Lately things are just going up and down like a roller coaster ride,i was being told time and time again to relax and stop worrying for it gets me nowhere thus i practiced what i feel should be done right yet emotions got the better of me and i cant seem to understand what is right and what is not...truth is i never ll find the answer to it,for there's no definite right or wrong...
Heart wise i sincerely would do anything to accept my faults and tolerate the many accuse that i m given, but i ll take it for thats what the practice of faith and tolerance of being patient is all about, i ve just realised how many things dere r for me to work towards too...and yet i cant help but feel very difficult to rise up everytime it hits on me hard, they say being the leader one should stand up and be cool never to show any sort of negative behaviour and always to stay motivated and positive...
At times i wonder....leaders are human and have feelings too...i accept the decision i made, i ll focus on giving and deliver the task,yet i want to do so in the best possible way of being kind, and compassionate and not to become too ruthless....and yet it seems that it does not happen this way...compassion and looking after the emotions of a person gets u to be taken for granted,hence the decisions i faced are just so difficult it goes against the principles i hold to my faith, and yet i still pray that i ll be able to conquer this part....perhaps its just to do with myself, but no matter what dere r no hard feelings...i cant stop worrying....and its difficult to relax....but i ll try...becuz i ve too for the sake of everything...(ps :dun take wat i blog to heart its just a place for me to vent out ,this is just crap...expression of pressure management....)
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