Life after MSc graduation Feb 2009....;)

I took one year off, and my blog was dead as I had to focus and use all my energy on studies, assignments, projects and thesis writing instead. I manage to come out with the whole book alas under 3 months!!!

In the midst of doing so, I had to sacrifice my social life which was place on hold for nine trying months. Imagine that most people will be celebrating after 3/4 years of getting a bachelor's and yet being the kiasu one out of the whole lot, I readily jump into a Master's programme right after that. Not to mention one, which most ppl have seriously no clue on what the hell we're studying about!! And seriously for a person like me (super city gal) to do it, I'm much more surprise than anyone the fact that I could be thrown into a jungle/plantation seeing and talking to nothing but greens, yet...WTF I make it!!! ;)
To be honest, I never expected to be accepted into this MSc in Crop Biotech programme under Nottingham Uni, somehow I feel that my PR skills got the better of the course director, and now the chief supervisor of my project!! So, it goes to show that anything is possible if you prance and dance around like you own it and just be super hyper and convincing lol...well I'm not lying because although some ppl will say that I am smart (perasannya) , but I really think I'm more of a street smart than a book smart kinda person. but whatever it is, I would still have to say that nothing beats hard work, perseverance and a kiasu attitude lol...;PPosing with palm oil bunches, bitten by mosquitoes all over trying to get palm oil fruits.

The city gal and bunches if palm oil fruits. Seriously it was so hot, I was trying my best to just get through the day. FYI, this is in a super remote area and the hotel I was staying with my best gf whom is also my classmate was super haunted no joke!!!!

This is a dragon-druit plantation which we visited in the field trip.

The poster which was done in 2 days and less than 8 hrs sleep in the process of doing so, still dunno how da hell I survive it!!
Wannabe scientist...seriously I was screwing up so badly here as I realized I mixed up all the wrong DNAs in the wrong tubes hehe..

My best friend WP and I camwhoring when we were suppose to be doing stuff, if you look closely we had panda eyes from deprivation of sleep!!!

It was indeed a challenge, which I hope that this decision will not be all in vain. For now, I am all ready to partay the hell out of this whole intense period and hence I am starting my holiday tour with HK , the starting leg of my world tour, before flying off to Florida,Orlando for 3 mths again, (yes, I did this last year but trip was cut short cuz of studies.... ) to be part of the SeaWorld Internship programme and just fking hell regain back my party queen status!!!
Meanwhile,I don't really want to go into details the amount of stress nor to mention the intensive and trying times which I undergo. But I guess I have to say that after all the endless dramas, over addiction to caffeine and constant battles of the mental mind aka brain. I offically made it on the 21st of Feb 2009.Waiting for my turn to get my gown fitted on.

Acting all cool while getting a pic of myself taken fr the back, to be honest, I was nervous as hell!!


Posing with my super cute brother (sry he's taken hehe) also one of my major supporter in my studies, seriously I owe him big time and I'm not kidding when I say that he's the best brother on earth. I 'm super duper lucky ;)


And the main person behind my success all this while, is non other than my super awesome and pretty mummy!! (Now you know where I inherited my good genes from ..)

This was the 2007 Bachelor's graduation (notice the robe is purple,which was held in March 2008.

Receiving my scroll for the 2nd time within 10 months, quite a record huh...lol ;) This angmoh which is quite cute is seriously a pain in the ass when you see him walking ard in my faculty dept..
Posing with the current chancellor of Nottingham University (63rd ranking in the world according to Times Higher Education,2008). so proud that its a chinese chancellor...go CHINA hahahah

Neways...I m dead tired now, still got tons of pics not to mention stories to continue on, stay tune for part 2 of the grad stories and yes, I plan to revive my blog and am gonna make sure that its gonna be damn awesome, because I have every reason too... not to mention that my pics yet to be posted is so fking awesome!!!! Seriously I aim to be even more famous then xiaxue combining with dawn yang and even Kenny sia although he's not really my main competitor because:

A) I'more educated lol,
B) I 'm damn chio and a city gal too...
C) I've or rather I date angmohs too,
D) I 'm in da states as well, just so that dawn yang can understand det just bcuz she's in NYC, its
not det big deal, cuz god damn it, its just another city and seriously nuthing much to shout abt
and
E) I have made it to be an Asian baywatch chick or rather a Lifeguard in the state, and in Florida the place where Miami is, since I'm certified by the American Red Cross, I can very well be working in the beaches of Miami if I want too. And yes I am or rather ,I was the only chinese Malaysian LG working in da newest water park by SeaWorld called Aquatica opened recently in year 2008, its super awesome park (pics will b posted soon) ....neways my blog title says it all...

So, who's better than to write you all the news and the real deal, hence if you want source of entertainment and a lot more info to help you be inspired,entertained, amusement etc....you just gotta stay tune for more....;)

Hugs & kisses,
Lynn

Memories of no regrets...

Unleashed a moment of glory,
despite all the unnecessary.
So beautiful to have such a feeling,
be it temporary, it will be cherished.

Hopeful of long term reconcilation,
lost with words of imagination.
Time heals and the soul rebuilds,
Happiness rise when life within glows with pride.

Love is so beautiful,
everlasting desires,immuned to behaviour.
Expectation are not in need of a cure,
just a moment of silence and a second of knowing
that one is loved...

Life may be short,
but every new chapter arises,
for now life is just a start,
of a neverending path.

Lastly, u know who u r,
i thank u from the bottom of my heart,
the feeling is unexplainable,
lets see where the boundaries take us afar....:)

Letting go...

To Let go does not mean to stop caring......
it means I can't do it for someone else.

To Let go is not to cut myself off......i
t is the realization I can't control another.

To Let go is not to enable... ...
but to allow learning from natural consequences.

To Let go is to admit powerlessness... ...
which means the outcome is not in my hands.

To Let go is not to try to change or blame another......
it's to make the most of myself.

To Let go is not to care for, but to care about.
To Let go is not to fix, but to be supportive.

To Let go is not to judge... ...
but to allow another to be a human being.

To Let go is not to be in the middle arranging all the outcomes.
.. ...but to allow others to affect their destinies.
To Let go is not to be protective... ...

it's to permit another to face reality.
To Let go is not to deny, but to accept.

To Let go is not to nag, scold, or argue... ...
but instead to search out my own shortcomings and correct them.

To Let go is not to adjust everything to my desires... ...
but to take each day as it comes, and cherish myself in it.

To Let go is not to criticize and regulate anybody... ...
but to try to become what I dream I can be.

To Let go is not to regret the past... ...
but to grow and live for the future.

A little gal's riddle.....

a lil gal sat by the window,
running around in circles.
a life filled with many more laughter,
a love that never rekindles.

She often ask why and what was her fault,
being not the molded creation?
or being ashamed of all that has happened?
The funny thing is that it is not her fault yet,
she wonder why she make a mountain of creations.

Perhaps, all was it to protect,
the very person that made her the way she is,
or rather led her through so much uncertainty,
and yet manipulated her feelings and thoughts.

Let me bring you back to the chapter,
where she was filled with so much love,
she holds on to her impression,
for they say love is all that conquers..

Yet, does it actually matters,
that the very person that meant all the world to her.
seems so lost in space,
so they say forgive and forget,
but what was being inked onto it,
can be forgiven,
but never be forgotten because it has already been displayed.

Now the footing has to be mend,
she goes all out to prove her worth,
she make sure she don't make anymore mistakes.
for she does not want to b made a laughingstock,
for the mistakes that was not hers to carry,
neither was her burden,nor was her making.

She became so torn in between,
either to save herself or make up stories,
or rather save the very person she trust,
for she knows noone will ever bother,
about this pitiful figure,
whom had given her much and yet taken it off as well.

They say being what you are,
truthful to yourself is really what matters.
if u r a good gal,just b proud and b one,
if u aren't,GOD never make u bad,
so this is probably your own making, deal with it.

Yet, sometimes its very unfair that those undeserving ones,
get everything that is not theirs.
And for those that does,not only that they don't get what they deserve,
instead are being thrown all in the wrong path.

So to speak, humans are still made of feelings,
what more a lil gal??
maybe the reason that everything happens,
is all that makes a person learn,
what is left to be, and make to be.

Hatred is gone, love in place,
yet a journey of hurt still takes place.
Somehow its always end in its own way,
to blessed the person of their lost ways,
or bitch it and end up a whole pile of confusion.

Alas,the lil gal learn det,if u do love,
then you must understand and learn to let go.
to blessed them as they carry on their journey,
bless urself more by letting of the burden,
of not ever having to feel sorry,
becuz u have already LOVED..:)

(PS: it has been criticized all along this theory, but how could u change a person whom have so much to offer, when there's already less out dere? being true is what really matters...hence,the story of the lil gal might never have a happily ever ending, but hopefully one that has meaning in which she cherished!! :P)

in the darkest hour

seeping through you,
strangling through all the absence,
noone can tell how perfection kills.
countless of times you want to pull the finale,
you stop yourself because there is too much at stake.

it is worth it??
not to your imagination,
nobody will understand,
because noone can comprehend,
how lovely u look,
how much u accomplish,
yet noone bothers to know,
that what was dere was merely nothing as compared.

you know why the achievement was achieved,
the sorrow det endured,
the pain that cannot be replaced
how can you possibly explain?
you yearn for everything that was never gonna be dere,
you play the impossible,
you live like you were given the best,
or so they thought..

you feel selfish for being incontended,
for what was yours was rob away,
how can they possibly compare?
the only way that could ever matters did not.

values of your concern,
beliefs of what that does not rebel.
you think so much, u are such a loser,
why cant you just be truthful and just let loose?
yet how do you go about and start,
when you know its rather impossible to even know when is the start?

it is possible to hide away,
to run and just never face the truth?
or is it better just to conceal,
play the eye of the beholder,
play the role of perfection,
play the role of everything but not yourself.
because u were ashamed of whatever it could ve matters,
your mind are playing games,
in this darkest hour,
u fear u ll lose,
insanity arises,
or sanity kills,
in such a sad journey,
u ve to rise above.

it was never your decision,
neither your choice,
but you make the best of what you imagine,
you know nothing will help,
because all they ever care,
is how much you are of value to them,
of use, and of purpose,
of sights and of gold.

you either die rich or poor,
never the latter,you finally found love,
but is it for real?
even strangers seems sincere,
even det moment that provided was wat u r willing to sacrifice for,
just to feel a sense of true touch,or sense of self..
complicated, beyond words..
in the darkest hour,
you find its easier if you just end everything
and everything....

life goes on,
stop complaining,
but seriously can it??
angelic people come to your rescue,
and all u ever think about is how stupid they think they are,
that they will ever understand,
or they will ever come close to understanding.

how do u compare, in the 1st place there's no comparison,
u feel like even if u were played out of feelings,
it does not matter,
not like u ever care det it was real anyway,
bcuz even if so it was probably temporary,
and u dun mind sacrificing that second,
why bother to see what is the real conclusion anyway??

its better that they did so to you,
cuz rather than you hurting them
you can get over your conscience anyways,
what was not yours will never be,
and what was yours was also taken away.

maybe its time you just leave,
cuz nothing really matters anymore,
when you feel torn in between,
fake,a mirror of lesions,
life has always been a tough journey.
so u either play along or play within,
or just don't play....

leave...thats the answer,or rather a solution....

in the darkest hour.....

Beneath lies and acceptance...

Covered by a dark cloud,
the sun shines over but it never ceased to open.
It is covered with layers of memories,
so sad it does not realized how entwined it has been.

How else who it have realized?
That being honest is all it needs to unpeeled the layers.
Its sorrowfulness is indeed a surprise,
because it came as a shock from between.

Sometimes its better,
to just accept what was fated,
whether things were to happened?
looking forward is now all that matters.
Fragile to the point it became strong,
no cracks in between, immune to resist.

Its always better to experience then to talk,
because it never understood when no actions are brought upon.
However much difficult,
life goes on...
sometimes we wonder why we made such delirious mistakes..
it feels weird to a point that it just make belief,
but what actuaaly took place cannot be erased deep within.

So what next,
ponders the question of denial,
what happen cannot be changed back,
neither reversed,
taking a day at a time,
until all is well, healed and loved...

if u only knew...

threats are meaningless,
if u leave with it the wounds you hurt.
letting go is never easy,
but moving on is what u need to do to stay alert.

some people r just so beautiful inside,
yet u ve no means to hurt them,
and decide otherwise to leave em.
It ponders on the loss you will regret in time,
or the joy u would never had received.

sometimes its just a matter of choice,
yet, some choices are fixed upon.
we wonder why??
Thinking twice,
its really a matter of 2 lives entwined,
somehow belonging to 2 diff worlds det will never coincide.

the mind makes complications,
det arise like no intuitions.
alas its not a kindred spirirt,
intentions at large,or rather pure spirits.

have loss many senses of faith,
to revived again somehow takes too much effort and drive.
maybe drifting away at a point allows the freedom of the mind,
or perhaps, if it never encounter the sheer temptations,
it will continue to just stay put and turn dry.

you will never know until u try,
that was being said all the while.
yet, when what turns ugly at the end of times,
definitely is not easy to comprehend with just a good cry....

when we finally come to senses,
u dun run away from within.
what tells u and teaches u,
r not just in between.
Everything holds bigger meaning,
if u look afar and learn anew.
Open your mind, and challenge the dream,
of being merely the lesser the better akin.

Living immortal, is merely a sin,
mortal beings goes to heaven up with HIM!
Life's a blessing, bigger blessings comes beyond then,
why live in fear, ponder in sheer,
and brings about unhappiness,
when's all bound to be cured.

When u finally dare to be different,
take up the challenge,
facing the biggest battle,
of learning to not hold back,
don't give excuses, but just to hold on to
faith and spirit that has always been given
for the LOVE by HIM!!!

is it possible?

fate plays a weird game,
when it allows you to meet an unexpected guest.
the blossoming fact is nothing but merely an answer to your own quest.
You wonder whether it last or its just for a short frame.

why do the mind ponder so much?
when all it ever seems like, are nothing much but just a passing by occurence.
Yet, it seems wasted,dawn on something far beyond that.
Wishing that everything isn't so complicated,
however much expected, however much degraded.

To run away from reality,refusing to believe what should be seen,
some people are just not worth it,or so to say,
some are just too worthy of any unkindness befallen on them.

Hence, guilt rise up in the heart beyond,
for it never actually opens out and sings the song.
Question is, should it continue...or should it be ignorant, or rather,
follow the flow of the river, which hopefully brings it to a better
ocean....

quater life crisis...

In the midst of receiving the bulk of emails everyday, yet i cant seemed to dismiss this particular one which just seems so honest and yet exactly how and what i actually feel at the moment..anyhow..here goes..

BEING TWENTY - SOMETHING (Read The Whole Thing.... It's worth it.)

They call it the "Quarter-life Crisis."

It is when you stop going along with the crowd ,
and start realizing that there are many things about yourself,
that you didn't know and may not like.
You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two,
but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.

You start realizing that people are selfish and that,
maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to,
aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met,
and the people you have lost touch with,
are some of the most important ones.

What you don't recognize is that they are realizing that too,
and aren't really cold,catty, mean or insincere,
but that they are as confused as you.

You look at your job...
and it is not even close to what you thought you would be doing,
or maybe you are looking for a job,
and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom,
and that scares you.

Your opinions have gotten stronger.
You see what others are doing,
and find yourself judging more than usual,
because suddenly you realize,
that you have certain boundaries in your life,
and are constantly adding things to your lis,
t of what is acceptable and what isn't.

One minute, you are insecure and then the next, secure.
You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life.
You feel alone and scared and confused.

Suddenly, change is the enemy,
and you try and cling on to the past with dear life,
You realize that the past is drifting further and further away,
and there is nothing to do but stay where you are,
or move forward.

You get your heart broken ,
and wonder how someone you loved,
could do such damage to you.
Or you lie in bed and wonder,
why you can't meet anyone decent enough,
that you want to get to know better.

Or maybe you love someone,
but love someone else too,
and cannot figure out why you are doing this.
Because you know that you aren't a bad person.

One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap.
Getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic.

You go through the same emotions and questions over and over,
and talk with your friends about the same topics,
because you cannot seem to make a decision.

You worry about loans, money,
the future and making a life for yourself...
and while winning the race would be great,
right now you'd just like to be a contender!

What you may not realize is that everyone reading this relates to it.
We are in our best of times and our worst of times,
trying as hard to figure this whole thing out.

Send this to your twenty-something friends...maybe it will help someone feel like they aren't alone in their state of confusion........
Anyhow ...God bless you!

(well i guess if u r suffering the quarter life crisis, rest assured that you are just normal and life will be better if u get it out in the open, face your devils and live a better tomorrow...:) )

Keep walking,though there's no place to get to.

Don't try to see through the distances.

That's not for human beings.Move within,

But don't move the way fear makes you move.

-Rumi-

And the touble is, if you don't risk anything, you risk even more.--erica jong

awakening..

going to the path of memories,
holding back and urging to discover what queries?
consequences of actions are undeniable,
feelings of hurt, being troubled, complicated...

its good when the heart hardens,
yet bad because emotions are no longer real.
role of characters,played at diff times,
diff hours with diff people.

man cannot choose what role to play, rather what is being choose to be played.
wonders of absolutely nonsense,
words of gossip and jealousy.
what could be better than to block it away,
as ignorance is bliss..

its never easy when faced with truth n reality,
yet, worse if it is not faced.
what makes one equal 2, would not necessarily works the same way through.
life is just a lesson,
nothing more nothing less,
u dun owe noone neither do they owe u,
hence, be fair in the decisions u made,
actions u choose and accept the consequence,
let time heal.....

lesson learnt..

its pointless to become what u r not,
trying to fit the bill and getting all lost.
why make the mistake when u know the consequence?
having to suffer and be hurt due to ur own cause..

its easy to say but hard to walk,
its never too late if u turn back the clock.
dun give excuses to what u know its not,
stop hoping and creating pictures which is false.

heartbreaking as it is,
some things are just not meant to be.
people come and go,
love do not.
what u seek, may not be received,
hence its better u let go,
move on and meet what is best and what is yours.

u can never cheat urself,
neither can u fool ur heart.
u know what ll happen if u do not love yourself enough.
thank god for giving u a sense which u can think,
all it might be too late because when u r caught in the web,
things ll be worse and u get yourself in a huge mess.

ps: if u relate to this, dun worry, every mistake made will make u a better person, as long as u know det u can be forgiven, because thats y u learn from ur mistakes...
(time ll heal....:) thank you ( u know who u r )- for making me open my eyes, being cruel to be kind but it is what i need and i ll live through it....thanks...:)

travelling in the states

Traveling in the states

I finally waited till this day; our tour officially kicks off today. After having a wonderful Christmas spent with patricia and bill whom have invited us to have Christmas dinner with em. We are finally on our way back to NY city, as we were driven past Rehoboth city to ocean city Maryland, we were to board our bus dere. Passing by the ocean one last time, I can’t help feeling rather sad having had to leave this peaceful quiet town.

On the other hand, I m so excited having to meet my mom that very nite. Its been 3 months and mummy is flying up here to NY JFK to meet me in Newark Sheraton hotel. As we made our way down this long bus ride, it has been so much excitements that I cant keep still in my seat. Meanwhile we booked ourselves on this 7 days 6 nites tour around the state. We will be visiting the main cities namely Washington, Boston, Philadelphia, Pennsylvania, Delaware, New york, Connecticut, Buffallo and etc.

The summary of the tour is as below:



07 Days / 06 Nights New York / Philadelphia / Washington /Niagara Falls / Boston

DEC 27 HONG KONG / NEW YORK CX 88 / ETA 1955 HRS
Wednesday Upon arrive New Yrok Kennedy Airport, representative will meet & greet at the
luggage claim area. Transfer to hotel for check in. Rest of day is free at leisure.
Hotel : Sheraton Newark or similar class

DEC 28 NEW YORK CITY TOUR - PHILADELPHIA (Guided SIC Tour)
Thursday Representative will meet you at the hotel lobby in the morning and then transfer to bus parking area to start the tour. Today starts with New York City tour include -
China Town, Wall Street, Ground Zero, Intrepid Museum, Circle Line Cruise, United
Nations, Times Square, Rockefeller Center, Fifth Avenue, Empire State Building,
Departs to Philadelphia after tour.
Hotel: Hyatt Regency Penn’s Landing Philadelphia or similar

DEC 29 PHILADELPHIA – WASHINGTON DC (Guided SIC Tour)
Friday A short morning tour of Philadelphia Independence Hall, Liberty Bell and United
States Mint. Transfer to Washington, upon arrival, city tour including Lincoln
Memorial, Vietnam Memorial, Jefferson Memorial, Natural History Museum, Capitol
Hill and White House.
Hotel: Marriott Hunt Valley or similar

DEC 30 WASHINGTON DC – NIAGARA FALLS (Guided SIC Tour)
Saturday Morning departs Washington for Harrisburg, visiting "Hershey's" Chocolate World,
Corning Glass Center. Afternoon heading to Niagara Falls for night view of the falls. Hotel: Adam’s Mark or similar

DEC 31 NIAGARA FALLS – BOSTON (Guided SIC Tour)
Sunday Morning Niagara Falls tours - observe the Canadian Horseshoe Falls (us side),
American Falls, Goat Island, Bridal Veil Falls, " Mid of the Mist " boat ride. In the
afternoon we will leave Niagara Falls to Boston.
Hotel: Hyatt Regency Cambridge or similar

JAN 01 BOSTON – NEW YORK (Guided SIC Tour)
Monday Morning visit Harvard University, MIT, Charles River, Quincy Market. Afternoon
transfer back to New York. Please inform the tour leader or the driver to drop off at the Chinatown and passenger Clients to make own way to hotel for check in.
Hotel: Comfort Inn Manhattan CFM# 29915803

JAN 02 NEW YORK - HONG KONG CX 889 / ETD 2140 HRS
Tuesday Clients to self check out by 11:00 hrs
Client to make own departure transfer to JFK airport
FLIGHT CX 889 / ETA 2140 hrs


We went on to HK for 2 more days spending it in Disneyland since we couldn’t make it to the west side of states. I had the most glorious time. I really thank god for this amazing trip and really am looking forward to more travels with my lovely mom. I am really a mummy’s gal I guess…but u know what I am absolutely proud of it as its really not easy having to establish such great relationship with our mothers and all.

At the end of the day, do cherish ur love ones especially ur parents, they really r the best that ever would have happen to each n everyone of us.. :)

christmas is coming..

Two more weeks, and I m done…hip hip hooray! I cant believe that I finally make it to this far, and yet I feel so sad and so happy at the same time because I will be going back and having to enjoy the life that I m used to instead of suffering here in the blistering cold, the thousand and one chores to do a day, cycling in the damn cold bloody wind, etc…

However, I will be missing so many things here as well…the friends I ve made, the beautiful scenery, my beach house, shopping sprees, the lovely dogs, the $$$...lol…sounds like I ll be missing here more than ever…meanwhile…I am so excited, I will be seeing my mom soon. Cool rite. She’s coming to join me in New York and we are going to travel the states. We ll be spending 7 days around in Washington, Philadelphia,boston, new york..etc..and den to Hong Kong and back to Malaysia. It sounds like we are traveling half the world, lol…meanwhile the coffee house is getting busier by the day as Christmas is coming.

To update a lil, last week I went to Lewes to see the parade for Christmas that they usually have in here.It is a traditional thing, and the place that oby brought us too was really incredible, it looks like what u see in a movie, in fact a recent movie by Matthew Broderick and Sarah Jessica parker was shot dere in that location, we even went to the cottage and church which they used it as the wedding scene. CSI was also shot in this town for one episode, how cool is it… meanwhile we witness the parade in freezing cold, there were cadillacs, cars u see in archie comics, it really exist, then we went bk to oby’s beach front house to celebrate the twins bday with 2 special guest, George and Savando.

They are these gay couples that are ridiculously successful, they own like the top hair saloon in the city here and damn are they humble. They have done sarah Jessica parker’s hair btw when she was dere and god knows how many more celebrities which comes here so often especially in the summer. Meanwhile we went to ocean city Maryland to see the festivals of light. Oby took us to a Japanese buffet, the food was so darn good. Price was better, at $40 per person, yet they have lobsters as big as my whole hand. So I guess its still damn good deal…

We went shopping afterwards. These last few days have been glorious. We had customer giving us tips of $25 just for making coffee for them, Christmas really makes ppl give. And being the receiving ones really feel so good, which means I will definitely not forget pressies I ll be getting for my friends back in m’sia too. Oh I hate to brag, but I just realize that I make a lot for last 2 weeks. And I had never really make that much $$$ for as long as I can remember, and I just feel so good, damn it…I will make sure I get that latest coach bag for mom…see I told u I love u…since u r coming and that I will be having u to pay for more of my shopping den lol…J
But i really need to stop myself from spending so much, gosh u know i brought 10 pairs of shoes, i m dead serious. I just realized it yesterday nite when i almost tripped over the amount of shoe boxes i pile next to my bed.I t probably last me th whole enitre 2-3 years. I still cant believe i actually brought that many pairs.

Seriously the whole entire experience makes me value a lot of things, see things in a much more diff light, and grow up from wherever I was before. I m going to go back soon and the past 3 months I feel that I have grown so much. Working in the states and being part of the town here, seeing my regulars every morning from the state judge, to navy captains, Nasa astronauts, mayors governors, garbage collectors, McDonald owners.

In conclusion, they are just people and they have the greatest attitude ever, the way they respect each other, they don’t rank themselves in status and yet they treat everyone just the same. You don’t see any air or graces; it is a democratic way that they adopt. Of course not everything bout them is great, they still have lots of flaws but to compare asian culture and the Americans….we have still a lot to pick up from, well…at the end of the day, we know now why the American dominates, because the true American which I have the opportunity to know, really shows me the greatest in the personality and humbleness they carry. In which I really truly aspires to be someday……..(i m still extremely proud to be a m'sian...:) )

Thanksgiving week...

Finally, I get an off day at last. I have not been updating myself with loads of thing recently, especially in replying emails etc. Gosh, if u only knew how difficult it is for me to get access to the internet here. Thank gosh work is filling my time hence, I don’t have to suffer the consequence of being cut off the rest of the world having to not receive any phone calls, emails until days or even weeks. The only person that I probably get to call is my mom and then again, that’s like what….once in a fortnight, meanwhile its not that I don’t wanna apply for a phone line, I figure there’s no point, cuz I am going to be here for only a short period, besides not that I have that many people to call and what’s more its not cheap to pay for the fees. Nevertheless, I ll resort to this for another 7 weeks or so, and then its back to M’sia…:P

Its winter now, days are getting shorter and nights longer, the sun rises at 630am here and sets by 530pm, sad rite.Meanwhile my time here is getting shorter and shorter, Thanksgiving is just next week, and my big shot boss of cuz is scheming on making the most out of it, with throngs of people coming down here for the last minute shopping thing, I guess its now or never to move in for the final kill to make the $$$. There’s like so many different cookies, tins, check this out snowball filled pretzels , seriously with ice and all that we ordered, and I ve been busy labeling all these things, packing chocolate balls and stuffing myself with them…lol what to do I cant resist it man, and of all things working with chocolates ….really it’s a lil of a dream job rite now…:)

Then of course, there’s the more important stuff, the COFFEE, u know we have more than 50 flavours of coffee, from chocolate raspberry, pumpkin pie spice, coconut kiss, hawaian hazelnut,…..u name it all. I am bagging the coffees like crazy and brewing it like hell everyday, cuz I just realized that the ppl here are seriously addicts and boy the bags just disappear once on the shelves. I smell so coffee these days, no wonder I have so many ppl staring at me one kind whenever I am out, maybe my coffee fragrance is just too irresistible, yucks….well as long as the cuties is the ones that I am attracting, who cares , hmm….

Meanwhile work is interesting as usual, OBY Coffee house is undergoing a major transformation, they brought in samsung brands of computerized cash register,whole entire place is now equipped with all these cameras, basically, oby wants to make his place an upstream market, well who blames him when his regulars are ppl like Kelly ( the biatch) but also a bloody known gazillionaire, check this out….she owns 17 McDonalds in the states, what the fk….and yet she’s so stingy on tips, complains bout how expensive our coffees are, gosh I just don’t understand, woman, u probably have enough cash to buy the like 20 coffee house, whats with the $3.95 a cup thingy…then again, there’s still the nicer ppl which I love making coffee for, I get like $5 tips sometimes just for making a shot of espresso. But its just a rare occasion lol…

Actually, working as a waitress in here enables u to earn a lot especially if u r working in a high end restaurant. The basic is rather little, because u expect to get it from ur tips. But since I am a barista, I get a standard pay which is 3 times more than a waitress, but my tips are very little and it depends on the customers whether they want to give me or not as they are not compel too.

But it probably comes out the same, cuz when business is slow especially now, the poor waitress wont get anything then, on the other hand, I still get my steady income regardless slow or not slow, but of course my boss works me like hell. But its still alright I guess ( mind me I love to exaggerate a lil too much sometimes hehe). Last Thursday, I went for the biggest shopping spree of my life, gosh I am high maintenance, and now I better work harder to keep my habits, shit man…I prolly bought everything on Sale at Guess, Coach, Polo, and tommy. And I am still waiting to hit Abercrombie, Gap, CK, etc…but really I cannot be blamed, the price was like one third u pay in M’sia , its incredible, the same thing, but the cost, so much more cheaper. I have to really stop myself man, u should have seen how mad a shopper I am.

oh I went to a highschool football game..Check this out, I saw it live, no joke, it was Sussex tech vs polytech college last season game. You have no idea how cute footballers are, and when they tackle each other they fall like a pile of cuties waiting to be picked up…man my imagination is running wild.

As usual, we were the only Asians there, so of cuz I get my fair share of attention at the stadium ( not very huge one though), apparently there were larger stadiums around. This is so cool right, a high school completes with a stadium just for their own football games, oh did I tell you that they have an entire garage fill with cars, spare parts, etc, because they happen to have subjects such as automobile tech or something, its equivalent to our KH subjects in M’sia school, cept that we study the engines and memorize like hell whereas they get a real live car, and they get to modify it and build their own engines whatever they want for their project, how rich can a school get?????

OH btw the cars are not just ordinary cars, u know chevys, mustangs, Hondas…crap man….well what to do, this is like the best tech school in the whole state and Ariane, my coworker is just so bloody lucky to get to study dere, oh rite she’s 16 and she owns a horse too, cuz her extracurricular activities at school is horseback riding, so u kinda need to buy a horse to enroll into it…sigh….at 22, I don’t even own a car yet….and she owns a horse, it’s name is Sadie and it cost usd 2000 for it, and u maintain it at $300 a month which there’s Amish ppl to take care for u. And if I work here for 3 months, I know I can buy that horse too, so, u see u can drive ur Porsche, but I have a HORSE….i ll ride it around, save petrol, and it keeps me warm, and I still get all the attention LOL….what bull shit…

I think I have updated most of the stuff, neways, hope I’ll update more on Black Friday event next week….bet u dunno what is it, ll tell more stories then…till then.thats all for now…(gosh I write and talk too much..:) )

hey dere

Hey dere,

How have u guys been? Meanwhile Happy Halloween! Last Friday, I held a party at my hse , cuz it was sort of a welcome party for me and my friend Florence in here. Our American friends which we made here wanted to throw it for us, so of cuz we can’t say NO rite. Lol Meanwhile, these ppl are seriously cool, they decorated the whole entire hse, and gosh it was really really nice, u should have seen the spiders and webs and god knows wat they put in here. Honestly if u guys were here as well, definitely the party will be even better cuz u know rite how much I miss u all…awww….:) I m serious k…
Meanwhile this was my first time having an all American party, like I told u, we r like the only Asians here, so u knowlar not to say we dun wanna invite Asians but dere r like no Asians to invite, so its more of an all white party. So, how did it went???

Honestly, u wont wanna know….but all I can say is det in life u must at least get urself invited to an American party, and then u ll seriously know how much fun u missed….lol
Dun worry, the police din turn up, even if they did, my American counterparts here are too smart for them to do anything. But on a more serious note, I think this would be the one and last party I’ ll ever host for a long time becuz I dun think my heart can take anymore of this kind of shit all in one night. Heck it was still fun, so no regretslar..:)

Meanwhile, I m starting to really get use to life here, then again, I m also worried, I hope I dun start becoming so attach to this place n den next thing I know I come back all American wannabe, and start speaking like some bloody angmoh…but den look so m’sian , u knowlar how we use to complain bout our “friends” which comes back from Australia, states, UK etc with an accent and trying to be cool all that crap.
But I can now tell u the logic out of it. Did u know that most of us are not pronouncing our “Rss” properly. We can understand each other back where we r, but in here noone can understand what we say when we speak words with Rrrs…And that’s why in order to let them understand us better, we speak like em, and imagine me having to take their orders down, so if by any chance I really come back and start speaking like wat I just told u…dun blame me k....okay, lets move on more interesting things…hmmm I m being kau by an American hahahaha….btw he’s pretty cute….oh and also by a russian.....lol…damn man, I m such a biatch….i cant help it…..so u see….not that I m so proud or anything….den again….i dun feel so homesick anymore…so….what else??/

I knowlar…u wanna know more of wat is going on rite...:P but reallylar…I m too mature
for all of em…so seriously…I think nothing ll probably happen, I m still going back to finish up my degree no matter wat man, wasted so much of everything in it. Hmm,…or..should I just go get a “MRS” degree…LOL….tempting..really..what to do, rich country like this,seriously standards of living really big difference. But home is still homelar I guess, nothing beats home….den again…..HOW ARR??? Lol….did I tell u det the American’s dad owns a big construction company ,gosh I m seriously in deep shit now..jokinglar :P
Luv, lynn

Halloween Party..:)

A month has gone pass already, and this coming week Seawitch festival is just around the corner, which means we are going to have again a hell of a week with nonstop lines of customers. Meanwhile, a lot of interesting things happen over the week. Firstly, I get to carve my first pumpkin, it was like being a little kid again, but damn it was so much fun doing so. We had the jack o lantern up just like how we always see white kids do on TV.Back in Msia, I think none of us actually ever does stuff like det, not to mention the trick or treat thing. Oby gotten us the pumpkin, and he took it all the way from the pumpkin patch which is the place where pumpkins are grown.

The work thing is going on fine, I am like a super expert in espressos, but my poor hands have been scalded so many times by the fking machine I think it gotten used to it. Meanwhile my cappuccino, kahlua and cream latte is my best drinks which I perfected making it. This French customer, damn well mannered and refine guy actually told me that I make him the best cappuccino so far he has been in the states, and he actually said det I match the standard of what he gets back in France. Man I am so honoured. Maybe I was actually born to make coffee, lol and the most ironic part is det I don’t even drink coffee....(surprising rite)

This coming week is the celebration of Halloween, and this Friday, I am throwing a party at my hse, all rather WE are throwing a party at the house. Heather was the one with the idea, meanwhile I guess she had invited almost everyone she knows, so I guess we are gonna be having this wild party cuz this will be the first one which I am going to be in with a roomful of whites and Russians. Damn, sure hope nothing gets out of hand. However, everyone is told to bring their own beer, so I guess it will be whole load of fun provided noone starts getting too drunk and god knows wat will happen. Nevertheless, I am anticipating it, cuz I do wanna see how ppl can get that rowdy when they r drunk, of cuz I will make sure I get out of the way, or safest bet I will just stick to Volva…lol…

I invited him, and he was more than eager to come, but the only reason I did other than the fact that he’s really gd looking (haha, very funny rite) cuz not of that reasonlar…its cuz I just want him to bring the liquor and purchase for me as well cuz u know rite he works at the liquor store, which means he buys any liquor with a 20% discount (not to say that its that expensive cuz its already like super duper cheap here). I know, I sux, damn bad wei…use ppl like det, but den again a party still a party and the more the merrier. Meanwhile at least I know I ve some decent ppl to hangout with just in case that crazy American gal and her friends gets out of the line.

It’s a Halloween party, so everyone must come in a costume, and heather decided she’s gonna be a witch, and Aida a gypsy which I think suits her well, and me lol :) I am gonna be a bloodsucker haha, hmm…I haven’t thought of it yet. I think I will come out with something by Friday. Worse to worse I become a mummy wrap myself in toilet paper lol..

I went out with Aida and Heather to FRiendlys for ice cream on tues, and we met another group of angmohs again. These ppl damn uselesslar, they were all high as hell, after their joint, and then the worst part is they were driving and racing around the highway. Luckily there were no accident but thank god the police here are pretty efficient and they round em out in no time. They deserve itlar, drinking and driving is already bad enuff, not to mention smoking pot, drinking and driving at the same time.

The place I am in is actually an almost zero crime rate area , only thing is the people idea of a party just always seems to end up with nothing other than drugs. But who’s to blame when they get it so easily here, do u know det when Florence was ill, I had to buy medicine for her, and I was able to buy NYQUIL over the counter without any prescription just like det. In case u dunno wat’s det, it’s the flu mixture which makes u damn high when used in excessive in fact it taste damn good too.And yes, the effects is like weed, in fact it is way better, it numbs u out and when I ve a bad day at work, honestly it is dangerously attractive.

Meanwhile I set some strict rules and I m making sure everyone abides to it, cuz I dun wanna have any police up my doorstep and if Oby finds out he will freak the hell out. So those under 21 if they wanna drink be smart and just run if anything goes wrong, otherwise just borrow a fake ID or whatever. DRUGs not in the house, if I find it dere, OUT u go.. u can do it like anywhere else but not in my hse. Cuz if anything goes wrong I could be in serious trouble. There’s like a woods with a lake in the neighbourhood which I live in, so most ppl goes dere to make out, etc. Well u r most welcome to do ur stuff dere. BUT NOT IN THE HSE!!!! Volva promised that he ll help me make sure all his Russians buddies get the message, and den again nobody will be det stupid to place themselves in such a dangerous situation cuz to come here is already hard enuff not to mention obtaining working visas, last thing we wanna do is ruin our reputation..

Just det I am still worried bout heather and her American friends, u know I ve already prepared myself for the American culture, yet, I still find it difficult at times when I see them get so bloody wild. I can take it, or rather at some point I just cant, maybe dets why I was born a Chinese and I am really proud of being one. At least I still have my sense of rationality no matter how high I become, and the most important thing not let anyone get the better of me. So like I say, I invited volva, so he could kinda take care of me, hahaha…(u know I wish u were here) ….

Anyways, m looking forward to Halloween, and den thanksgiving will be up next, for now I gtg get ready for work. The weather this week is freezing again, so damn bloody cold. I miss Msia, really do, then again I prolly ve loose ends dere which makes me wonder about a lot.

Greetings from delaware....

Its been a month since I left home to embark on this journey. Time flew past me, the last 2 weeks has been a seriously life changing time for me. I had to settle in to a foreign land, having finalized my job, housing, rent etc. Getting myself used to my job and actually fitting in to the city of Rehoboth avenue. Finally, I am getting use to the whole deal now.
It was rather difficult when Florence my companion in this trip fell sick. I was worried like hell for her and then again I had to work her shifts as well.

Meanwhile my job is going on fine, in fact, I had received my first pay check, seriously I feel so proud of myself cuz I cant believe that I just manage to earn my first paycheck in USD, and man although the work is hell a tough job, but $$ is always the motivating factor I guess lol…oh btw I have went to open a bank account last week. I did it with Wycovia bank, a really big bank corp apparently. Hence, at least I get to save a little of what I earn before I spend it all off lol..:)
Truthfully, I am getting a lil homesick, but I refused to call home because I don’t want to feel even worse after that, I miss my family, mom and bro especially, my friends, especially the food in M’sia. However, I should not complain too much cuz working in Oby’s coffee house, I am already privilege enough to be able to eat anything I want and the best part is his food and his coffee (espresso con pama) is the best in the whole state of Delaware. People pay like RM20 for just a plain croissant, damn either they are stupid or plain rich. Then again in the town of Rehoboth city, you seriously don’t seem to see any poor people other than exchange students like myself…..which means I am consider the poor ranking citizens, goodlah…good reason for this ppl to give me more of their cash hehehe…

The place which I am staying in this neighborhood. It is one of the high end places and really I ve nothing to complain about. I probably will never get a chance to stay in such a big hse on my own. The house has a complete basement, attic just exactly like an American dream hse .My neighbours are snobbish like hell. Yet, thanks to my super filthy rich employer whom probably owns like a stretch of houses. By the way, I have not properly introduced my boss yet. He’s the all American guy, with a super gorgeous wife to die for, gosh I swear, she looks like Jennifer Anniston, exact blonde version and has that pair of super cute twin boys and a beautiful daughter clone version of the wife. Luckily he is a nice guy, he had been really nice to me and Florence, except when he’s in his mood, and seriously gets on your nerves when he gets u to do things for himFor now, my job scope is managing the whole entire coffee house; I am a barista cum manager cum sandwich maker, cum toilet cleaner, etc. Gosh can u believe it??? I actually can do all these stuff. I even ground the coffee, and yes we roast our coffee ourselves. There are like all types of beans from everywhere. I even learn to make waffles, like seriously make the paste to produce them .Apart from baking the stuff which is handled by the baker, cuz they have to protect the secret recipes in it. Other than that, every damn thing, from Brie plate, to smoothies, lattes, espressos, brewing coffees, grinding beans, bagging coffee u name it.

Meanwhile, a lot happen last 2 weeks. Firstly, my boss took us down to Dover city largest hotel cum casino to participate in the food fair exhibition .Apparently; all the owners of the largest restaurants around the area were there to try out the latest things for food in making. Needless to say, we were practically attending a buffet party, we get to try all sorts of food from the latest flavours of Haagen Daaz, to Sara’s lee latest cake versions,man it was a huge gourmet thing. All types of salmons, veals, scallops, wines, foie gras, etc. I ate so much I wanted to puke. It was really a fantastic show; I met the owners of Outback steakhouse, those posh Italian restaurants, and all those leading ppl in the food industry. It was an eye opening experience, too bad I can’t take pictures of it cuz the security was rather tight .Then again, all the big guys are in town, what would you expect.

Then Oby, took us again to another restaurant for supper, as though we had not ate enough, luckily I m working so I can burn all these guilty calories. This time it was some Japanese restaurant. And one of the most famous jap dining place in the Lewes town. Meanwhile, I guess I m pretty lucky to have the chance to attend a food show such as this. Afterall it’s only by VIP invitation, and I, (a nobody) actually have the invitation to get in.: P Oh did I tell u, I met a few Russian exchange students here, and yes they are all guys. Really cute ones too, like seriously good looking, and one of them who happen to be working at the liquor store. A seriously heavenly place to go too in America, especially when u see the price, RM 20 for a dozen of bud light weiser, in bottle form..i swear…drinking water is even more expensive. Meanwhile, this guy Vulva (what a name rite?) he comes visits me everyday when he walks past the store to his workplace. It’s great to have a friend to see u a day; at least I get to talk to someone my age.

Then again he’s Russian, so when we speak, it’s like a dog vs cat kinda language. But funnily we understand each other, (hey dun worry lar, I m not into Russians, seriously although they r cute etc. yet dun seemed to appeal to me, then again I guess I never know…)

You know, I just realized how many things that I do not know before, and now I finally open my eyes, I feel so dumb knowing that before I came for this trip, I feel like a frog in the well, whatever it is, it’s never too late to learn, and most importantly I am learning it now. By the way, my cooking skills had improved tremendously. Meanwhile I guess I ve pretty much updated my days here. I am planning to get a 2nd job, had applied in a few nice places. Hopefully I get it, and then I can earn even more, and then shop like hell in New york….

I miss that city, can’t wait to go back dere, which I will after this whole job stint. Oh I gotten myself a Coach bag, and I m heading to Polo, tommy and the rest of the outlets later next week, before the Halloween festival, and my 2nd paycheck on the way….gosh, if u see the prices and the goods u get here, for it…one word…SHOPPING PARADise.. ..:)

The whole new american lifestyle..

I am trying to get used to my new life here. Its getting on fine except that i suddenly feel the lost of comfort....lol...hmmm, lets see i am such a spoilt brat back in M'sia, i had no house chores, no laundry etc. You know the typical city gal det kinda ve evrything done for her because she's either plain lucky or rather one word"spoilt" hehehe...sheesh i m having fun criticizing myself...but seriously now everything is on my own, from laundry to cooking to watever det needs to be done which was taken care of by my maid and all det, i m suddenly appreciating maids very very much.

Meanwhile, apart from the cooking which is something i am not complaining about cuz i love cooking, bakiing wateverlar cuz i m just so in love with food, other than that i do admit i missed home a lil, i miss my car. In here, i get around on foot or by bicycle, which is good cuz seriously i was afraid that i might come back being FAT, but now i dun need to worry bout this issue cuz with the amount of cycling i m doing from my neighbourhood to my workplace, and to every other part of this beautiful town, i guess i could actually come back looking really fit.

Yesterday was a record day , i worked through 12 hours in the roastery. It was only my second training day, and yet, my co worker which was supposed to mentor and teach me was fired because once again she came out with some stupid excuse that gotten my employer to be rather fed up of her lies which she has done pretty much the last few weeks.Hence, with me barely knowing things around, i had to man the whole entire place for 2 hours before oby came in with extra help.Thank GOD we managed to go through the whole day, and customers were pouring in like hell, damnit n i was just getting started hehehe...anyhow my coffee making skills were superb, i did like 10 shots of espresson in one go, i ve to say that i m quite proud of the fact det i manage to do so. Americans are also really patient people, although some italian and french ppl can be really irritating at times, cuz they know so much bout coffees they dictate u to make the espresso specifically and make u redo again and again until they r satisfied.(phew, lucky i din meet em yet).

I am learning so much bout coffee although i dun drink em but seriously its really so much fun to learn too, from shots, to lattes, the list is really endearing but fulfilling too. One thing i cant deny, people in US give tips generously, gosh u know although the work is nothing to shout about, in fact it is rather difficult too if u aint prepare for it.However, at the end of the day when u get tips like det and u can go over to places like Marshalls (branded warehse store) and get a pair of branded glasses just from ur tips. Man i m lovin the american wages and its spending power in a dollar.Hell u work like shit in M'sia and yet u prolly cant even manage to pay up ur expenses not to mention luxury items to pamper urself. Anyways, i m really motivated now, hehe its funny cuz i m educated to such an extend and i end up working as a barista but earning so much more in terms of det. Living in such a cool hse, and once again i m just a waitress (ironic isnt it??)
gtg for now, work starts soon...:P