Fairytale stories.
And next thing you know, it send you to the most remote place on earth. with the basic to the basic amenities. Yes I even look super crappy here as I painstakingly work my way through that whole pile of palm oil bunches.
Basically the transition is like from heaven to hell, the 360 degrees turn and how powerful GOD can be when you finally listen and he will instruct you on your mission. I am not any proud of the many things I have done, but I can honestly say that I am just proud of the fact that I am no longer running, nor using anymore intellectual debate, nor needing to find one of the thousand excuses to avoid my salvation.
I could only tell you this much not for the sake of sounding like some nun, but then again at this moment as I pen down this blog. I am just very much afraid too of what I could do, or what I can't anymore. As a matter of fact, I was just out clubbing my heart out in the Zouk's Madhatter's bday party some time last month. And then I was still unable to fend off those wine sessions with close buddies.
But as of now, I have make a promise to close the chapter on Alcohol and Ciggies etc. Because I want too, and there's no reason for such activities which serve to be nothing but health hazards. Not to mention, creating even more chaos and even more unwanted attention. I really don't know how friends will react as well as fml members. But I don't care, for the calling is too intense. As of slowly giving up the little pleasures in life, to be brutally honest. I am still not prepared for that change.
Yet, from Jamie's journey with her spiritual side. I will also take the same pace in finding mine. Being a human I will slide and still have my down days. But I believe in taking the christian approach to what I can fit into the modern day teachings. I will start the preaching, in my own unusual but sincere way.
But most of all, I will still be who I am and be true to who I will end up being. I will make mistakes, but I want you to know that its normal, and it does not justify how bad you are. Because its never too late to change, never too late to return back to your creator.
For the love is so great, btw ( I dun even read the bible...sigh and considering that I want to start preaching...gosh...) However, the main importance at the end of this blog is just to send to you the message of being free, open and not ever needing to worry a single day of your life figuring out your purpose and be unhappy. Because, the actual purpose is already inside you, listen to your heart and be humble and pray to your creator (applying to all religions) and ask for help when you need it. This is the real secret of all secrets :)
God bless you!!!
Love,
Lynn
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