For a dear friend who is having it tough....

At times, ppl really faces tough challenges especially when it comes to love. Lately, i know of some whom have been having it really bad, hence, i know its difficult when u wanna get out of something which u cant seemed to see the light but other could see it for u. Yet, sometimes words and actions will not help because in actual fact nothing works, the only thing that will is time and you. Based on this, it inspired me to write down this poem to u (u know who u r).I am afraid i dunno how to help anymore, because i am never gonna be able to make gold out of dust,hopefully u ll understand. And yes, i had it before, but i m through, i feel good..and dets why i know how u feel n how to help u see things through.......

Dear friend, I hope that you can feel much better after reading this poem which might hopefully allows u to search for ur answer...

In the time when you feel darkness,
surrounding u and suffocating u.
Even when the sun is shining brightly,
you will not feel its everlasting glow.

In the time when your anger, suppreses u,
when u just wanna burst within.
Even if there are angels showering you,
with all the love and care,
You will remain angry ,
and refuses to accept its presence.

what is wrong can be right,
But what is right is right.
Hence, you can make things wrong easily,
but making it right ,it takes centuries.

You feel torn and used within,
But don't you see that it is all a feeling,
a sense of the moment,a second of glory.
Look further and you will noticed,
that if u managed to shine and come out in between,
you will turn and become the best,
of what u truly deserves to be.

Words cannot expressed,
how much det u ve been hurt.
Take it easy ,
den for u could be all that u r worth.
You dun need to find excuses,
neither do u need to search.
All you have to do is let it off,
and time will healed.

The facts might me crude,
but the truth will remain the truth.
When you burn a paper,
the paper will turn to ashes,
ashes never turn back into paper,
and thats really an impossible thing to do.

My dear friend,i hope this poem
will get through to u,
i really truly do,i
f i did what u truly wants me to do,
then i ll be destroying you.
Because i cannot turn ashes to be paper,
this is something nobody can do.

But i know of how ashes will be flown away,
and in time you will manage to find back the paper.
Only thing is ,it will be brand new,
and fill with everthing that u desire.

it still has to start from you,
because you light the candle,
and u shall shine brightly as you always do,
because you are worth it,
and you just need to get a grip,
and let the candle shines thorugh!!! :)

Be sucessful...

Have you ever heard the expression, "Don't count your chickens before they hatch?" Maybe an older, wiser individual would tell you this to keep you from getting ahead of yourself. Like buying a new car before you actually got that new job. Well, when setting and obtaining your goals, you need to "Count your chicken before they hatch" in your mind. What I mean by this is you have to start seeing yourself completing or obtaining your goal. What you profess, you possess!

The first thing you need to do is sit down and set your goals. Diana Scharf Hunt said "Goals are dreams with deadlines." A lot of times, people are thrown off by the idea of taking the time to set their goals. But when you take a trip, do you not come up with a plan and ultimate destination. Well, setting goals is the same process. I suggest that you first do a Must Have, Why, How analysis.
First, write down a list of must haves; bigger home, luxury trips, new cars, work from home, etc. Then decide why these must haves are important to you and prioritize them. Lastly, write down how you are going to get the must haves.

Also, ask yourself these questions:
What are the tools and resources do I need?
Why do I not have what I want now?
What past experiences are in the way?
Who can I talk to that has already succeeded?
How am I paying for this?
What are the tradeoffs?
What am I going to give up?

From this analysis, start writing down you goals. Remember, without a start, there cannot be an ending. Denis Watley stated "The reason most people never reach their goals is that they don't define them, or ever seriously consider them as believable or achievable. Winners can tell you where they are going, what they plan to do along the way, and who will be sharing the adventure with them."
Once finished writing your goals, next you need to start visualizing your dreams. Henry David Thoreau once said "If one advances confidently in the direction of his dreams, and endeavors to live the life which he has imagined, he will meet with a success unexpected in common hours." You need image yourself accomplishing your goals and obtaining your treasures. Will yourself into succeeding. Never think that you cannot reach your desired results. Talk about the desires as if you have already obtained it. A good practice is to read your goals daily. If you are having a bad day, read them over and over.
Thirdly, you need to get the tools and resources to needed to accomplish your goals. Maybe you have decided to start a home-based business as a mechanism to consummate the acquiring of your dreams. Start gathering documentation on how to run your home-based business. Join service group that might help you. Take the step to start reaching your goals. Kathy Seligman said "You can't hit a home run unless you step up to the plate. You can't catch a fish unless you put your line in the water. You can't reach your goals if you don't try." Get started today!!
The fourth point is to surround yourself with like-minded people. In the Bible, Jesus told one of his disciples, "Get behind me Satan." What he was saying was if you are not with me, you are against me. The same applies to you. Detach yourself from people who are negative towards you goals. If you are going to be rich, why not surround yourself with people who are already rich. David Joseph Schwartz once said "Think little goals and expect little achievements. Think big goals and win big success."
Lastly, and most importantly, do not be afraid of success. This phobia is the main reason most people fail. They make no preparation for succeeding. When they succeed, they do not know how to act. People start questioning their success. They start telling themselves that they do not deserve to be successful. And eventually, obtain what they profess. When you are setting your goals, make a plan for being successful. Tell yourself that you deserve to be successful and that you should procure your desires. Catherine Pulsifer best sums this up, "The unfortunate aspect about living life without your own goals is that you may very well reach a point in your life where you will wonder, 'what would have happened if I had only done..." In closing, the first thing you need to do is start planning and setting your goals. Then you need start visualizing yourself completing your dreams. Also, you will need to get some tools and resources that will help you achieve you goals. And surrou nd yourself with people who are positive and have the same goals as you do. And most importantly, prepare yourself for success. When the time comes, don't be afraid to be successful. Think about this, in the Bible Jesus said, "As a man thinketh in his heart, so is he." You need to start seeing yourself as attaining your goals. Act and talk as if you already have obtained them. Now get started!

tranquility

when thoughts are ajar,
when imagination is far,
what makes the mind in accordance,
is what makes the heart at par.

when the moment get the better of you,
when nothing revolves and nothing comes through.
seek within your soulful self,
you will find all you need and thats what that helps.

when troubles arises,keep firmly on your grounds,
stand around and look before you when you start.
when actions count and nothing leads you to go in between,
you will see the sun rises and you feel like a queen.

this brings about a vivid dream,
a fairytail of wonders,
a life peaceful and serene.
what makes the heart sees,what makes the eyes breath,
tranquility,the ore within!

redang trip..

immediately after i came back from s'wak, upon resting for 2 days and its off again to redang island. We left on mother's day, i had dinner at the ship wif my family before they drop me off to board the bus with the whole bunch of my uni mates....all in all the experience was one word"unforgettable" ...

Having travelled pretty much since i was younger, i definitely experience all sorts of vacations, from camping types, to boarding a yatch,cruises,tours, performances etc lets just say i had it both sides, being with the groupies, the snobs and now the mates... anyhow i took this experience and the other experiences as well to learn the most out of everything, and the best thing i learned through travelling is the way one person can adapt and tune him/herself accordingly to fit the boarding deck. its all in the mind, and its all the head to have fun no matter wat circumstances...i have to say this, i m proud that i suceeded in doing so :)

Hence, what turn out to be a boring beach hol to many on the other hand gave me pleasure in being fascinated with all sorts of activities, however the most fascinating of em all is how the behaviour of humanity turns out to be, the way mannerism is concocted, behaviours twisted yet at times hilarious....U know when u travel wif all sorts of ppl its pretty good for observing how the person is, den again i guess i ve my fair share of being scrutinized..anyways...to get to the trip basis, it was a great 3 days, fun filled with beaches, snorkelling activities ( gets pretty boring too... cuz the poor corals are dying off, and sceneries as advertised are not as good as it looks)

However, we had a chatty( or rather irritating at times) guide which somewat gave us a overall tour of the island, btw we manage to celebrate wai pin's bday as well cuz there was a bbq dinner for one nite which we had a grand feast i must say..( for the very cheap price det we pay) no complains lar... Oh btw, i came back 3 shades darker or rather i turn into another race, my mom prolly thought det her daughter is abducted at sea and in place was a substitute lol i wishlar...
Anyways, to cut the long story short, the trip was a breath of fresh air, beautiful scenery ( det i must praised) however, if only the facilities were a lil better, frankly i dun mind paying more..but like they say go with the crowd...it would be a whole lot betta..( den again it wont be as much fun as it could ve turn out rite? :P hehe ) check out the pics below den..for some awesome scenic views..

MIRI: Mulu caves trip :p

Its been a while since i updated my blog, meanwhile i just came back from a long 5day trip flying towards the east coast.Meanwhile it was a very needed rejuvenation trip to revive myself of my existence. Life really truly is something precious, memories and experiences serve a greater object to remind one of its true significance.

After my finals, i took a trip to Miri sarawak with a gd friend wai pin, n together the both of us spend 4 days 3 nite in miri and mulu caves, a reserve spot for caving and climbing activities.
The trip was an eye opener, having been to many places when i was younger, however, seeing sceneries of caves, natural formation of underwater grounds , stalagtites and stalagmites. All in all it is a whole new different experience, nothing city, nothing urban just plain and natural.To think that civilization had created such drastic difference and how evolvement of humanity had turn out to be, n yet needless to say GOD is still majestic, for his creations is truly astounding and if he can create he definitely can destroy, hence, the trip had serve myself a great reminder of being humble in my presence towards life itself.

To summarize off, we spend 2 days exploring the 4 famous caves known as lang,deer,wind and clearwater caves.We saw thousands of bats circling around caves, especially the view of the underwater caves that reminded me of clips i saw from Lord of the Rings and Indiana jones.

Both of us check in the famous royal mulu resort and had a pretty good stay dere.The rooms
were build in a forest like cabins, it was just so refreshing waking up to birds chirping,peaceful serenity and good weather,had such a great rest dere.Apart from the food which does not really fit our tastebuds, probably due to our fussy and overly picky appetites, nevertheless i had enjoyed myself tremendously. We experienced flying in fokker planes, those tiny planes det carry a max amount of 50 passengers, the flight was really fun, becuz the height we flew enable us to view mountains all the way. A special thanks to our classmate steve who took the trouble to host us around miri upon arriving dere.Needless to say, life was indeed a breath of fresh air, and it was really a trip worth taking .:)

lucky valley, camp rejuventaion...

a lot have happen the past weeks... i am on study break now becuz finals are just around the corner and i m so stress out i was really feeling a whole lot of emotions last 2 weeks, i went on a yoga rejuvenation camp in a spiritual place named lucky valley...gosh having stayed in msia for so long, i guess my geography must be really bad cuz i never heard of this place before in my life....and it existed...it turns out det this valley is a place where the tai chi,kung fu and yoga masters all over the world comes out for their practices as there lays a famous pyramid which was believed to contain "chi" also known as energy, and the whole place is charged with energy balls which are floating around in the skies among the valley...( the founder from taiwan was given a calling by GOD to search for this in 1984 and he took 2 yrs to find this valley and ve sinced established it till today...)

to put it in short, some ppl actually seen GOD dere, buddhist devotees claim det its a spiritual ground which a lot of supernatural forces are found, hence, upon knowing about the history of this place, i now starts to realized the utmost importance of the trip which i ve just went and came back....having said det....let me tell u how i wind up going to a place which i guess even my mom feels det its way out of the world for someone so city like me to actually go,( btw did i tell u det the facilities are somewat like a camp thingy nevertheless its only a 2 day 1 nite thing, so i manage to survivelar..)

meanwhile, i was going to the gym so often det almost all the instructors are my best friends hehe....seriously, anyways edwin( the master instructor of yoga in california fitness) he organized this trip and he actually approached and invited me along, gosh....i m so honoured, to think det he actually feels det i ve the potential to join his group of "pro" yoga ppl ( seriously these ppl been doing it for 3-10 yrs sorta thing) anyways i figure i should go despite hesitation ,cuz seriously i still dun think i meet the standards...( btw i was the youngest dere, tks to my good friend wai pin whom i drag along to go wif me, cuz all the ppl were like in their late 20's to 40's., all the fanatic yoga practitioners..).meanwhile it was the most rejuvenated camp i ever been in my life.....as i was going through some issues of late, in fact i was losing faith in so many things.....anyhow, when we did the sun salutation facing the east as the sun rises above us, strangely i experience this sorta energy which i never felt before, it really feels like GOD's touch,my body was rejuvenated at that second, it felt so light, so peaceful, it felt like i died and float somewhere becuz i just thought of nothing, but a feeling of deep calm peacefulness....
it came and went in a second,strange and weird, and i ll never forget det feeling, i came back a whole new person...

and i know now det despite the many obstacles in life, GOD is watching all of us, i still doubt my own faith level at times, because i am and feel det i can never live up to what christianity should be simply becuz i am still unable to accept some things or rather i just don't feel like facing it yet...i am not good, to the standard that i perceived that a good christian should be, i feel det i cannot live up to the notions of it, becuz i am just caught up still in the material world, my ambitious nature, too high expectations of my life, these are the things that i cant let go....but in the end i believe all these are excuses , i hope someday i can find the courage to do so, or maybe this are all too much for me to face for the moment.....
i believe very much in love.....probably this ll be the last call where i can understand det the reality of the world stills bounds around an emotion and however much it twists around, the grasp of love is still the stronger one....
( this post is just to share some sights and personal issues of what i view life as, meanwhile if u r really in need of an answer for ur life,or simply to release stress, u should go to lucky valley.....check it up on the website...this place is really one word to describe, simple, yet the power it reveals, amazing.:))

how innocent are u ??

this is a good one sent to me by a friend, enjoy reading, and ve a great laugh afterthat..:P smile and be happy...

A first-grade teacher, Ms Neelam (Age 28) was having trouble with one of her students.
The teacher asked, "Boy, what is your problem?"

Boy answered, "I'm too smart for the first-grade. My sister is in the third-grade and I'm smarter than she is! I think I should be in the third-grade too!"

Ms Neelam had enough. She took Boy to the principal's office.
While Boy waited in the outer office, the teacher explained to the principal what the situation was. The principal told Ms Neelam he would give the boy a test and if he failed to answer any of his questions he was to go back to the first-grade and behave. She agreed. Boy was brought in and the conditions were explained to him and he agreed to take the test.

Principal: "What is 3 x 3?"
Boy: "9".
Principal: "What is 6 x 6?"
Boy: "36".
And so it went with every question the principal thought a third-grade should know. The principal looks at Ms Neelam and tells her,
"I think Boy can go to the third-grade."

Ms Neelam says to the principal, "I have some of my own questions".Can I ask him ?"
The principal and Boy both agree.

Ms Neelam asks, "What does a cow have four of that I have only two of?
Boy, after a moment: Legs.

Ms Nee lam: "What is in your pants that you have but I do not have?"
Boy: Pockets.

Ms Neelam: What starts with a C and ends with a T, is hairy, oval, delicious and contains thin whitish liquid?
Boy: Coconut

Ms Neelam: What goes in hard and pink then comes out soft And sticky?
The principal's eyes open really wide and before he could stop the answer, Boy was taking charge.
Boy: Bubblegum

Ms Neelam: What does a man do standing up, a woman does sitting down and a dog does on three legs? The principal's eyes open really wide and before he could stop the answer..
Boy: Shake hands

Ms Neelam: Now I will ask some "Who am I" sort of questions, okay?
Boy: Yep!!

Ms Neelam: You stick your poles inside me. You tie me down to get me up. I get wet before you do.
Boy: Tent> >

Ms Neelam: A finger goes in me. You fiddle with mewhen you're bored. The best man always has me first.The Principal was looking restless, a bit tense and took one large Patiala Vodka peg.> >
Boy: Wedding Ring> >

Ms Neelam: I come in many sizes. When I'm not well, I drip. When you blow me, you feel good.
Boy: Nose

Ms Neelam: I have a stiff shaft. My tip penetrates. I come with a quiver
Boy: Arrow

Ms Neelam: What word starts with a 'F' and ends in 'K' that means lot of heat and excitement?
Boy: Firetruck.

Ms Neelam: What word starts with a 'F' and ends in 'K' & if u dont get it u have to use ur hand.
Boy: Fork

Ms Neelam: What is it that all men have one of it's longer on some men than on others, the pope doesn't use his and a man gives it to his wife after they're married?
Boy: SURNAME

Ms Neelam: What part of the man has no bone but has muscles, has lots of veins, like pumping, & is responsible for making love ?
Boy: HEART.

The principal breathed a sigh of relief and said to the teacher, "Send this Boy. to Delhi University, I got the last ten questions wrong myself!"
are you as innocents as this boy?

A dedication to the people around me...:)

People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime.
When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person.
When someone is in your life for a REASON,
it is usually to meet a need you have expressed.
They have come to assist you through a difficulty,
to provide you with guidance and support,
to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually.

They may seem like a godsend and they are.
They are there for the reason you need them to be.
Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time,
this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end.

Sometimes they die.
Sometimes they walk away.
Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand.

What we must realize is that our need has been met,
our desire fulfilled, their work is done.
The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.
Some people come into your life for a SEASON,
because your turn has come to share, grow or learn.
They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh.
They may teach you something you have never done.
They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy .
Believe it, it is real. But only for a season.
LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons,
things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation.
Your job is to accept the lesson,
love the person and put what you have learned to
use in all other relationships and areas of your life.
It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.
Thank you for being a part of my life, whether you were a reason, a season or a lifetime.

GReat Party....:P

On sat, i decided to throw a party a the legend hotel since my mom had been so excited to do so, well it was a tradition since young where i always used this particular day to get friends together, hence, it was great to be able to do it again. Meanwhile, i had a hi tea thing and really to some of my friends out dere, i want to sincerely apologize if i miss u, cuz it was hell of a last min thing, and i had to limit my guests because the bookings were full.....however dun u worry....dere's still many yrs more ...hehe wink wink...:P

Anyways, all my guests turns out full force, and really it was great, i mean i felt good to see all of u enjoying urself so much..( i hope..) meanwhile, the food spread was really great, although the line was rather long ....anyways,...i simply enjoyed the beautiful tiramisu cake....gosh ..thumbs up to alexis...for those of u who missed tasting this , honestly u miss the whole thingla.r..:P
Anyways...just a shout out to my aunt for giving me that cake, cuz really this cake and i had a history...(hey dun use ur imagination so much k :P ) anyways its just my magic booster, when i m down, all i need to get things done, honestly even sex is not as good...(ok..i ll try to be more decent with usage of words..) hmm..maybe the cake n sex....oops..:)

Meanwhile, i did felt like barbie det day, the feeling was good...but of cuz its the smiles i see around det makes this euphoric feeling....anyways...just want to thank u all for making it a great day.....meanwhile i adored the pressies that i received, thanks for the perfumes, chocolates( u r trying to make me fat eh..),phone (smirk),cosmetics , etc....as i m turning older by a yr, i ve decided det life is just about to get started full force, hence, its time i put it in action and leave things behind...which i ve done.....:) meanwhile...dere's this saying, u built an ark u get wood out of it, u built gold, and u get wat u r looking for.....i intend to go for platinum....wanna challenge me..wink wink...hehe...(this blog is meant to keep me amuse, so dun take things to heart k....) :P

dancing fever....:)

phew, finally the last test is over and i get a week off before the battle of the continuing tests continues, gosh these past 3weeks had been stressful, however i still manage to squeeze in time for all the things that i should not be doing hehe...no wonder they say that women are great multitasker which is true in my case, i realized det i can do 3 things at once but only prob is i ll end up messing up...anyways...i had send off my invitations to all my friends for the upcoming "event" hehe next sat...actually its just an excuse to get everyone to catch up and det i get to be the mediator in between, nevertheless i do hope det U n I mean U people will turn up n get back to me asap k.....stupid hotel ppl, been bugging me to confirm the numbers for so many days, its just a small thinglar...not like i m throwing a wedding or so....gosh, so annoying....
meanwhile for those of u that ve confirm ur arrival, we r gonna be having a blast, great food n me as the source of entertainment, free of charge, what better way to enjoy ur day....hehe..:)
oklar i ll stop being so perasan.... btw guess wat happen.... i gotten a present from a friend, and it was the v3i phone det i wanted gosh..i was reluctant to take it at first, honestly..i mean its such an expensive gift besides gifts like det normally comes with some form of intention which i thinklar....and not to say anything not det i cant afford to buy it...nevertheless it just feels so good to receive a pressie like det, just wanted to thank u...n still think det u should not waste ur $$$ anyways after confiding in a few ppl, everyone says det is ok to take...so i takelar....m playing wif this new baby, falling in love with it too...:P
meanwhile lately i ve been so into dancing, i counted det in just 3 weeks alone i attended almost 20 hours of dance classes, excluding clubbing which does not count...honestly if u ask me 2 yrs back i ll never b able to do this much dancing in fact i dun even know how....but as i see the progress today,i really wanna thank these few special ppl for giving me so much guidance over the 2 yrs, frank,yvette, farah (especially u) and lingerto gosh now i m ur leading dancer eh..hehe
anyhow i vow to take up dancing seriously after graduating, really love it n i m really gonna major in BD n watever det comes...but really this is getting me motivated in reaching goals det i ve set out to pursue and m still going strong despite many setbacks.....
nevertheless i always believe det u must never give up no matter wat u do, i ll stick to that attitude...until then even the darkest hour of the day can still shine brigthly if u want it to shine....hence, just got to find my own light, dets all...
anyhow i ve nuthing to complain and nuthing to say anymore except det life is always great regardless how it turns out, every possible thing that happens just ve a good reason out of it...and as long as u dun run away but face the problem n get it over n done with, u ll be fine, n then just let time takes the course of the healing journey....n get on wif life....having figure det out i m just so gonna enjoy my life, love my family, love u my friends n just want to spread love to every person i meet....muaks..:P hehe.....(ewww i sound so lovey dovey..):)

lost light...

in times when the light seems blinded by the clouds,
itsa never easy to search the passage for the road to walk on.

in times when u lost your light,
its difficult to explain why people feels n do as they does.

yet some things like hope, love,
they do exist ,as such in times when u feel utterly lost,
u must search within and find the faith to get on
to get by,and det's where the direction of the light
will switch on and allow u to see where the right path is for u.

some things are unexplainable,
but then if everything has an answer,
then life ll not b as fascinating as it should be..

yet sometimes its such an emotional ride,
out of control, irrational,deprived..
the lost feeling and the sense of frustration that accompanies,
an undignified existence, an unknown unleashed,
then again, the light is in the hands of the controller who controls,
or is it the seeker that seeks?
or rather the fate that has befallen
onto what is not being chosen but rather what is being given.....

Debbie Gibson-didnt ve the heart

I found somebody new,
Though you mustn't believe,
That means I'm over you.
I know that in time,
We'll figure it out,
You'll read my mind ,
And though I'll wait for that day ,
Without making a sound.
I don't want to be,
The one who's letting you down,
I just want you to know ,
The reason behind the rhyme.

CHORUS:
It's not that I didn't have the time,
Didn't have the love,
I didn't have the strength,
Not to fall apart .
It's not that I don't care,
It's just I wouldn't dare ,
Cause I just don't have the heart.

VERSE2:
Love is not black and white,
You'd believe that it's true .
If you saw me tonight ,
I struggle with what is real .
But the logical side ,
Doesn't stop what I feel,
And though you're holding your breath,
To be given a sign .
Your heart cannot be ,
Broken in pieces like mine.
I just want you to know,
The reason behind the rhyme.

CHORUS:
It's not that I didn't have the time,
Didn't have the love,
I just didn't have the strength,
Not to fall apart .
It's not that I don't care,
It's just I wouldn't dare ,
Cause I just don't have the heart.

BRIDGE:
Loving you was more than I could stand,
I was scared my heart was in your hand .
But I know now I figured it out ,
Beyond a shadow of a doubt I must let go.

CHORUS:
Yes I had the time ,
Yes I had the love,
I just didn't have the strength,
Not to fall apart .
It's not that I don't care,
It's just I wouldn't dare ,
Cause I just don't have the heart,
I don't have the heart....

pu tong peng you-tao zhe

wo wu fa zhi shi pu tong peng you,
gan qing yi na me shen,
jiu wo zhen me neng fang shou,

chorus:
tang ni shuo i,
i only want to be ur friend,
zuo ge peng you,
wo zai ni xin zhong jiu shi just a friend,

wo gan ji ni dui wo zhe yang de dan bai,
dan wo gei ni de ai zhan shi shou bu hui lai,
so i , will only just try to be a friend...

wo zai yi zao jiu xiang yao shuo ming bai,
wo jue de zi ji hao shi bai,
wo yuan yi gai bian,
chong xin zai lai yi pian,

chorus...

happy CNY...2006

the month of january seems like a bolt of lightnining to me, and lo n behold comes feb, i had such a tight schedule the past 3 weeks, days seems like hrs,n hrs seems like minutes...etc..meanwhile uni started and boy am i in for a stress filled one.With 6 subjects to cram in just 4 months of studies, god knows how the hell i m gonna survive through it.Anyhow, if i really had a resolution ,i had better stick to being discipline n studying my butt off if i ve too neways CNY this yr was just like the previous yrs, nuthing really special,i went back penang, this time stayed at Evergreen hotel, nice view facing the sea, as usual did a couple of visiting around relatives....meanwhile i attended michelle 21st bday, sorry for arriving late, meanwhile been hanging out wif karina,thanks to her for constantly dragging me to the gym otherwise i m gonna be a piggy again...hehe oink oink....meanwhile paul van dyke is in town....shit i ve to go nevertheless i still ve tons of reports to finish up...gosh..n i just made a resolution to study...
meanwhile another few more days n uni resumes, sigh...i m really starting to get the jitters thinking bout it, wif the upcoming tests quizzes, who says that this is holiday, this is pure mental torture of a holiday..i think i should just stop complaining so much at times, den again, well thats the purpose of a blogger afterall, my purpose at least to vent n complain hehe....
i gotta go for my BD class now...once again happy Cny to everyone,hope u ve a great new yr wif full of angpaos hehe...:)

last week of the year 2005....

phew...it has been an exhausting week though, my line up of activities , of meeting with all the possible friends that i could before uni officially resumes on the 3rd of jan...meanwhile a fast recap, starting from the 23rd-
went for ferry corsten with mun,johnson and Yc...steph was suppose to meet up but she din turn up so was johnson's cousins..man i hate ppl who ffk, but its oklar...this is msia afterall, its normal...meanwhile we still had a blast as ferry corsten is really trance king ,with his strings of awards n titles under his belt, he really bring the hse downlar...btw i gotten pissed drunk, fk...lucky i was wif some *good* friends...so if i troubled u in anyway m sorry k..:p(but it was fun..) hehe

24th-xmas eve, i attended mark's class, he had been back up dancers for missy elliot,justin timberlake etc, thus his hip hop class is of cuz fully packed, lucky i gotten in to the gym early otherwise i would ve missed seeing this incredible dancer wif of cuz good looks to match hehe..."),meanwhile went for a family xmas dinner in the nite n headed off to the curve to join my ex school mates for the xmas countdown,its been a while really, met up wif ppl i havent seens in 3 yrs eversince high school...we had fun spraying each other wif all that glitter, n dirtying the whole street, i seriously pity the cleaners who ve to clean up the mess..

25th-merry xmas, basically spend whole day opening pressies, went for xmas buffet wif familly at some hotel,ate so much till i was so stuffed, now u know y i had to go to the gym so often, otherwise i would ve became a balloon...neways, food was really good, supposedly had the biggest fine dining spread ...but too bad cuz i only attack the dessert parlour n really after det my lil tummy just simply can afford the rest hehe....

26th-happy bday tjun, one of my best buddy (heng tai) 21st, went down to his hse wif py n co,had the best satays dere, cuz wat he staying in kajang famous for it..basically spend the nite wif great friends chilling, finally we r all legal at last...:P

27th-another hse party, pot luck event, spend the morning preparing the salad det i offered to make cuz i dun cook so this is the best i could do ,was wif steph at starbucks n we went for manicure session,she was so pissed cuz british high comm was close n her passport is dere, she was suppose to leave perth the next morn but now its impossible n she had to buy new tickets again wat a waste.

28th-met up wif sally,bump into tons of ppl today from clubbing kakis to god knows who, seriously i wonder y i cant make an effort to remember ppl's name, feel so embarassed when someone start saying hi n all i could wonder was who the hell r they ...mental note:to remind myself to start remembering faces....:P

30th-took the car for servicing in the morn, had such a funny expereince, u know while waiting for the car to b ready, i was at a cafe having bfast, this ang mor stranger suddenly came up n started to ask me for directions, mind u the cafe that i was in was filled wif loads of other ppl, meanwhile without hesitating he sat down opposite me n before i knew it, he was actually making conversation bout the book that i waS reading...gosh,anyways i just had to bear wif him, though he was kinda cute but i still feel det this is so corny...no offence but reallylar he could just come over n chat instead of using some stupid excuse of asking me directions n den the funniest part was when i noticed det he had an office tag,he's working wif NAZA..my goodness..luckily my phone rang n the service guy told me det my car was ready for pickup, so i politely excused myself, n left as fast as i could,..actually if he tried a diff approach i probably will stay on to chat but seriously for a guy who looks n dresses so smartly etc ,y the hell does he wanna start wif such a bad pickup line for, puts ppl off...sigh....
and finally...
31st-new year eve-j lim pick me bout 8pm n we rush down to Kl to join the rest of the gang, dere's jeannioe, terrence, py n all their friends almost the 18 of us in TARBUSH-a restaurant famous for middle eastern cuisine, saw sq who came back from new zealand for hols..basically almost everyone studying overseas r back for hols, n me..i m starting uni in a few days time..so sad rite....anyways after the hearty meal, which has like meat from every poultry they can find, its good though we went watch the fireworks display n den its time to partay.....it was rum jungle this time...beautiful setting inspired by tarzan n jane hehe..very suggestive eh..finally i could put my belly dancing skills to use haha...more like a bear dance...meanwhile it was a great nitela.r..all in all met friends here n dere...couples everywhere, n me?? i m the happy go lucky,flirty n bitchy gf of just about anyone..hehe..gosh i sound bad...nolar..just to cover up my singlehood..hehe..but honestly i m so enjoying life now..so watever comes come ,if not then DONT!! bump into yc opposite poppy n of cuz julynn n gang but somewat lost them in a massive crowd....all in all...it was a great nite, a good way to end year 2005, n tomorrow well...i m older by a yr now...so ..any resolutions?? forget it..... finally happy new yr to all of ya..:P

stepping down,heading forward...

In about 2 weeks the year would come to an end, and another yr will start.Imagine,how great a person could be and etc..at the end of the day noone will get more than their fair share on time...because regardless who it may be, time is just the same for everyone of us....thus,as i recall my last few weeks before the year 2005 would finally come to an end....endless list of resolutions, happenings n memories run across my mind...yet, all i can say is definitely i had a memorable yr being 21, an age of complete freedom, supposedly...nevertheless dere may be things that i would ve done which i am not proud of however there r plenty that i did which had make a rather meaningful year as well..:P

Regardlesss what the following yr would to come about, i shall not dwell in the past , the negative side and all and continue to look ahead for a better start, a better approach on a better year ahead.Of course, the many friends that i had the opportunity to meet, to learn and to share with, its really a pleasure even know it may be for a short time or so, however i believe that when u meet a person ,whoever it may be, how long or short ,what matters is det every other being will definitely leave some sort of lesson or experience det we can learn from ...but of cuz the friends by our side, those are indeed precious and priceless ,so i really do count my blessings in having u all..( u know who u r ) meanwhile last week was packed with loads of things from the World peace forum which i attended grace by all those very important leaders of the world to my involvement in the bowling tournament etc...

By the way, shoutouts to those with bdays and all, we did celebrate in style..:P meanwhile xmas just around the corner, may everyone ve a great christmas,eat well be merry and god bless !

the short holiday..urban city gal gets cultural shock hehe

phew...past week have just flown by, let me start updating bout my busy week, it was a really sweet one though...i was in kuching, sarawak wif my mom on a buisness cum leisure trip,stayed at the hilton considered as the best hotel dere...it was really a great trip,despite the heavy schedule, we managed to squeeze in time to sightsee the city,paid a trip to the cultural village as well....regarding the cultural trip, gosh it was really an experience of a lifetime for a city gal like me...meanwhile to keep it short, in summary i had the chance to visit all the longhouses that was built n experience how the people actually stayed n led their lives dere.....i never would ve dreamt of the kinda lifestyle they can actually go through which seriously if i had to do so, i think i really cannot survive it....meanwhile this whole week was really a feast week...i m spoiled wif so many different kinds of food...gosh now my workout out is all in vain..i guess i got to hit the gym pretty soon....u know sumtimes i should count my blessings cuz it seems det i just ve this food kinda luck...everywhere i go i seemed to be offered a lot of food..dets why ppl like me wanna be thin also difficult..but then like the chinese proverb says "sek shi fuk' so i should just stop complaining hehe...
meanwhile besides det i truly had a nice holiday the next one will be the mount kinabalu...truly the highest peak in asia to scale....which means i got to workout more get more stamina n then climbed all the way hehe..:)

beneath a dream..lies an ocean of truth

a feeling of loss,
emotions are the cause,
whats not to unfold is a mask of silence,
a story untold, unheard of..
the ending unknown but the meaning deep in turns,
unable to escape the immense pressure,
memories just could not be tossed.

paying a price,
of an unworthy quest,
lies the beholder of a sharp image of the knife,
which cannot cuts any ties it bounds but would rather lose eternity
then force itself to be set free.

some things are not meant to be controlled,
or rather unjustified for words or actions,
yet some things are meant to dwell in the dark,
just so it could be forgotten and let go...the past..

why is the action of an undesirable cause a series of unknown,
perhaps dere's lies bigger things untold,
or perhaps life is just meant to be hard,
but suffering the hardest lies the soul of the heart.....

someone told me the answer to love...

(well, this is something i find meaningful, yet practicing it honestly...its huge pressure anyways here goes...)

To love is one thing.
To be loved is another.
But to be loved by the one you love is everything.
You never lose by loving.
You always lose by holding back.
Sometimes the heart sees what is invisible to the eye.
You cannot make someone love you.
All you can do is be someone that can be loved.
The rest is up to them.
Sometimes we look too far off in the distance to find that one person we want to share our lives with, without realizing that often times they're just in front of you loving you all this time.
True love doesn't have a happy ending.
That's because true love doesn't have an ending.
A heart truly in love never loses hope but always believes in the promises of love, no matter how long the time and how far the distance.
Love has its own time, season, and own reasons.
You can't ask it to stay, you can only embrace it as it comes and be glad that for a moment in your life it was yours.

king arthur's table-s good joke..

You must read all of it to get the message :-

Young King Arthur was ambushed and imprisoned by the monarch ofaneighboring kingdom. The monarch could have killed him but was moved by Arthur's youth and ideals . So, the monarch offered him his freedom,as long as he could answer a very difficult question. Arthur would have a year to figure out the answer and, if after a year, he still had no answer, he would be put to death.The question?....What do women really want? Such a question would perplex even the most knowledgeable man, and to young Arthur, it seemed an impossible query. But, since it was better than death, he accepted the monarch's proposition to have an answer by year's end.He returned to his kingdom and began to poll everyone: the princess,the priests, the wise men and even the court jester. He spoke with everyone,but no one could give him a satisfactory answer.Many people advised him to consult the old witch, for only she would havet he answer.But the price would be high; as the witch was famous throughout the kingdom for the exorbitant prices she charged. The last day of the year arrivedand Arthur had no choice but to talk to the witch. She agreed to answer the question, but he would have to agree to her price first.The old witch wanted to marry Sir Lancelot, the most noble of the Knights of the Round Table and Arthur's closest friend! Young Arthur was horrified. She was hunchbacked and hideous, had only one tooth,smelled like sewage, made obscene noises, etc. He had never encountered such a pugnant creature in all his life. He refused to force his friend to marry her and endure such a terrible burden; but Lancelot,learning of the proposal, spoke withArthur.He said nothing was too big of a sacrifice compared to Arthur's life and the preservation of the Round Table.Hence, a wedding was proclaimed and the witch answered Arthur's question thus: What a woman really wants, she answered ... is to be in charge of herown life. Everyone in the kingdom instantly knew that thewitch had uttered a great truth and that Arthur's life would be spared.And so it was, the neighboring monarch granted Arthur his freedom and Lancelot and the witch had a wonderful wedding.The honeymoon hour approached and Lancelot, steeling himself for a horrific experience, entered the bedroom. But what a sight awaited him.The most beautiful woman he had ever seen lay before him on the bed. The astounded Lancelot asked what had happened.The beauty replied that since he had been so kind to her when a witch, she would henceforth, be her horrible deformed self only half the time and the beautiful maiden the other half. Which would he prefer? Beautiful during the day....or night?Lancelot pondered the predicament. During the day, a beautiful woman to show off to his friends, but at night, in the privacy of his castle,an old witch? Or, would he prefer having a hideous witch during theday,but by night, a beautiful woman for him to enjoy wondrous intimate moments? What would YOU do?What Lancelot chose is below. BUT ... make YOUR choice before you scroll down below. OKAY?Noble Lancelot said that he would allow HER to make the choice herself.Upon hearing this, she announced that she would be beautiful all the time because he had respected her enough to let her be in charge of her own life .Now ... what is the moral to this story?Scroll downThe moral is..... If you don't let a woman have her own way....Things are going to get UGLY!