a leash of desires...

timely consequence,
unable to move, sorrowful laughter,
indecisive reasons,
unable to comprehend,
why these reasons?

non-existence,
impulsive yearns,
reasons of devastation,
flowing within, going beyond.

seeking the unforseen,
unable to return,
doubtful wishes,anxious anticipation.
to fall is to climb,
to think is to fall.

thoughts of desicions,
nothing more nothing less.
live like never been lived,
flow like a constant stream.

leaving is another dream,
learning is another scene.
three images in one,
two desires to hard.

what is the conclusion,
what is the answer,flowing around the horizons,
or choosing between the valley?

what doubt? what concussion,
somtimes all this are but just repercussions..
torn in between,
the bad n the good.
unforseen action,
unknown circumstances....

a bliss in a midst..

Its been such a long time since i last make a proper entry, i figure det i really am not so discipline like some bloggers i know whom seemed to update their blogs regularly...anyhow...if i were to write on my everyday accounts of events, gosh trust me blogging itself will be a job instead. Meanwhile my finals are just 2 weeks away, and guess wat i m done with second yr, time truly truly flies, its been like weeks after weeks of crazy intense work,classes,dance,entertainjment etc and yet i feel det i have done things which i cant recall and it feels like its just a week ago n yet it has been like 2 months.My crazy schedule is making me lose track of time itself.

Visited mun's hometown,club and finally gotten very drunk big time ( not det i m proud of it) surprisingly i m very rational even in a drunken state no joke ( see i dun go embarass myself, which is a good thing) ,at least i know how much i can actually consumed ( gosh i can really drink if i want too...scary, it runs in the family i guess) and the saying of practice makes perfect is really true.....for ur info, i dun like drinking, i do so occasionally just for the entertainment of it and not wanting to be a spoilsport. However, i dun deny bout the dance part, i simply enjoy dancing and i rather hit the dance floor den sit around the drinking arena. Anyhow,eversince det nite wif mun n johnson, i ve officially not step into any clubs at all....really i just realized det i can live without it, not to mention det come to think of it da only reason i go clubbing is either to ve a more appropriate place det i can dance n enjoy the idea of doing wat i want without ppl bothering me..(cuz u knowlar in dance classes, somewat ppl tend to be so sensitive and scrutinized ur every move and its just so routined det dancing is just not dancing).
Anyhow, i ve been entertaining my good buddy whom came back for a 3 months break before returning to the states next week, sigh...m gonna miss u babe...celebrated her bday last week at hard rock,went shopping around cuz the mega sales started...honestly i ve so many stuff i think i can forget bout shopping for the entire year...(still din stop me from getting my hands on the pair of timberland loafers lol) btw i m moving next door soon, officially next week i ve 2 apartments to call home too lol..:P its just side by side...anyhow..i cant believe det my room itself contains so much stuff, moving next door itself could prolly take like 2-3 days at least ,and once again its next door(how ironic) ...
Btw i m keeping a surprise to some of you, i think i ll not reveal so soon till i can confirm but no matter wat u ll know in a matter of time...lol curiosity kills rite hehehe...its nothing biggielar....but den again u prolly miss me...oops a vital clue....anyhow.......i gtg now...ll drop by to update again....btw happy bday camy...bbq rocks...wat better way to celebrate den with an aptment up on the mountains ,crates of liquor,live acoustic music cun babes n LC(leng chais)...ahh a 21st bday well celebrated.....:)