quater life crisis...

In the midst of receiving the bulk of emails everyday, yet i cant seemed to dismiss this particular one which just seems so honest and yet exactly how and what i actually feel at the moment..anyhow..here goes..

BEING TWENTY - SOMETHING (Read The Whole Thing.... It's worth it.)

They call it the "Quarter-life Crisis."

It is when you stop going along with the crowd ,
and start realizing that there are many things about yourself,
that you didn't know and may not like.
You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two,
but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.

You start realizing that people are selfish and that,
maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to,
aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met,
and the people you have lost touch with,
are some of the most important ones.

What you don't recognize is that they are realizing that too,
and aren't really cold,catty, mean or insincere,
but that they are as confused as you.

You look at your job...
and it is not even close to what you thought you would be doing,
or maybe you are looking for a job,
and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom,
and that scares you.

Your opinions have gotten stronger.
You see what others are doing,
and find yourself judging more than usual,
because suddenly you realize,
that you have certain boundaries in your life,
and are constantly adding things to your lis,
t of what is acceptable and what isn't.

One minute, you are insecure and then the next, secure.
You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life.
You feel alone and scared and confused.

Suddenly, change is the enemy,
and you try and cling on to the past with dear life,
You realize that the past is drifting further and further away,
and there is nothing to do but stay where you are,
or move forward.

You get your heart broken ,
and wonder how someone you loved,
could do such damage to you.
Or you lie in bed and wonder,
why you can't meet anyone decent enough,
that you want to get to know better.

Or maybe you love someone,
but love someone else too,
and cannot figure out why you are doing this.
Because you know that you aren't a bad person.

One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap.
Getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic.

You go through the same emotions and questions over and over,
and talk with your friends about the same topics,
because you cannot seem to make a decision.

You worry about loans, money,
the future and making a life for yourself...
and while winning the race would be great,
right now you'd just like to be a contender!

What you may not realize is that everyone reading this relates to it.
We are in our best of times and our worst of times,
trying as hard to figure this whole thing out.

Send this to your twenty-something friends...maybe it will help someone feel like they aren't alone in their state of confusion........
Anyhow ...God bless you!

(well i guess if u r suffering the quarter life crisis, rest assured that you are just normal and life will be better if u get it out in the open, face your devils and live a better tomorrow...:) )

Keep walking,though there's no place to get to.

Don't try to see through the distances.

That's not for human beings.Move within,

But don't move the way fear makes you move.

-Rumi-

And the touble is, if you don't risk anything, you risk even more.--erica jong

awakening..

going to the path of memories,
holding back and urging to discover what queries?
consequences of actions are undeniable,
feelings of hurt, being troubled, complicated...

its good when the heart hardens,
yet bad because emotions are no longer real.
role of characters,played at diff times,
diff hours with diff people.

man cannot choose what role to play, rather what is being choose to be played.
wonders of absolutely nonsense,
words of gossip and jealousy.
what could be better than to block it away,
as ignorance is bliss..

its never easy when faced with truth n reality,
yet, worse if it is not faced.
what makes one equal 2, would not necessarily works the same way through.
life is just a lesson,
nothing more nothing less,
u dun owe noone neither do they owe u,
hence, be fair in the decisions u made,
actions u choose and accept the consequence,
let time heal.....