Dreams are possible when you believe in it!!! :)

Finally I am back on track, after a one year hiatus....I found my way back to where I left off...
Apart from the spiritual side which I have serve to change for the better, but let's face reality...the human inside me and the GOD that I'm still trying to find my relationship with, will continue to be my biggest battle...


Having said that, I have been given a calling...and I really want to share my dream with those who can understand the reason for it!!!! Before I continue, let me greet you from Sydney, Australia where I am now based at.


The view is magnificent from where I was... continuously inspiring me to remember what and how I will eventually get to the top, right above but not because of my quest in being an achiever but for humanity sake and for a more higher cause. I knew it all along, that I would eventually be a teacher. Having said that, I needed to also know what kind of a teacher I would want to be?? I will not have that opportunity to be the teacher which I vision myself if I don't succeed in being taught by what I consider the best teachers out there.

Hence, the prayer which I made, did wonders when I was offered by the universities which I have applied too and everyone gave me a positive response and it was sign to show that I do have what it takes to make my dreams alive!!! It was a sign to show that a higher calling "GOD" had answered to my prayers and tell me to go on with what I dreamt to do.

However, I really feel for my people back in Malaysia especially the students which I have taught. The sad reality has made their education system stumble to such a degrading outcome, it's impossible to even imagine what's left of the next generation. The last straw was when they make it compulsory that Science and Mathematics subjects being switch back to Bahasa ( Malay language). Honestly, what are they thinking??? I am not going to even go into there, for the frustrations and the reality have already been pointed out clearly that if you take things to light, will not get anywhere. Thus, you work within yourself and silence is golden until action is delivered to make things happen!


For a teacher, it is very depressing when students who work amazingly hard, delivers good results and yet, not given the spot they deserve in universities. It is truly disheartening and the worse thing about being that teacher to those students, you virtually feel the pain and anguish they have suffered because you are virtually experiencing it yourself. The motivation has only come to a road block and hence, you start reflecting upon yourself what have you/they done wrong??Or rather, what can you do that may possibly provide a solution perhaps, in future?

Having said that, the passion of being a teacher. The desire of hoping that someday Malaysian students will be given the opportunity they deserve. The chance to just have good quality education with a fair system behind. Until then, as the saying goes, this can only happen when we help ourselves before we help others around us. I am not afraid of what I need to encounter to make this dream happen, the project to build smart/IB schools in Malaysia.

Thus, only education can be the frontier to enable our generation to move on well. We only can part the right knowledge, the truth and good quality education should always be given to students to excel and to live what they deserve if they work hard and strived for it. We only seek justice in light for those deserving and equal opportunity should always be given to all, these are basic human rights which is understood but not adopted. How frustrating, and how sad!!



I will need the support from those who can contribute, from friends around the world whom have that similar understanding when the time comes.Until then, I had better reflect within myself and do whatever I should be doing first, to get to where I can be. However, I truly thank GOD for the amazing family support I have from the mom and brother I love most. They truly went through a lot in life, they inspire me tremendously, and at this stage I am nowhere near my goals yet, but I do know that it is a blessing to just have such love and support from my family. It is already a small success just having that alone and I am truly thankful!


Leaving comfort for uncertainty, leaving luxury for poverty (ok that's exaggerated LOL) but whatever it is, I am motivated to do whatever I can to ensure that one day, those students which I had taught be proud and know that their "Teacher" did not fail them. We can't get what we want sometimes, not within our power and control. But, we must not give up and should always strive to improve even though the boundaries are difficult and yet noone can stop our spirits from fighting. Making us stronger, wiser and more human :)

Religious vs Rebellious

This is gonna be an interesting post cuz let me tell u something, do u know that someone who deems to be rebellious is also at the same time religious. In fact, the ones who rebels the most will end up the most religious of the whole lot.

Most of the time they also suffer from a split personality. The reason they do so, is because they're highly intelligent, and when u have high intellect abilities, you see things the average humans don't see. Most of the time you will know that what you're doing is wrong. You will bring up thousand and one arguments within yourself to justify your actions. But at the end of the day, your heart still give you that feeling of knowing that its still wrong.

Then you will still not want to admit and choose to either ignore or justify again with some super intellectual answers to ease off that tingling sense in your heart. Main reason is because you're extremely bothered about your ego status, and refuse to just succumb and give in to admitting your wrong. That's because highly intellectuals also have the highest expectation of being seen as an all rounder, in terms of everything, they're the perfectionist of them all.

Now you will notice as you read through this entry, I am posting up pictures of beautiful beach babes and dude and yes, this is in one of the most amazing beaches of all the beaches alongside Miami beach, as a matter of fact, it is just along the coastline and 2 hours away in the best part of Florida. This is also where your CSI movies and all happening parties and super clubbing events will be hosted. Hence, u want cracks, u can get it alongside the drinks stalls. They even sell weed packets in the candy shop. What an innocent front with so much going on below eh LOL...

That's exactly what I meant when I say that rebellious ppl which we judge as bad will always be the actual angel at hearts, and innocent ones will be the ones to watch out for.In case you're lost. To the new readers of this blog, my ultimate purpose to blog is to reach out to you in the most unusual way possible to get you to come back to your savior (whether u're a christian/buddhist/muslim). If you wanna call me a preacher, then I am one maybe more like a cyber messenger. But I am really doing it because this is what you need to know,in order to free yourself, find your calling and stop being ignorant!!!!

Our time of today has been swap with an evolution of selfishness, our making in a way, but if we don't straighten things out for our future generations. We will be the one (you and me) which will continue to live in such a world of vague and meaningless existence. Imagine if everyone of us, be it a model, a fashionista, banker, lawyer etc.. if we can just incorporate back this little message and try our very best to lend a helping hand in any way we possibly could. How different the world could be and the happiness that brings about it.

If you seat back and seriously ask yourself, whether what you're doing currently makes you happy. Nine out of ten of you will say you're not. The next question that comes along the way will be what do you want to do? What will truly make you happy??What is your purpose in life?? what is your reason being here?? Have you ever ask yourself these questions? Or do you choose to ignore it because its just too much to even think about it.But the truth is that, if you never find these answers, you will suffer all your life. Its just a matter of running and hiding and den having to confront and run and gosh....so tired adi jt thinking abt it...


Now let me tell you the answer is inside you, look inside your heart open up and let that conscience out. I am sorry if I sound suddenly so pushy all at once. The reason, I am so excited is because I'm let in on the secret and the answer to it, and I want you to experience such tremendous clarity, joy and happiness when you find this.

Of course, i will be perceive as a lunatic, but i honestly don't care...for my ultimate desire is just wanting to share with you that happiness, and letting you know how much u;re love and cared for, and most of all...the problems that comes about in every one of you, is just not being neglected nor ignored. It is meant to be discuss and to solve and to face and your creators are there to see you through it...only thing now is that, you gotta pick between religious and rebellious but not BOTH!!!....:)

Humility...

As I think back about the times when I was riding the bicycle across the windy highways, I still remember how scary and how brave I was facing that horrific journey on a 5am morning. That very day, thunderstorms were on, with just a rain coat on.I literally drag my way to the front of the coffee house.


Thinking back about the whole incident, it was a miracle to have survive that fierce thunderstorm bought about by a nearby typhoon that was going on. That was the first time I endure how dangerous life could be when you're all alone out there in the world. It was truly an experience. Today I am so proud of telling people about how I use to be a barista and manage a whole coffee brewery. Thanks to my Jewish boss whom had faith in putting his whole shop to my hands.

Having said that, he make sure that I lived comfortably in his staff quarters (a beautiful bungalow) situated in a neighborhood just like what you see in the scenes of desperate housewives episodes.


It was an exchange of providing him excellent service to make sure his customers were happy and making sure his coffee house is well taken care off. Then again its also a big price to pay for we have to travel that dangerous journey knowing that we could die any day of that morning. This is the sacrifices we made :)... but I truly cherish those experience which humbles me to such a level, I realize how much I need to know and how little I would not have become, if I had not took the opportunity to go out there and challenge myself.






Thus,whenever I come across any waiters/waitress especially baristas. I truly respect them and promise myself to treat them with greater respect and will appreciate them for the work they have done to serve the rest of the humans everyday. Sometimes people disregard others just because they're not anybody big. They don't hold big shot positions in corporate firms. That's where I truly thank my mom for always telling me never ever to look down on anyone, because everyone have that equal opportunity to shine, even the boy who works as a cleaner. You'll never know really. Thus, don't you ever dare talk down to anyone, because they're just as human as you.

Contrastingly, when I finally work for a corporate firm. I feel very small and really not proud about myself. For maybe the money is greater, but the satisfaction was really a tug at my heart. Given a chance again, I would return back to the humble coffee parlor. But of course I know my journey now requires me to experience all these,in order to plan for greater things ahead.Hence, the coffee house days are a sanctuary,corporate days are just a reality to understand how badly faith and hope inside people are slowly diminishing. Its truly sad,but it is not an end, we can still make the world a better place if we start with ourselves.


I truly miss my jewish boss and his family whom show me the real deal of how truly successful when one is,yet his mannerism is so ordinary, so incredibly humble and his wife is an angel explaining the angelic children that comes with it. At our first true blue american thanksgiving dinner.


Oby and his wife builds their coffee empire from scratch, and now obby lee coffee roastery together with their trademark Vanilla Dream recipe, is almost like your MILO in north america. But of course, they're just ordinary humans. But this particular town of Rehoboth situated in Delaware, the smallest state in the 50 states of America, serves to show me the most precious kind of humanity that still exist. The love and care of each individual you come across, as I think back of all the things and all the people I met. I believe even if they would have encounter tough times due to the recession. Their faith and belief will bring them through, and that's what make them so special.







To be continued.....

Transition Period.....Heaven vs Hell

Part 2: Journey to the States and back (March 09-Feb 2010)

Its been exactly a year again, and life had been interestingly up and down. I almost forgot about my blog, until I pick up this book by a family friend daughter, who publish her recent biography and experience. It hits home for me, because maybe its to do with the fact that our upbringing is so similar. Of course, hers was much more glamorous to say the least. Yet, for her to transcend and become such a difference, it takes a lot of courage, a lot of humility and a lot of strength to do so. And I must say that, I am very proud of the fact that I had been acquainted to her once upon a time when I was much younger.

To those females especially the ages of 18-62 yrs or so, if you truly need inspiration. Trust me, you will get it through this book.(http://bookstome.blogspot.com/2010/03/call-me-paris-jamie-khoo_24.html)
Having said that, I am now strongly motivated to continue with my own stories reviving this blog, in order to bring in some form of inspiration and to document these one of a kind experiences, which deserve a chance to be told. I left off with my last blog where I was to travel to HK and Florida, US. Hence, starting with the family trip to HK. It was a treat again from the lovely brother as an Xmas pressie.(Told you he was the best brother on earth!!!! :)

We went to Disney HK, and sadly as I think back. I was so ashamed of myself for being so pissy, because I was comparing it to the Disneyland in Orlando ( Just because I had that privilege of being to the World's number #1 Disney park). Of course, not to mention that card which grant unlimited access, my Sea World's employee card.

Imagine being able to go in and out of Universal studios like your Taman Negara, or better still the the normal park right in your neighborhood. Yet, you have people all over the world, coming all the way once in a lifetime just to visit, being so excited, for this was probably their first and last time.In HK Disney Feb 09 ( mini version) with fml and below version of Woody and his gang in the Orlando, Disneyland park Oct 08.

It was certainly a contrast, or as quoted by Jamie's book. A gal spoil for choice and so ridiculously lucky and yet, so ridiculously unhappy. Man , I am seriously in need of brain check. However once again, as they say the pen is mightier than a sword. Thus, the purpose of my blogging is to reach out to people of the world today, that the idea of happiness is truthfully nothing but letting go your egos, facing your fears ,finding your true calling and being grateful and ultimately humble towards yourself and your creator ( be it Buddha, Jesus, Allah or GOD as we all know altogether).

(With one of my best gf and I. We have been through so much together, words cannot describe the journey that we experienced. Yet, she is also one inspirational individual who I truly believe will unleash her potential and soar towards the sky, I have my absolute faith and trust in her!! :)

Hence, of my 26 yrs journey in life. I truly had experience miracles which I cannot deny,tragic incidents which are heartfelt and still paint such strong effects to my soul. However, the holy spirit and I play such a crucial role because, it helps me through and it tells me that if we constantly believe in the best and think the most positive thoughts. No matter what happens, you survive it and you will emerge stronger, and a more wholesome individual.

I could tell you so much, but really a picture do speak a thousand words. One minute I am being send to swim with dolphins in fairytale land which I would only dare to dream upon whenever I read those Disney or Enid Blyton Fairytale stories.

And next thing you know, it send you to the most remote place on earth. with the basic to the basic amenities. Yes I even look super crappy here as I painstakingly work my way through that whole pile of palm oil bunches.
Basically the transition is like from heaven to hell, the 360 degrees turn and how powerful GOD can be when you finally listen and he will instruct you on your mission. I am not any proud of the many things I have done, but I can honestly say that I am just proud of the fact that I am no longer running, nor using anymore intellectual debate, nor needing to find one of the thousand excuses to avoid my salvation.

I could only tell you this much not for the sake of sounding like some nun, but then again at this moment as I pen down this blog. I am just very much afraid too of what I could do, or what I can't anymore. As a matter of fact, I was just out clubbing my heart out in the Zouk's Madhatter's bday party some time last month. And then I was still unable to fend off those wine sessions with close buddies.

But as of now, I have make a promise to close the chapter on Alcohol and Ciggies etc. Because I want too, and there's no reason for such activities which serve to be nothing but health hazards. Not to mention, creating even more chaos and even more unwanted attention. I really don't know how friends will react as well as fml members. But I don't care, for the calling is too intense. As of slowly giving up the little pleasures in life, to be brutally honest. I am still not prepared for that change.

Yet, from Jamie's journey with her spiritual side. I will also take the same pace in finding mine. Being a human I will slide and still have my down days. But I believe in taking the christian approach to what I can fit into the modern day teachings. I will start the preaching, in my own unusual but sincere way.

But most of all, I will still be who I am and be true to who I will end up being. I will make mistakes, but I want you to know that its normal, and it does not justify how bad you are. Because its never too late to change, never too late to return back to your creator.


For the love is so great, btw ( I dun even read the bible...sigh and considering that I want to start preaching...gosh...) However, the main importance at the end of this blog is just to send to you the message of being free, open and not ever needing to worry a single day of your life figuring out your purpose and be unhappy. Because, the actual purpose is already inside you, listen to your heart and be humble and pray to your creator (applying to all religions) and ask for help when you need it. This is the real secret of all secrets :)

God bless you!!!
Love,
Lynn

Life after MSc graduation Feb 2009....;)

I took one year off, and my blog was dead as I had to focus and use all my energy on studies, assignments, projects and thesis writing instead. I manage to come out with the whole book alas under 3 months!!!

In the midst of doing so, I had to sacrifice my social life which was place on hold for nine trying months. Imagine that most people will be celebrating after 3/4 years of getting a bachelor's and yet being the kiasu one out of the whole lot, I readily jump into a Master's programme right after that. Not to mention one, which most ppl have seriously no clue on what the hell we're studying about!! And seriously for a person like me (super city gal) to do it, I'm much more surprise than anyone the fact that I could be thrown into a jungle/plantation seeing and talking to nothing but greens, yet...WTF I make it!!! ;)
To be honest, I never expected to be accepted into this MSc in Crop Biotech programme under Nottingham Uni, somehow I feel that my PR skills got the better of the course director, and now the chief supervisor of my project!! So, it goes to show that anything is possible if you prance and dance around like you own it and just be super hyper and convincing lol...well I'm not lying because although some ppl will say that I am smart (perasannya) , but I really think I'm more of a street smart than a book smart kinda person. but whatever it is, I would still have to say that nothing beats hard work, perseverance and a kiasu attitude lol...;PPosing with palm oil bunches, bitten by mosquitoes all over trying to get palm oil fruits.

The city gal and bunches if palm oil fruits. Seriously it was so hot, I was trying my best to just get through the day. FYI, this is in a super remote area and the hotel I was staying with my best gf whom is also my classmate was super haunted no joke!!!!

This is a dragon-druit plantation which we visited in the field trip.

The poster which was done in 2 days and less than 8 hrs sleep in the process of doing so, still dunno how da hell I survive it!!
Wannabe scientist...seriously I was screwing up so badly here as I realized I mixed up all the wrong DNAs in the wrong tubes hehe..

My best friend WP and I camwhoring when we were suppose to be doing stuff, if you look closely we had panda eyes from deprivation of sleep!!!

It was indeed a challenge, which I hope that this decision will not be all in vain. For now, I am all ready to partay the hell out of this whole intense period and hence I am starting my holiday tour with HK , the starting leg of my world tour, before flying off to Florida,Orlando for 3 mths again, (yes, I did this last year but trip was cut short cuz of studies.... ) to be part of the SeaWorld Internship programme and just fking hell regain back my party queen status!!!
Meanwhile,I don't really want to go into details the amount of stress nor to mention the intensive and trying times which I undergo. But I guess I have to say that after all the endless dramas, over addiction to caffeine and constant battles of the mental mind aka brain. I offically made it on the 21st of Feb 2009.Waiting for my turn to get my gown fitted on.

Acting all cool while getting a pic of myself taken fr the back, to be honest, I was nervous as hell!!


Posing with my super cute brother (sry he's taken hehe) also one of my major supporter in my studies, seriously I owe him big time and I'm not kidding when I say that he's the best brother on earth. I 'm super duper lucky ;)


And the main person behind my success all this while, is non other than my super awesome and pretty mummy!! (Now you know where I inherited my good genes from ..)

This was the 2007 Bachelor's graduation (notice the robe is purple,which was held in March 2008.

Receiving my scroll for the 2nd time within 10 months, quite a record huh...lol ;) This angmoh which is quite cute is seriously a pain in the ass when you see him walking ard in my faculty dept..
Posing with the current chancellor of Nottingham University (63rd ranking in the world according to Times Higher Education,2008). so proud that its a chinese chancellor...go CHINA hahahah

Neways...I m dead tired now, still got tons of pics not to mention stories to continue on, stay tune for part 2 of the grad stories and yes, I plan to revive my blog and am gonna make sure that its gonna be damn awesome, because I have every reason too... not to mention that my pics yet to be posted is so fking awesome!!!! Seriously I aim to be even more famous then xiaxue combining with dawn yang and even Kenny sia although he's not really my main competitor because:

A) I'more educated lol,
B) I 'm damn chio and a city gal too...
C) I've or rather I date angmohs too,
D) I 'm in da states as well, just so that dawn yang can understand det just bcuz she's in NYC, its
not det big deal, cuz god damn it, its just another city and seriously nuthing much to shout abt
and
E) I have made it to be an Asian baywatch chick or rather a Lifeguard in the state, and in Florida the place where Miami is, since I'm certified by the American Red Cross, I can very well be working in the beaches of Miami if I want too. And yes I am or rather ,I was the only chinese Malaysian LG working in da newest water park by SeaWorld called Aquatica opened recently in year 2008, its super awesome park (pics will b posted soon) ....neways my blog title says it all...

So, who's better than to write you all the news and the real deal, hence if you want source of entertainment and a lot more info to help you be inspired,entertained, amusement etc....you just gotta stay tune for more....;)

Hugs & kisses,
Lynn