Two more weeks, and I m done…hip hip hooray! I cant believe that I finally make it to this far, and yet I feel so sad and so happy at the same time because I will be going back and having to enjoy the life that I m used to instead of suffering here in the blistering cold, the thousand and one chores to do a day, cycling in the damn cold bloody wind, etc…
However, I will be missing so many things here as well…the friends I ve made, the beautiful scenery, my beach house, shopping sprees, the lovely dogs, the $$$...lol…sounds like I ll be missing here more than ever…meanwhile…I am so excited, I will be seeing my mom soon. Cool rite. She’s coming to join me in New York and we are going to travel the states. We ll be spending 7 days around in Washington, Philadelphia,boston, new york..etc..and den to Hong Kong and back to Malaysia. It sounds like we are traveling half the world, lol…meanwhile the coffee house is getting busier by the day as Christmas is coming.
To update a lil, last week I went to Lewes to see the parade for Christmas that they usually have in here.It is a traditional thing, and the place that oby brought us too was really incredible, it looks like what u see in a movie, in fact a recent movie by Matthew Broderick and Sarah Jessica parker was shot dere in that location, we even went to the cottage and church which they used it as the wedding scene. CSI was also shot in this town for one episode, how cool is it… meanwhile we witness the parade in freezing cold, there were cadillacs, cars u see in archie comics, it really exist, then we went bk to oby’s beach front house to celebrate the twins bday with 2 special guest, George and Savando.
They are these gay couples that are ridiculously successful, they own like the top hair saloon in the city here and damn are they humble. They have done sarah Jessica parker’s hair btw when she was dere and god knows how many more celebrities which comes here so often especially in the summer. Meanwhile we went to ocean city Maryland to see the festivals of light. Oby took us to a Japanese buffet, the food was so darn good. Price was better, at $40 per person, yet they have lobsters as big as my whole hand. So I guess its still damn good deal…
We went shopping afterwards. These last few days have been glorious. We had customer giving us tips of $25 just for making coffee for them, Christmas really makes ppl give. And being the receiving ones really feel so good, which means I will definitely not forget pressies I ll be getting for my friends back in m’sia too. Oh I hate to brag, but I just realize that I make a lot for last 2 weeks. And I had never really make that much $$$ for as long as I can remember, and I just feel so good, damn it…I will make sure I get that latest coach bag for mom…see I told u I love u…since u r coming and that I will be having u to pay for more of my shopping den lol…J
But i really need to stop myself from spending so much, gosh u know i brought 10 pairs of shoes, i m dead serious. I just realized it yesterday nite when i almost tripped over the amount of shoe boxes i pile next to my bed.I t probably last me th whole enitre 2-3 years. I still cant believe i actually brought that many pairs.
Seriously the whole entire experience makes me value a lot of things, see things in a much more diff light, and grow up from wherever I was before. I m going to go back soon and the past 3 months I feel that I have grown so much. Working in the states and being part of the town here, seeing my regulars every morning from the state judge, to navy captains, Nasa astronauts, mayors governors, garbage collectors, McDonald owners.
In conclusion, they are just people and they have the greatest attitude ever, the way they respect each other, they don’t rank themselves in status and yet they treat everyone just the same. You don’t see any air or graces; it is a democratic way that they adopt. Of course not everything bout them is great, they still have lots of flaws but to compare asian culture and the Americans….we have still a lot to pick up from, well…at the end of the day, we know now why the American dominates, because the true American which I have the opportunity to know, really shows me the greatest in the personality and humbleness they carry. In which I really truly aspires to be someday……..(i m still extremely proud to be a m'sian...:) )
Sunday, December 10, 2006
Thursday, November 16, 2006
Thanksgiving week...
Finally, I get an off day at last. I have not been updating myself with loads of thing recently, especially in replying emails etc. Gosh, if u only knew how difficult it is for me to get access to the internet here. Thank gosh work is filling my time hence, I don’t have to suffer the consequence of being cut off the rest of the world having to not receive any phone calls, emails until days or even weeks. The only person that I probably get to call is my mom and then again, that’s like what….once in a fortnight, meanwhile its not that I don’t wanna apply for a phone line, I figure there’s no point, cuz I am going to be here for only a short period, besides not that I have that many people to call and what’s more its not cheap to pay for the fees. Nevertheless, I ll resort to this for another 7 weeks or so, and then its back to M’sia…:P
Its winter now, days are getting shorter and nights longer, the sun rises at 630am here and sets by 530pm, sad rite.Meanwhile my time here is getting shorter and shorter, Thanksgiving is just next week, and my big shot boss of cuz is scheming on making the most out of it, with throngs of people coming down here for the last minute shopping thing, I guess its now or never to move in for the final kill to make the $$$. There’s like so many different cookies, tins, check this out snowball filled pretzels , seriously with ice and all that we ordered, and I ve been busy labeling all these things, packing chocolate balls and stuffing myself with them…lol what to do I cant resist it man, and of all things working with chocolates ….really it’s a lil of a dream job rite now…:)
Then of course, there’s the more important stuff, the COFFEE, u know we have more than 50 flavours of coffee, from chocolate raspberry, pumpkin pie spice, coconut kiss, hawaian hazelnut,…..u name it all. I am bagging the coffees like crazy and brewing it like hell everyday, cuz I just realized that the ppl here are seriously addicts and boy the bags just disappear once on the shelves. I smell so coffee these days, no wonder I have so many ppl staring at me one kind whenever I am out, maybe my coffee fragrance is just too irresistible, yucks….well as long as the cuties is the ones that I am attracting, who cares , hmm….
Meanwhile work is interesting as usual, OBY Coffee house is undergoing a major transformation, they brought in samsung brands of computerized cash register,whole entire place is now equipped with all these cameras, basically, oby wants to make his place an upstream market, well who blames him when his regulars are ppl like Kelly ( the biatch) but also a bloody known gazillionaire, check this out….she owns 17 McDonalds in the states, what the fk….and yet she’s so stingy on tips, complains bout how expensive our coffees are, gosh I just don’t understand, woman, u probably have enough cash to buy the like 20 coffee house, whats with the $3.95 a cup thingy…then again, there’s still the nicer ppl which I love making coffee for, I get like $5 tips sometimes just for making a shot of espresso. But its just a rare occasion lol…
Actually, working as a waitress in here enables u to earn a lot especially if u r working in a high end restaurant. The basic is rather little, because u expect to get it from ur tips. But since I am a barista, I get a standard pay which is 3 times more than a waitress, but my tips are very little and it depends on the customers whether they want to give me or not as they are not compel too.
But it probably comes out the same, cuz when business is slow especially now, the poor waitress wont get anything then, on the other hand, I still get my steady income regardless slow or not slow, but of course my boss works me like hell. But its still alright I guess ( mind me I love to exaggerate a lil too much sometimes hehe). Last Thursday, I went for the biggest shopping spree of my life, gosh I am high maintenance, and now I better work harder to keep my habits, shit man…I prolly bought everything on Sale at Guess, Coach, Polo, and tommy. And I am still waiting to hit Abercrombie, Gap, CK, etc…but really I cannot be blamed, the price was like one third u pay in M’sia , its incredible, the same thing, but the cost, so much more cheaper. I have to really stop myself man, u should have seen how mad a shopper I am.
oh I went to a highschool football game..Check this out, I saw it live, no joke, it was Sussex tech vs polytech college last season game. You have no idea how cute footballers are, and when they tackle each other they fall like a pile of cuties waiting to be picked up…man my imagination is running wild.
As usual, we were the only Asians there, so of cuz I get my fair share of attention at the stadium ( not very huge one though), apparently there were larger stadiums around. This is so cool right, a high school completes with a stadium just for their own football games, oh did I tell you that they have an entire garage fill with cars, spare parts, etc, because they happen to have subjects such as automobile tech or something, its equivalent to our KH subjects in M’sia school, cept that we study the engines and memorize like hell whereas they get a real live car, and they get to modify it and build their own engines whatever they want for their project, how rich can a school get?????
OH btw the cars are not just ordinary cars, u know chevys, mustangs, Hondas…crap man….well what to do, this is like the best tech school in the whole state and Ariane, my coworker is just so bloody lucky to get to study dere, oh rite she’s 16 and she owns a horse too, cuz her extracurricular activities at school is horseback riding, so u kinda need to buy a horse to enroll into it…sigh….at 22, I don’t even own a car yet….and she owns a horse, it’s name is Sadie and it cost usd 2000 for it, and u maintain it at $300 a month which there’s Amish ppl to take care for u. And if I work here for 3 months, I know I can buy that horse too, so, u see u can drive ur Porsche, but I have a HORSE….i ll ride it around, save petrol, and it keeps me warm, and I still get all the attention LOL….what bull shit…
I think I have updated most of the stuff, neways, hope I’ll update more on Black Friday event next week….bet u dunno what is it, ll tell more stories then…till then.thats all for now…(gosh I write and talk too much..:) )
Its winter now, days are getting shorter and nights longer, the sun rises at 630am here and sets by 530pm, sad rite.Meanwhile my time here is getting shorter and shorter, Thanksgiving is just next week, and my big shot boss of cuz is scheming on making the most out of it, with throngs of people coming down here for the last minute shopping thing, I guess its now or never to move in for the final kill to make the $$$. There’s like so many different cookies, tins, check this out snowball filled pretzels , seriously with ice and all that we ordered, and I ve been busy labeling all these things, packing chocolate balls and stuffing myself with them…lol what to do I cant resist it man, and of all things working with chocolates ….really it’s a lil of a dream job rite now…:)
Then of course, there’s the more important stuff, the COFFEE, u know we have more than 50 flavours of coffee, from chocolate raspberry, pumpkin pie spice, coconut kiss, hawaian hazelnut,…..u name it all. I am bagging the coffees like crazy and brewing it like hell everyday, cuz I just realized that the ppl here are seriously addicts and boy the bags just disappear once on the shelves. I smell so coffee these days, no wonder I have so many ppl staring at me one kind whenever I am out, maybe my coffee fragrance is just too irresistible, yucks….well as long as the cuties is the ones that I am attracting, who cares , hmm….
Meanwhile work is interesting as usual, OBY Coffee house is undergoing a major transformation, they brought in samsung brands of computerized cash register,whole entire place is now equipped with all these cameras, basically, oby wants to make his place an upstream market, well who blames him when his regulars are ppl like Kelly ( the biatch) but also a bloody known gazillionaire, check this out….she owns 17 McDonalds in the states, what the fk….and yet she’s so stingy on tips, complains bout how expensive our coffees are, gosh I just don’t understand, woman, u probably have enough cash to buy the like 20 coffee house, whats with the $3.95 a cup thingy…then again, there’s still the nicer ppl which I love making coffee for, I get like $5 tips sometimes just for making a shot of espresso. But its just a rare occasion lol…
Actually, working as a waitress in here enables u to earn a lot especially if u r working in a high end restaurant. The basic is rather little, because u expect to get it from ur tips. But since I am a barista, I get a standard pay which is 3 times more than a waitress, but my tips are very little and it depends on the customers whether they want to give me or not as they are not compel too.
But it probably comes out the same, cuz when business is slow especially now, the poor waitress wont get anything then, on the other hand, I still get my steady income regardless slow or not slow, but of course my boss works me like hell. But its still alright I guess ( mind me I love to exaggerate a lil too much sometimes hehe). Last Thursday, I went for the biggest shopping spree of my life, gosh I am high maintenance, and now I better work harder to keep my habits, shit man…I prolly bought everything on Sale at Guess, Coach, Polo, and tommy. And I am still waiting to hit Abercrombie, Gap, CK, etc…but really I cannot be blamed, the price was like one third u pay in M’sia , its incredible, the same thing, but the cost, so much more cheaper. I have to really stop myself man, u should have seen how mad a shopper I am.
oh I went to a highschool football game..Check this out, I saw it live, no joke, it was Sussex tech vs polytech college last season game. You have no idea how cute footballers are, and when they tackle each other they fall like a pile of cuties waiting to be picked up…man my imagination is running wild.
As usual, we were the only Asians there, so of cuz I get my fair share of attention at the stadium ( not very huge one though), apparently there were larger stadiums around. This is so cool right, a high school completes with a stadium just for their own football games, oh did I tell you that they have an entire garage fill with cars, spare parts, etc, because they happen to have subjects such as automobile tech or something, its equivalent to our KH subjects in M’sia school, cept that we study the engines and memorize like hell whereas they get a real live car, and they get to modify it and build their own engines whatever they want for their project, how rich can a school get?????
OH btw the cars are not just ordinary cars, u know chevys, mustangs, Hondas…crap man….well what to do, this is like the best tech school in the whole state and Ariane, my coworker is just so bloody lucky to get to study dere, oh rite she’s 16 and she owns a horse too, cuz her extracurricular activities at school is horseback riding, so u kinda need to buy a horse to enroll into it…sigh….at 22, I don’t even own a car yet….and she owns a horse, it’s name is Sadie and it cost usd 2000 for it, and u maintain it at $300 a month which there’s Amish ppl to take care for u. And if I work here for 3 months, I know I can buy that horse too, so, u see u can drive ur Porsche, but I have a HORSE….i ll ride it around, save petrol, and it keeps me warm, and I still get all the attention LOL….what bull shit…
I think I have updated most of the stuff, neways, hope I’ll update more on Black Friday event next week….bet u dunno what is it, ll tell more stories then…till then.thats all for now…(gosh I write and talk too much..:) )
Tuesday, October 31, 2006
hey dere
Hey dere,
How have u guys been? Meanwhile Happy Halloween! Last Friday, I held a party at my hse , cuz it was sort of a welcome party for me and my friend Florence in here. Our American friends which we made here wanted to throw it for us, so of cuz we can’t say NO rite. Lol Meanwhile, these ppl are seriously cool, they decorated the whole entire hse, and gosh it was really really nice, u should have seen the spiders and webs and god knows wat they put in here. Honestly if u guys were here as well, definitely the party will be even better cuz u know rite how much I miss u all…awww….:) I m serious k…
Meanwhile this was my first time having an all American party, like I told u, we r like the only Asians here, so u knowlar not to say we dun wanna invite Asians but dere r like no Asians to invite, so its more of an all white party. So, how did it went???
Honestly, u wont wanna know….but all I can say is det in life u must at least get urself invited to an American party, and then u ll seriously know how much fun u missed….lol
Dun worry, the police din turn up, even if they did, my American counterparts here are too smart for them to do anything. But on a more serious note, I think this would be the one and last party I’ ll ever host for a long time becuz I dun think my heart can take anymore of this kind of shit all in one night. Heck it was still fun, so no regretslar..:)
Meanwhile, I m starting to really get use to life here, then again, I m also worried, I hope I dun start becoming so attach to this place n den next thing I know I come back all American wannabe, and start speaking like some bloody angmoh…but den look so m’sian , u knowlar how we use to complain bout our “friends” which comes back from Australia, states, UK etc with an accent and trying to be cool all that crap.
But I can now tell u the logic out of it. Did u know that most of us are not pronouncing our “Rss” properly. We can understand each other back where we r, but in here noone can understand what we say when we speak words with Rrrs…And that’s why in order to let them understand us better, we speak like em, and imagine me having to take their orders down, so if by any chance I really come back and start speaking like wat I just told u…dun blame me k....okay, lets move on more interesting things…hmmm I m being kau by an American hahahaha….btw he’s pretty cute….oh and also by a russian.....lol…damn man, I m such a biatch….i cant help it…..so u see….not that I m so proud or anything….den again….i dun feel so homesick anymore…so….what else??/
I knowlar…u wanna know more of wat is going on rite...:P but reallylar…I m too mature
for all of em…so seriously…I think nothing ll probably happen, I m still going back to finish up my degree no matter wat man, wasted so much of everything in it. Hmm,…or..should I just go get a “MRS” degree…LOL….tempting..really..what to do, rich country like this,seriously standards of living really big difference. But home is still homelar I guess, nothing beats home….den again…..HOW ARR??? Lol….did I tell u det the American’s dad owns a big construction company ,gosh I m seriously in deep shit now..jokinglar :P
Luv, lynn
How have u guys been? Meanwhile Happy Halloween! Last Friday, I held a party at my hse , cuz it was sort of a welcome party for me and my friend Florence in here. Our American friends which we made here wanted to throw it for us, so of cuz we can’t say NO rite. Lol Meanwhile, these ppl are seriously cool, they decorated the whole entire hse, and gosh it was really really nice, u should have seen the spiders and webs and god knows wat they put in here. Honestly if u guys were here as well, definitely the party will be even better cuz u know rite how much I miss u all…awww….:) I m serious k…
Meanwhile this was my first time having an all American party, like I told u, we r like the only Asians here, so u knowlar not to say we dun wanna invite Asians but dere r like no Asians to invite, so its more of an all white party. So, how did it went???
Honestly, u wont wanna know….but all I can say is det in life u must at least get urself invited to an American party, and then u ll seriously know how much fun u missed….lol
Dun worry, the police din turn up, even if they did, my American counterparts here are too smart for them to do anything. But on a more serious note, I think this would be the one and last party I’ ll ever host for a long time becuz I dun think my heart can take anymore of this kind of shit all in one night. Heck it was still fun, so no regretslar..:)
Meanwhile, I m starting to really get use to life here, then again, I m also worried, I hope I dun start becoming so attach to this place n den next thing I know I come back all American wannabe, and start speaking like some bloody angmoh…but den look so m’sian , u knowlar how we use to complain bout our “friends” which comes back from Australia, states, UK etc with an accent and trying to be cool all that crap.
But I can now tell u the logic out of it. Did u know that most of us are not pronouncing our “Rss” properly. We can understand each other back where we r, but in here noone can understand what we say when we speak words with Rrrs…And that’s why in order to let them understand us better, we speak like em, and imagine me having to take their orders down, so if by any chance I really come back and start speaking like wat I just told u…dun blame me k....okay, lets move on more interesting things…hmmm I m being kau by an American hahahaha….btw he’s pretty cute….oh and also by a russian.....lol…damn man, I m such a biatch….i cant help it…..so u see….not that I m so proud or anything….den again….i dun feel so homesick anymore…so….what else??/
I knowlar…u wanna know more of wat is going on rite...:P but reallylar…I m too mature
for all of em…so seriously…I think nothing ll probably happen, I m still going back to finish up my degree no matter wat man, wasted so much of everything in it. Hmm,…or..should I just go get a “MRS” degree…LOL….tempting..really..what to do, rich country like this,seriously standards of living really big difference. But home is still homelar I guess, nothing beats home….den again…..HOW ARR??? Lol….did I tell u det the American’s dad owns a big construction company ,gosh I m seriously in deep shit now..jokinglar :P
Luv, lynn
Wednesday, October 25, 2006
Halloween Party..:)
A month has gone pass already, and this coming week Seawitch festival is just around the corner, which means we are going to have again a hell of a week with nonstop lines of customers. Meanwhile, a lot of interesting things happen over the week. Firstly, I get to carve my first pumpkin, it was like being a little kid again, but damn it was so much fun doing so. We had the jack o lantern up just like how we always see white kids do on TV.Back in Msia, I think none of us actually ever does stuff like det, not to mention the trick or treat thing. Oby gotten us the pumpkin, and he took it all the way from the pumpkin patch which is the place where pumpkins are grown.
The work thing is going on fine, I am like a super expert in espressos, but my poor hands have been scalded so many times by the fking machine I think it gotten used to it. Meanwhile my cappuccino, kahlua and cream latte is my best drinks which I perfected making it. This French customer, damn well mannered and refine guy actually told me that I make him the best cappuccino so far he has been in the states, and he actually said det I match the standard of what he gets back in France. Man I am so honoured. Maybe I was actually born to make coffee, lol and the most ironic part is det I don’t even drink coffee....(surprising rite)
This coming week is the celebration of Halloween, and this Friday, I am throwing a party at my hse, all rather WE are throwing a party at the house. Heather was the one with the idea, meanwhile I guess she had invited almost everyone she knows, so I guess we are gonna be having this wild party cuz this will be the first one which I am going to be in with a roomful of whites and Russians. Damn, sure hope nothing gets out of hand. However, everyone is told to bring their own beer, so I guess it will be whole load of fun provided noone starts getting too drunk and god knows wat will happen. Nevertheless, I am anticipating it, cuz I do wanna see how ppl can get that rowdy when they r drunk, of cuz I will make sure I get out of the way, or safest bet I will just stick to Volva…lol…
I invited him, and he was more than eager to come, but the only reason I did other than the fact that he’s really gd looking (haha, very funny rite) cuz not of that reasonlar…its cuz I just want him to bring the liquor and purchase for me as well cuz u know rite he works at the liquor store, which means he buys any liquor with a 20% discount (not to say that its that expensive cuz its already like super duper cheap here). I know, I sux, damn bad wei…use ppl like det, but den again a party still a party and the more the merrier. Meanwhile at least I know I ve some decent ppl to hangout with just in case that crazy American gal and her friends gets out of the line.
It’s a Halloween party, so everyone must come in a costume, and heather decided she’s gonna be a witch, and Aida a gypsy which I think suits her well, and me lol :) I am gonna be a bloodsucker haha, hmm…I haven’t thought of it yet. I think I will come out with something by Friday. Worse to worse I become a mummy wrap myself in toilet paper lol..
I went out with Aida and Heather to FRiendlys for ice cream on tues, and we met another group of angmohs again. These ppl damn uselesslar, they were all high as hell, after their joint, and then the worst part is they were driving and racing around the highway. Luckily there were no accident but thank god the police here are pretty efficient and they round em out in no time. They deserve itlar, drinking and driving is already bad enuff, not to mention smoking pot, drinking and driving at the same time.
The place I am in is actually an almost zero crime rate area , only thing is the people idea of a party just always seems to end up with nothing other than drugs. But who’s to blame when they get it so easily here, do u know det when Florence was ill, I had to buy medicine for her, and I was able to buy NYQUIL over the counter without any prescription just like det. In case u dunno wat’s det, it’s the flu mixture which makes u damn high when used in excessive in fact it taste damn good too.And yes, the effects is like weed, in fact it is way better, it numbs u out and when I ve a bad day at work, honestly it is dangerously attractive.
Meanwhile I set some strict rules and I m making sure everyone abides to it, cuz I dun wanna have any police up my doorstep and if Oby finds out he will freak the hell out. So those under 21 if they wanna drink be smart and just run if anything goes wrong, otherwise just borrow a fake ID or whatever. DRUGs not in the house, if I find it dere, OUT u go.. u can do it like anywhere else but not in my hse. Cuz if anything goes wrong I could be in serious trouble. There’s like a woods with a lake in the neighbourhood which I live in, so most ppl goes dere to make out, etc. Well u r most welcome to do ur stuff dere. BUT NOT IN THE HSE!!!! Volva promised that he ll help me make sure all his Russians buddies get the message, and den again nobody will be det stupid to place themselves in such a dangerous situation cuz to come here is already hard enuff not to mention obtaining working visas, last thing we wanna do is ruin our reputation..
Just det I am still worried bout heather and her American friends, u know I ve already prepared myself for the American culture, yet, I still find it difficult at times when I see them get so bloody wild. I can take it, or rather at some point I just cant, maybe dets why I was born a Chinese and I am really proud of being one. At least I still have my sense of rationality no matter how high I become, and the most important thing not let anyone get the better of me. So like I say, I invited volva, so he could kinda take care of me, hahaha…(u know I wish u were here) ….
Anyways, m looking forward to Halloween, and den thanksgiving will be up next, for now I gtg get ready for work. The weather this week is freezing again, so damn bloody cold. I miss Msia, really do, then again I prolly ve loose ends dere which makes me wonder about a lot.
The work thing is going on fine, I am like a super expert in espressos, but my poor hands have been scalded so many times by the fking machine I think it gotten used to it. Meanwhile my cappuccino, kahlua and cream latte is my best drinks which I perfected making it. This French customer, damn well mannered and refine guy actually told me that I make him the best cappuccino so far he has been in the states, and he actually said det I match the standard of what he gets back in France. Man I am so honoured. Maybe I was actually born to make coffee, lol and the most ironic part is det I don’t even drink coffee....(surprising rite)
This coming week is the celebration of Halloween, and this Friday, I am throwing a party at my hse, all rather WE are throwing a party at the house. Heather was the one with the idea, meanwhile I guess she had invited almost everyone she knows, so I guess we are gonna be having this wild party cuz this will be the first one which I am going to be in with a roomful of whites and Russians. Damn, sure hope nothing gets out of hand. However, everyone is told to bring their own beer, so I guess it will be whole load of fun provided noone starts getting too drunk and god knows wat will happen. Nevertheless, I am anticipating it, cuz I do wanna see how ppl can get that rowdy when they r drunk, of cuz I will make sure I get out of the way, or safest bet I will just stick to Volva…lol…
I invited him, and he was more than eager to come, but the only reason I did other than the fact that he’s really gd looking (haha, very funny rite) cuz not of that reasonlar…its cuz I just want him to bring the liquor and purchase for me as well cuz u know rite he works at the liquor store, which means he buys any liquor with a 20% discount (not to say that its that expensive cuz its already like super duper cheap here). I know, I sux, damn bad wei…use ppl like det, but den again a party still a party and the more the merrier. Meanwhile at least I know I ve some decent ppl to hangout with just in case that crazy American gal and her friends gets out of the line.
It’s a Halloween party, so everyone must come in a costume, and heather decided she’s gonna be a witch, and Aida a gypsy which I think suits her well, and me lol :) I am gonna be a bloodsucker haha, hmm…I haven’t thought of it yet. I think I will come out with something by Friday. Worse to worse I become a mummy wrap myself in toilet paper lol..
I went out with Aida and Heather to FRiendlys for ice cream on tues, and we met another group of angmohs again. These ppl damn uselesslar, they were all high as hell, after their joint, and then the worst part is they were driving and racing around the highway. Luckily there were no accident but thank god the police here are pretty efficient and they round em out in no time. They deserve itlar, drinking and driving is already bad enuff, not to mention smoking pot, drinking and driving at the same time.
The place I am in is actually an almost zero crime rate area , only thing is the people idea of a party just always seems to end up with nothing other than drugs. But who’s to blame when they get it so easily here, do u know det when Florence was ill, I had to buy medicine for her, and I was able to buy NYQUIL over the counter without any prescription just like det. In case u dunno wat’s det, it’s the flu mixture which makes u damn high when used in excessive in fact it taste damn good too.And yes, the effects is like weed, in fact it is way better, it numbs u out and when I ve a bad day at work, honestly it is dangerously attractive.
Meanwhile I set some strict rules and I m making sure everyone abides to it, cuz I dun wanna have any police up my doorstep and if Oby finds out he will freak the hell out. So those under 21 if they wanna drink be smart and just run if anything goes wrong, otherwise just borrow a fake ID or whatever. DRUGs not in the house, if I find it dere, OUT u go.. u can do it like anywhere else but not in my hse. Cuz if anything goes wrong I could be in serious trouble. There’s like a woods with a lake in the neighbourhood which I live in, so most ppl goes dere to make out, etc. Well u r most welcome to do ur stuff dere. BUT NOT IN THE HSE!!!! Volva promised that he ll help me make sure all his Russians buddies get the message, and den again nobody will be det stupid to place themselves in such a dangerous situation cuz to come here is already hard enuff not to mention obtaining working visas, last thing we wanna do is ruin our reputation..
Just det I am still worried bout heather and her American friends, u know I ve already prepared myself for the American culture, yet, I still find it difficult at times when I see them get so bloody wild. I can take it, or rather at some point I just cant, maybe dets why I was born a Chinese and I am really proud of being one. At least I still have my sense of rationality no matter how high I become, and the most important thing not let anyone get the better of me. So like I say, I invited volva, so he could kinda take care of me, hahaha…(u know I wish u were here) ….
Anyways, m looking forward to Halloween, and den thanksgiving will be up next, for now I gtg get ready for work. The weather this week is freezing again, so damn bloody cold. I miss Msia, really do, then again I prolly ve loose ends dere which makes me wonder about a lot.
Friday, October 20, 2006
Greetings from delaware....
Its been a month since I left home to embark on this journey. Time flew past me, the last 2 weeks has been a seriously life changing time for me. I had to settle in to a foreign land, having finalized my job, housing, rent etc. Getting myself used to my job and actually fitting in to the city of Rehoboth avenue. Finally, I am getting use to the whole deal now.
It was rather difficult when Florence my companion in this trip fell sick. I was worried like hell for her and then again I had to work her shifts as well.
Meanwhile my job is going on fine, in fact, I had received my first pay check, seriously I feel so proud of myself cuz I cant believe that I just manage to earn my first paycheck in USD, and man although the work is hell a tough job, but $$ is always the motivating factor I guess lol…oh btw I have went to open a bank account last week. I did it with Wycovia bank, a really big bank corp apparently. Hence, at least I get to save a little of what I earn before I spend it all off lol..:)
Truthfully, I am getting a lil homesick, but I refused to call home because I don’t want to feel even worse after that, I miss my family, mom and bro especially, my friends, especially the food in M’sia. However, I should not complain too much cuz working in Oby’s coffee house, I am already privilege enough to be able to eat anything I want and the best part is his food and his coffee (espresso con pama) is the best in the whole state of Delaware. People pay like RM20 for just a plain croissant, damn either they are stupid or plain rich. Then again in the town of Rehoboth city, you seriously don’t seem to see any poor people other than exchange students like myself…..which means I am consider the poor ranking citizens, goodlah…good reason for this ppl to give me more of their cash hehehe…
The place which I am staying in this neighborhood. It is one of the high end places and really I ve nothing to complain about. I probably will never get a chance to stay in such a big hse on my own. The house has a complete basement, attic just exactly like an American dream hse .My neighbours are snobbish like hell. Yet, thanks to my super filthy rich employer whom probably owns like a stretch of houses. By the way, I have not properly introduced my boss yet. He’s the all American guy, with a super gorgeous wife to die for, gosh I swear, she looks like Jennifer Anniston, exact blonde version and has that pair of super cute twin boys and a beautiful daughter clone version of the wife. Luckily he is a nice guy, he had been really nice to me and Florence, except when he’s in his mood, and seriously gets on your nerves when he gets u to do things for himFor now, my job scope is managing the whole entire coffee house; I am a barista cum manager cum sandwich maker, cum toilet cleaner, etc. Gosh can u believe it??? I actually can do all these stuff. I even ground the coffee, and yes we roast our coffee ourselves. There are like all types of beans from everywhere. I even learn to make waffles, like seriously make the paste to produce them .Apart from baking the stuff which is handled by the baker, cuz they have to protect the secret recipes in it. Other than that, every damn thing, from Brie plate, to smoothies, lattes, espressos, brewing coffees, grinding beans, bagging coffee u name it.
Meanwhile, a lot happen last 2 weeks. Firstly, my boss took us down to Dover city largest hotel cum casino to participate in the food fair exhibition .Apparently; all the owners of the largest restaurants around the area were there to try out the latest things for food in making. Needless to say, we were practically attending a buffet party, we get to try all sorts of food from the latest flavours of Haagen Daaz, to Sara’s lee latest cake versions,man it was a huge gourmet thing. All types of salmons, veals, scallops, wines, foie gras, etc. I ate so much I wanted to puke. It was really a fantastic show; I met the owners of Outback steakhouse, those posh Italian restaurants, and all those leading ppl in the food industry. It was an eye opening experience, too bad I can’t take pictures of it cuz the security was rather tight .Then again, all the big guys are in town, what would you expect.
Then Oby, took us again to another restaurant for supper, as though we had not ate enough, luckily I m working so I can burn all these guilty calories. This time it was some Japanese restaurant. And one of the most famous jap dining place in the Lewes town. Meanwhile, I guess I m pretty lucky to have the chance to attend a food show such as this. Afterall it’s only by VIP invitation, and I, (a nobody) actually have the invitation to get in.: P Oh did I tell u, I met a few Russian exchange students here, and yes they are all guys. Really cute ones too, like seriously good looking, and one of them who happen to be working at the liquor store. A seriously heavenly place to go too in America, especially when u see the price, RM 20 for a dozen of bud light weiser, in bottle form..i swear…drinking water is even more expensive. Meanwhile, this guy Vulva (what a name rite?) he comes visits me everyday when he walks past the store to his workplace. It’s great to have a friend to see u a day; at least I get to talk to someone my age.
Then again he’s Russian, so when we speak, it’s like a dog vs cat kinda language. But funnily we understand each other, (hey dun worry lar, I m not into Russians, seriously although they r cute etc. yet dun seemed to appeal to me, then again I guess I never know…)
You know, I just realized how many things that I do not know before, and now I finally open my eyes, I feel so dumb knowing that before I came for this trip, I feel like a frog in the well, whatever it is, it’s never too late to learn, and most importantly I am learning it now. By the way, my cooking skills had improved tremendously. Meanwhile I guess I ve pretty much updated my days here. I am planning to get a 2nd job, had applied in a few nice places. Hopefully I get it, and then I can earn even more, and then shop like hell in New york….
I miss that city, can’t wait to go back dere, which I will after this whole job stint. Oh I gotten myself a Coach bag, and I m heading to Polo, tommy and the rest of the outlets later next week, before the Halloween festival, and my 2nd paycheck on the way….gosh, if u see the prices and the goods u get here, for it…one word…SHOPPING PARADise.. ..:)
It was rather difficult when Florence my companion in this trip fell sick. I was worried like hell for her and then again I had to work her shifts as well.
Meanwhile my job is going on fine, in fact, I had received my first pay check, seriously I feel so proud of myself cuz I cant believe that I just manage to earn my first paycheck in USD, and man although the work is hell a tough job, but $$ is always the motivating factor I guess lol…oh btw I have went to open a bank account last week. I did it with Wycovia bank, a really big bank corp apparently. Hence, at least I get to save a little of what I earn before I spend it all off lol..:)
Truthfully, I am getting a lil homesick, but I refused to call home because I don’t want to feel even worse after that, I miss my family, mom and bro especially, my friends, especially the food in M’sia. However, I should not complain too much cuz working in Oby’s coffee house, I am already privilege enough to be able to eat anything I want and the best part is his food and his coffee (espresso con pama) is the best in the whole state of Delaware. People pay like RM20 for just a plain croissant, damn either they are stupid or plain rich. Then again in the town of Rehoboth city, you seriously don’t seem to see any poor people other than exchange students like myself…..which means I am consider the poor ranking citizens, goodlah…good reason for this ppl to give me more of their cash hehehe…
The place which I am staying in this neighborhood. It is one of the high end places and really I ve nothing to complain about. I probably will never get a chance to stay in such a big hse on my own. The house has a complete basement, attic just exactly like an American dream hse .My neighbours are snobbish like hell. Yet, thanks to my super filthy rich employer whom probably owns like a stretch of houses. By the way, I have not properly introduced my boss yet. He’s the all American guy, with a super gorgeous wife to die for, gosh I swear, she looks like Jennifer Anniston, exact blonde version and has that pair of super cute twin boys and a beautiful daughter clone version of the wife. Luckily he is a nice guy, he had been really nice to me and Florence, except when he’s in his mood, and seriously gets on your nerves when he gets u to do things for himFor now, my job scope is managing the whole entire coffee house; I am a barista cum manager cum sandwich maker, cum toilet cleaner, etc. Gosh can u believe it??? I actually can do all these stuff. I even ground the coffee, and yes we roast our coffee ourselves. There are like all types of beans from everywhere. I even learn to make waffles, like seriously make the paste to produce them .Apart from baking the stuff which is handled by the baker, cuz they have to protect the secret recipes in it. Other than that, every damn thing, from Brie plate, to smoothies, lattes, espressos, brewing coffees, grinding beans, bagging coffee u name it.
Meanwhile, a lot happen last 2 weeks. Firstly, my boss took us down to Dover city largest hotel cum casino to participate in the food fair exhibition .Apparently; all the owners of the largest restaurants around the area were there to try out the latest things for food in making. Needless to say, we were practically attending a buffet party, we get to try all sorts of food from the latest flavours of Haagen Daaz, to Sara’s lee latest cake versions,man it was a huge gourmet thing. All types of salmons, veals, scallops, wines, foie gras, etc. I ate so much I wanted to puke. It was really a fantastic show; I met the owners of Outback steakhouse, those posh Italian restaurants, and all those leading ppl in the food industry. It was an eye opening experience, too bad I can’t take pictures of it cuz the security was rather tight .Then again, all the big guys are in town, what would you expect.
Then Oby, took us again to another restaurant for supper, as though we had not ate enough, luckily I m working so I can burn all these guilty calories. This time it was some Japanese restaurant. And one of the most famous jap dining place in the Lewes town. Meanwhile, I guess I m pretty lucky to have the chance to attend a food show such as this. Afterall it’s only by VIP invitation, and I, (a nobody) actually have the invitation to get in.: P Oh did I tell u, I met a few Russian exchange students here, and yes they are all guys. Really cute ones too, like seriously good looking, and one of them who happen to be working at the liquor store. A seriously heavenly place to go too in America, especially when u see the price, RM 20 for a dozen of bud light weiser, in bottle form..i swear…drinking water is even more expensive. Meanwhile, this guy Vulva (what a name rite?) he comes visits me everyday when he walks past the store to his workplace. It’s great to have a friend to see u a day; at least I get to talk to someone my age.
Then again he’s Russian, so when we speak, it’s like a dog vs cat kinda language. But funnily we understand each other, (hey dun worry lar, I m not into Russians, seriously although they r cute etc. yet dun seemed to appeal to me, then again I guess I never know…)
You know, I just realized how many things that I do not know before, and now I finally open my eyes, I feel so dumb knowing that before I came for this trip, I feel like a frog in the well, whatever it is, it’s never too late to learn, and most importantly I am learning it now. By the way, my cooking skills had improved tremendously. Meanwhile I guess I ve pretty much updated my days here. I am planning to get a 2nd job, had applied in a few nice places. Hopefully I get it, and then I can earn even more, and then shop like hell in New york….
I miss that city, can’t wait to go back dere, which I will after this whole job stint. Oh I gotten myself a Coach bag, and I m heading to Polo, tommy and the rest of the outlets later next week, before the Halloween festival, and my 2nd paycheck on the way….gosh, if u see the prices and the goods u get here, for it…one word…SHOPPING PARADise.. ..:)
Friday, September 29, 2006
The whole new american lifestyle..
I am trying to get used to my new life here. Its getting on fine except that i suddenly feel the lost of comfort....lol...hmmm, lets see i am such a spoilt brat back in M'sia, i had no house chores, no laundry etc. You know the typical city gal det kinda ve evrything done for her because she's either plain lucky or rather one word"spoilt" hehehe...sheesh i m having fun criticizing myself...but seriously now everything is on my own, from laundry to cooking to watever det needs to be done which was taken care of by my maid and all det, i m suddenly appreciating maids very very much.
Meanwhile, apart from the cooking which is something i am not complaining about cuz i love cooking, bakiing wateverlar cuz i m just so in love with food, other than that i do admit i missed home a lil, i miss my car. In here, i get around on foot or by bicycle, which is good cuz seriously i was afraid that i might come back being FAT, but now i dun need to worry bout this issue cuz with the amount of cycling i m doing from my neighbourhood to my workplace, and to every other part of this beautiful town, i guess i could actually come back looking really fit.
Yesterday was a record day , i worked through 12 hours in the roastery. It was only my second training day, and yet, my co worker which was supposed to mentor and teach me was fired because once again she came out with some stupid excuse that gotten my employer to be rather fed up of her lies which she has done pretty much the last few weeks.Hence, with me barely knowing things around, i had to man the whole entire place for 2 hours before oby came in with extra help.Thank GOD we managed to go through the whole day, and customers were pouring in like hell, damnit n i was just getting started hehehe...anyhow my coffee making skills were superb, i did like 10 shots of espresson in one go, i ve to say that i m quite proud of the fact det i manage to do so. Americans are also really patient people, although some italian and french ppl can be really irritating at times, cuz they know so much bout coffees they dictate u to make the espresso specifically and make u redo again and again until they r satisfied.(phew, lucky i din meet em yet).
I am learning so much bout coffee although i dun drink em but seriously its really so much fun to learn too, from shots, to lattes, the list is really endearing but fulfilling too. One thing i cant deny, people in US give tips generously, gosh u know although the work is nothing to shout about, in fact it is rather difficult too if u aint prepare for it.However, at the end of the day when u get tips like det and u can go over to places like Marshalls (branded warehse store) and get a pair of branded glasses just from ur tips. Man i m lovin the american wages and its spending power in a dollar.Hell u work like shit in M'sia and yet u prolly cant even manage to pay up ur expenses not to mention luxury items to pamper urself. Anyways, i m really motivated now, hehe its funny cuz i m educated to such an extend and i end up working as a barista but earning so much more in terms of det. Living in such a cool hse, and once again i m just a waitress (ironic isnt it??)
gtg for now, work starts soon...:P
Meanwhile, apart from the cooking which is something i am not complaining about cuz i love cooking, bakiing wateverlar cuz i m just so in love with food, other than that i do admit i missed home a lil, i miss my car. In here, i get around on foot or by bicycle, which is good cuz seriously i was afraid that i might come back being FAT, but now i dun need to worry bout this issue cuz with the amount of cycling i m doing from my neighbourhood to my workplace, and to every other part of this beautiful town, i guess i could actually come back looking really fit.
Yesterday was a record day , i worked through 12 hours in the roastery. It was only my second training day, and yet, my co worker which was supposed to mentor and teach me was fired because once again she came out with some stupid excuse that gotten my employer to be rather fed up of her lies which she has done pretty much the last few weeks.Hence, with me barely knowing things around, i had to man the whole entire place for 2 hours before oby came in with extra help.Thank GOD we managed to go through the whole day, and customers were pouring in like hell, damnit n i was just getting started hehehe...anyhow my coffee making skills were superb, i did like 10 shots of espresson in one go, i ve to say that i m quite proud of the fact det i manage to do so. Americans are also really patient people, although some italian and french ppl can be really irritating at times, cuz they know so much bout coffees they dictate u to make the espresso specifically and make u redo again and again until they r satisfied.(phew, lucky i din meet em yet).
I am learning so much bout coffee although i dun drink em but seriously its really so much fun to learn too, from shots, to lattes, the list is really endearing but fulfilling too. One thing i cant deny, people in US give tips generously, gosh u know although the work is nothing to shout about, in fact it is rather difficult too if u aint prepare for it.However, at the end of the day when u get tips like det and u can go over to places like Marshalls (branded warehse store) and get a pair of branded glasses just from ur tips. Man i m lovin the american wages and its spending power in a dollar.Hell u work like shit in M'sia and yet u prolly cant even manage to pay up ur expenses not to mention luxury items to pamper urself. Anyways, i m really motivated now, hehe its funny cuz i m educated to such an extend and i end up working as a barista but earning so much more in terms of det. Living in such a cool hse, and once again i m just a waitress (ironic isnt it??)
gtg for now, work starts soon...:P
Wednesday, September 27, 2006
NYC
Finally, i am here ....i m feeling so good, i think i never felt this peaceful before. The last 9 months of hell is over. Its been really hectic, and now i ve officially passed all my papers and need not worry of anything more which had me stressed up to the core.(Thank god...and seriously i am still at shock that i manage to get through all my papers....this is seriously a miracle...lol...)
Anyways, where shall i sum up the last week....in one word, it was amazing.I met up with many good buddies who took time off to see me (which i appreciate a lot), especially to the few of u,the ones who took me camera shopping, came and help me packed and gave me tons of advice what to do lol...its not like i ve not travel before (in fact this is my 2nd time to the states eversince the last trip i took when i was 12). However, its still good to feel loved and missed by many...(hehe damn i m perasan).
I luv my family too who took me out and had a scrumptious meal before i left especially my big bro,seriously i owe him a lot to my stinct here. Meanwhile, i had to go through a damn long travelling journey from thurs onwards. Having transit in both HK and canada and finally to JFK NYC. My travelling companion (Florence) and I had an amazing race adventure in NYV the next 2 days. In order to make our way to the state of delaware, up north west of NY, we explore the famous subway (which is one of the most confusing subways i ever been). We were subjected to lose ourselves in the massive crowd, very complicated entrances and signboards. Nevertheless, stepping into places like time square, fifth avenue and so on really makes me feel like i just step into the movies. The skycrapers that surrounds u ,overlooking the statue of liberty, the awe of being part of a new yorker lifestyle just gets u going.
We managed to get hold of tickets and make our way up to rehoboth beach on sat. This part of delaware houses the upper middle class residents. Its an holiday beach resort. We arrived at Ocean City,Maryland just in time for the famous sunfest.Hence, we happened to catch the carnival which was going on dere and along with it some very famous bands in the 70s playing gigs dere. We met oby dere, and he's really a dynamic person. He took us to his friend's italian restaurant. Apparently this guy is one of the richest person in the state of delaware. He owns almost all the italian chain of restaurants and half of the properties around, and as we were bout to get off to his place,we spotted his latest collection of cars, none other than the latest model from jaguar,price half a million USD.(who the hell spend det much on a car?? damn stupid leh..)
We were den brought to the neighbourhood which we were be staying for 2 and a half months. I am impressed, my hse is so big, i ve to admit i do feel kinda scare living in it with just florence. Somehow, i ve been rather use to living in an apartment. I guess i need to start to adjust myself to adapt myself into this neighbourhood. (seriously, i cant help wondering whether this is the neighbourhood that they used to shoot the background from scenesof dsperate hsewives) its just so familiar, the settings, the people everything.
Anyhow, i ve finally settle in and officially started my first day training today, sure hope everything goes well and for now, i m gonna let it on and enjoy myself..:)
Anyways, where shall i sum up the last week....in one word, it was amazing.I met up with many good buddies who took time off to see me (which i appreciate a lot), especially to the few of u,the ones who took me camera shopping, came and help me packed and gave me tons of advice what to do lol...its not like i ve not travel before (in fact this is my 2nd time to the states eversince the last trip i took when i was 12). However, its still good to feel loved and missed by many...(hehe damn i m perasan).
I luv my family too who took me out and had a scrumptious meal before i left especially my big bro,seriously i owe him a lot to my stinct here. Meanwhile, i had to go through a damn long travelling journey from thurs onwards. Having transit in both HK and canada and finally to JFK NYC. My travelling companion (Florence) and I had an amazing race adventure in NYV the next 2 days. In order to make our way to the state of delaware, up north west of NY, we explore the famous subway (which is one of the most confusing subways i ever been). We were subjected to lose ourselves in the massive crowd, very complicated entrances and signboards. Nevertheless, stepping into places like time square, fifth avenue and so on really makes me feel like i just step into the movies. The skycrapers that surrounds u ,overlooking the statue of liberty, the awe of being part of a new yorker lifestyle just gets u going.
We managed to get hold of tickets and make our way up to rehoboth beach on sat. This part of delaware houses the upper middle class residents. Its an holiday beach resort. We arrived at Ocean City,Maryland just in time for the famous sunfest.Hence, we happened to catch the carnival which was going on dere and along with it some very famous bands in the 70s playing gigs dere. We met oby dere, and he's really a dynamic person. He took us to his friend's italian restaurant. Apparently this guy is one of the richest person in the state of delaware. He owns almost all the italian chain of restaurants and half of the properties around, and as we were bout to get off to his place,we spotted his latest collection of cars, none other than the latest model from jaguar,price half a million USD.(who the hell spend det much on a car?? damn stupid leh..)
We were den brought to the neighbourhood which we were be staying for 2 and a half months. I am impressed, my hse is so big, i ve to admit i do feel kinda scare living in it with just florence. Somehow, i ve been rather use to living in an apartment. I guess i need to start to adjust myself to adapt myself into this neighbourhood. (seriously, i cant help wondering whether this is the neighbourhood that they used to shoot the background from scenesof dsperate hsewives) its just so familiar, the settings, the people everything.
Anyhow, i ve finally settle in and officially started my first day training today, sure hope everything goes well and for now, i m gonna let it on and enjoy myself..:)
Tuesday, September 19, 2006
divine intervention
its time when u face pressure ,
u wish u were bright,
u feel insecure,
but u know whats wrong but just dont know why ?
what should u do den?
what is consider right?
u realized that there's really nothing more than,
a tiny obstacle in your life, and you should just stay focus,
and move on and be who you are which u feel alright.
some things are meant to be,
and u dun really need to force it neither do u apprehend it.
just go with the flow,and if it happens hence, be happy and enjoy
this journey in your life.
and if it doesn't,
stop being harsh neither critical,
just take it on and look on the positive side,
u had the chance but its just a destiny that aint yours
to go about.
what's dere to worry,when its all in the hands of fate??
u lose some u gain some,
u cant ve everything,neither can u be having nothing..
its just a matter of seeing things in an open light,
being really uptight is not going to help...
act moderately and seek a better account..
stop comparing yourself, and start using the time for
more meaningful things,,
cherish ur life and ve a better time in doing so
and its the best u probably can do for your own
well being..
finally go seek for help if u had too,
cuz u aint alone and u know its not only YOU!!
when u finally accept the fact and be proud of who u really are,
u will have had what this life could offer, not power,
neither wealth,
but greater happiness because u had the best when u r in good health...:)
u wish u were bright,
u feel insecure,
but u know whats wrong but just dont know why ?
what should u do den?
what is consider right?
u realized that there's really nothing more than,
a tiny obstacle in your life, and you should just stay focus,
and move on and be who you are which u feel alright.
some things are meant to be,
and u dun really need to force it neither do u apprehend it.
just go with the flow,and if it happens hence, be happy and enjoy
this journey in your life.
and if it doesn't,
stop being harsh neither critical,
just take it on and look on the positive side,
u had the chance but its just a destiny that aint yours
to go about.
what's dere to worry,when its all in the hands of fate??
u lose some u gain some,
u cant ve everything,neither can u be having nothing..
its just a matter of seeing things in an open light,
being really uptight is not going to help...
act moderately and seek a better account..
stop comparing yourself, and start using the time for
more meaningful things,,
cherish ur life and ve a better time in doing so
and its the best u probably can do for your own
well being..
finally go seek for help if u had too,
cuz u aint alone and u know its not only YOU!!
when u finally accept the fact and be proud of who u really are,
u will have had what this life could offer, not power,
neither wealth,
but greater happiness because u had the best when u r in good health...:)
Friday, September 15, 2006
Saturday, September 09, 2006
can it be anymore depressing??
Can it be anymore depressing???
m having finals now, on top of det ve to deal wif the renovations(contractors are ignorant...period), the bloody paperworks of all sorts for internship. Thank God det the visa got through, who says travelling is easy??? Its the most nerve wrecking thing, spend last 2 days fretting about procedures,juggling emotions with various people but the one that got me boiled up is having to deal wif travel agents..again another pointless event where u get lousy ppl whom give u info on all the wrong things and make u panic yet again after wanting u to apply another visa (as though as one is not enuff) and den telling u that its either det or u ll get stranded on board...BOy!!!(which is not true by the way, but what's the point of arguing when they just don't listen???) seriously woke up this morning with a heavy heart, genetics paper just 5 hours away, and my mind is filled with so many issues...GOD save me...
note to self....take it easy..phew..
m having finals now, on top of det ve to deal wif the renovations(contractors are ignorant...period), the bloody paperworks of all sorts for internship. Thank God det the visa got through, who says travelling is easy??? Its the most nerve wrecking thing, spend last 2 days fretting about procedures,juggling emotions with various people but the one that got me boiled up is having to deal wif travel agents..again another pointless event where u get lousy ppl whom give u info on all the wrong things and make u panic yet again after wanting u to apply another visa (as though as one is not enuff) and den telling u that its either det or u ll get stranded on board...BOy!!!(which is not true by the way, but what's the point of arguing when they just don't listen???) seriously woke up this morning with a heavy heart, genetics paper just 5 hours away, and my mind is filled with so many issues...GOD save me...
note to self....take it easy..phew..
Sunday, September 03, 2006
a past or a begining?
its really odd that things should be forgotten,
he's not into you....
get out or get hurt!!
yet... why does it seems that there's this urging that tells u,
its not what it seems,
its not even what it means.
give it a lil more time,
and maybe you will reap the benefit out of the waiting.
or...
maybe you can fall even flatter and ve ur heart broken into pieces.
its like you are cursed,
you hang on and try to let it go,
you tell yourself nothing will get into your way.
Because the last thing you ever wanna do is to get caught up in shit,
why do ppl like to play so many games??
u asked yourself truthfully,
are you just hallucinating?
is it just a mere frustration of not getting what you want,
or is it real?
it gets so weird, you feel so much fear,
you really dont know what to do,
are you r really bounded to this or is it just another big mistake,
you really truely don;'t want to fall,
you really hope det some miracle will get u to wake up,
sometimes u recollect so much,
and yet u never get a conclusion...
u wish that u had an answer,
but u know its not ur call and u pray
that if the Almighty above loves you,
pls give you a msg or an indication
to not let u dwell in so much misery,
u really dont deserve.
u need to stop painting false pics,
need to concentrate and get away,
need to learn to talk urself some sense and face reality.
sounds easy??gosh....and this is what they call love.....
he's not into you....
get out or get hurt!!
yet... why does it seems that there's this urging that tells u,
its not what it seems,
its not even what it means.
give it a lil more time,
and maybe you will reap the benefit out of the waiting.
or...
maybe you can fall even flatter and ve ur heart broken into pieces.
its like you are cursed,
you hang on and try to let it go,
you tell yourself nothing will get into your way.
Because the last thing you ever wanna do is to get caught up in shit,
why do ppl like to play so many games??
u asked yourself truthfully,
are you just hallucinating?
is it just a mere frustration of not getting what you want,
or is it real?
it gets so weird, you feel so much fear,
you really dont know what to do,
are you r really bounded to this or is it just another big mistake,
you really truely don;'t want to fall,
you really hope det some miracle will get u to wake up,
sometimes u recollect so much,
and yet u never get a conclusion...
u wish that u had an answer,
but u know its not ur call and u pray
that if the Almighty above loves you,
pls give you a msg or an indication
to not let u dwell in so much misery,
u really dont deserve.
u need to stop painting false pics,
need to concentrate and get away,
need to learn to talk urself some sense and face reality.
sounds easy??gosh....and this is what they call love.....
Friday, September 01, 2006
pressure dawns...
leaving....is it a begining?
or is it a soul searching of what is to becoming.
Dreaming...is it all reasons,
of never getting the achievements?
or never being true and realistic,
to the fact that all are but underlying consequences.
Loving...is it to becoming,
or merely thinking of having but gaining nothing?
seething....is it to take out the uneven lining,
or having a somewhat blame to secure,
the fear and troubles of this being.
Finally thinking...is it all worthless thoughts,
which are nothing but deceiving?
and playing a role in getting nothing but... feelings.
Am leaving, am not needing,
am afraid to become what was truly the actual being.
The idea, of conceiving a web that seeks a yearning,
but never make a cut,because it is afraid to step out.
As it will create a cascade of fears,
a drop in between the tears,
most likely incurring all the devils of the ears.
What is the ending,
of the begining..
or has it just started?
or merely left to follow or rather ,
it had not, to begin with???
or is it a soul searching of what is to becoming.
Dreaming...is it all reasons,
of never getting the achievements?
or never being true and realistic,
to the fact that all are but underlying consequences.
Loving...is it to becoming,
or merely thinking of having but gaining nothing?
seething....is it to take out the uneven lining,
or having a somewhat blame to secure,
the fear and troubles of this being.
Finally thinking...is it all worthless thoughts,
which are nothing but deceiving?
and playing a role in getting nothing but... feelings.
Am leaving, am not needing,
am afraid to become what was truly the actual being.
The idea, of conceiving a web that seeks a yearning,
but never make a cut,because it is afraid to step out.
As it will create a cascade of fears,
a drop in between the tears,
most likely incurring all the devils of the ears.
What is the ending,
of the begining..
or has it just started?
or merely left to follow or rather ,
it had not, to begin with???
Friday, August 25, 2006
a leash of desires...
timely consequence,
unable to move, sorrowful laughter,
indecisive reasons,
unable to comprehend,
why these reasons?
non-existence,
impulsive yearns,
reasons of devastation,
flowing within, going beyond.
seeking the unforseen,
unable to return,
doubtful wishes,anxious anticipation.
to fall is to climb,
to think is to fall.
thoughts of desicions,
nothing more nothing less.
live like never been lived,
flow like a constant stream.
leaving is another dream,
learning is another scene.
three images in one,
two desires to hard.
what is the conclusion,
what is the answer,flowing around the horizons,
or choosing between the valley?
what doubt? what concussion,
somtimes all this are but just repercussions..
torn in between,
the bad n the good.
unforseen action,
unknown circumstances....
unable to move, sorrowful laughter,
indecisive reasons,
unable to comprehend,
why these reasons?
non-existence,
impulsive yearns,
reasons of devastation,
flowing within, going beyond.
seeking the unforseen,
unable to return,
doubtful wishes,anxious anticipation.
to fall is to climb,
to think is to fall.
thoughts of desicions,
nothing more nothing less.
live like never been lived,
flow like a constant stream.
leaving is another dream,
learning is another scene.
three images in one,
two desires to hard.
what is the conclusion,
what is the answer,flowing around the horizons,
or choosing between the valley?
what doubt? what concussion,
somtimes all this are but just repercussions..
torn in between,
the bad n the good.
unforseen action,
unknown circumstances....
Monday, August 14, 2006
a bliss in a midst..
Its been such a long time since i last make a proper entry, i figure det i really am not so discipline like some bloggers i know whom seemed to update their blogs regularly...anyhow...if i were to write on my everyday accounts of events, gosh trust me blogging itself will be a job instead. Meanwhile my finals are just 2 weeks away, and guess wat i m done with second yr, time truly truly flies, its been like weeks after weeks of crazy intense work,classes,dance,entertainjment etc and yet i feel det i have done things which i cant recall and it feels like its just a week ago n yet it has been like 2 months.My crazy schedule is making me lose track of time itself.
Visited mun's hometown,club and finally gotten very drunk big time ( not det i m proud of it) surprisingly i m very rational even in a drunken state no joke ( see i dun go embarass myself, which is a good thing) ,at least i know how much i can actually consumed ( gosh i can really drink if i want too...scary, it runs in the family i guess) and the saying of practice makes perfect is really true.....for ur info, i dun like drinking, i do so occasionally just for the entertainment of it and not wanting to be a spoilsport. However, i dun deny bout the dance part, i simply enjoy dancing and i rather hit the dance floor den sit around the drinking arena. Anyhow,eversince det nite wif mun n johnson, i ve officially not step into any clubs at all....really i just realized det i can live without it, not to mention det come to think of it da only reason i go clubbing is either to ve a more appropriate place det i can dance n enjoy the idea of doing wat i want without ppl bothering me..(cuz u knowlar in dance classes, somewat ppl tend to be so sensitive and scrutinized ur every move and its just so routined det dancing is just not dancing).
Anyhow, i ve been entertaining my good buddy whom came back for a 3 months break before returning to the states next week, sigh...m gonna miss u babe...celebrated her bday last week at hard rock,went shopping around cuz the mega sales started...honestly i ve so many stuff i think i can forget bout shopping for the entire year...(still din stop me from getting my hands on the pair of timberland loafers lol) btw i m moving next door soon, officially next week i ve 2 apartments to call home too lol..:P its just side by side...anyhow..i cant believe det my room itself contains so much stuff, moving next door itself could prolly take like 2-3 days at least ,and once again its next door(how ironic) ...
Btw i m keeping a surprise to some of you, i think i ll not reveal so soon till i can confirm but no matter wat u ll know in a matter of time...lol curiosity kills rite hehehe...its nothing biggielar....but den again u prolly miss me...oops a vital clue....anyhow.......i gtg now...ll drop by to update again....btw happy bday camy...bbq rocks...wat better way to celebrate den with an aptment up on the mountains ,crates of liquor,live acoustic music cun babes n LC(leng chais)...ahh a 21st bday well celebrated.....:)
Visited mun's hometown,club and finally gotten very drunk big time ( not det i m proud of it) surprisingly i m very rational even in a drunken state no joke ( see i dun go embarass myself, which is a good thing) ,at least i know how much i can actually consumed ( gosh i can really drink if i want too...scary, it runs in the family i guess) and the saying of practice makes perfect is really true.....for ur info, i dun like drinking, i do so occasionally just for the entertainment of it and not wanting to be a spoilsport. However, i dun deny bout the dance part, i simply enjoy dancing and i rather hit the dance floor den sit around the drinking arena. Anyhow,eversince det nite wif mun n johnson, i ve officially not step into any clubs at all....really i just realized det i can live without it, not to mention det come to think of it da only reason i go clubbing is either to ve a more appropriate place det i can dance n enjoy the idea of doing wat i want without ppl bothering me..(cuz u knowlar in dance classes, somewat ppl tend to be so sensitive and scrutinized ur every move and its just so routined det dancing is just not dancing).
Anyhow, i ve been entertaining my good buddy whom came back for a 3 months break before returning to the states next week, sigh...m gonna miss u babe...celebrated her bday last week at hard rock,went shopping around cuz the mega sales started...honestly i ve so many stuff i think i can forget bout shopping for the entire year...(still din stop me from getting my hands on the pair of timberland loafers lol) btw i m moving next door soon, officially next week i ve 2 apartments to call home too lol..:P its just side by side...anyhow..i cant believe det my room itself contains so much stuff, moving next door itself could prolly take like 2-3 days at least ,and once again its next door(how ironic) ...
Btw i m keeping a surprise to some of you, i think i ll not reveal so soon till i can confirm but no matter wat u ll know in a matter of time...lol curiosity kills rite hehehe...its nothing biggielar....but den again u prolly miss me...oops a vital clue....anyhow.......i gtg now...ll drop by to update again....btw happy bday camy...bbq rocks...wat better way to celebrate den with an aptment up on the mountains ,crates of liquor,live acoustic music cun babes n LC(leng chais)...ahh a 21st bday well celebrated.....:)
Sunday, July 23, 2006
For a dear friend who is having it tough....
At times, ppl really faces tough challenges especially when it comes to love. Lately, i know of some whom have been having it really bad, hence, i know its difficult when u wanna get out of something which u cant seemed to see the light but other could see it for u. Yet, sometimes words and actions will not help because in actual fact nothing works, the only thing that will is time and you. Based on this, it inspired me to write down this poem to u (u know who u r).I am afraid i dunno how to help anymore, because i am never gonna be able to make gold out of dust,hopefully u ll understand. And yes, i had it before, but i m through, i feel good..and dets why i know how u feel n how to help u see things through.......
Dear friend, I hope that you can feel much better after reading this poem which might hopefully allows u to search for ur answer...
In the time when you feel darkness,
surrounding u and suffocating u.
Even when the sun is shining brightly,
you will not feel its everlasting glow.
In the time when your anger, suppreses u,
when u just wanna burst within.
Even if there are angels showering you,
with all the love and care,
You will remain angry ,
and refuses to accept its presence.
what is wrong can be right,
But what is right is right.
Hence, you can make things wrong easily,
but making it right ,it takes centuries.
You feel torn and used within,
But don't you see that it is all a feeling,
a sense of the moment,a second of glory.
Look further and you will noticed,
that if u managed to shine and come out in between,
you will turn and become the best,
of what u truly deserves to be.
Words cannot expressed,
how much det u ve been hurt.
Take it easy ,
den for u could be all that u r worth.
You dun need to find excuses,
neither do u need to search.
All you have to do is let it off,
and time will healed.
The facts might me crude,
but the truth will remain the truth.
When you burn a paper,
the paper will turn to ashes,
ashes never turn back into paper,
and thats really an impossible thing to do.
My dear friend,i hope this poem
will get through to u,
i really truly do,i
f i did what u truly wants me to do,
then i ll be destroying you.
Because i cannot turn ashes to be paper,
this is something nobody can do.
But i know of how ashes will be flown away,
and in time you will manage to find back the paper.
Only thing is ,it will be brand new,
and fill with everthing that u desire.
it still has to start from you,
because you light the candle,
and u shall shine brightly as you always do,
because you are worth it,
and you just need to get a grip,
and let the candle shines thorugh!!! :)
Dear friend, I hope that you can feel much better after reading this poem which might hopefully allows u to search for ur answer...
In the time when you feel darkness,
surrounding u and suffocating u.
Even when the sun is shining brightly,
you will not feel its everlasting glow.
In the time when your anger, suppreses u,
when u just wanna burst within.
Even if there are angels showering you,
with all the love and care,
You will remain angry ,
and refuses to accept its presence.
what is wrong can be right,
But what is right is right.
Hence, you can make things wrong easily,
but making it right ,it takes centuries.
You feel torn and used within,
But don't you see that it is all a feeling,
a sense of the moment,a second of glory.
Look further and you will noticed,
that if u managed to shine and come out in between,
you will turn and become the best,
of what u truly deserves to be.
Words cannot expressed,
how much det u ve been hurt.
Take it easy ,
den for u could be all that u r worth.
You dun need to find excuses,
neither do u need to search.
All you have to do is let it off,
and time will healed.
The facts might me crude,
but the truth will remain the truth.
When you burn a paper,
the paper will turn to ashes,
ashes never turn back into paper,
and thats really an impossible thing to do.
My dear friend,i hope this poem
will get through to u,
i really truly do,i
f i did what u truly wants me to do,
then i ll be destroying you.
Because i cannot turn ashes to be paper,
this is something nobody can do.
But i know of how ashes will be flown away,
and in time you will manage to find back the paper.
Only thing is ,it will be brand new,
and fill with everthing that u desire.
it still has to start from you,
because you light the candle,
and u shall shine brightly as you always do,
because you are worth it,
and you just need to get a grip,
and let the candle shines thorugh!!! :)
Saturday, July 15, 2006
Be sucessful...
Have you ever heard the expression, "Don't count your chickens before they hatch?" Maybe an older, wiser individual would tell you this to keep you from getting ahead of yourself. Like buying a new car before you actually got that new job. Well, when setting and obtaining your goals, you need to "Count your chicken before they hatch" in your mind. What I mean by this is you have to start seeing yourself completing or obtaining your goal. What you profess, you possess!
The first thing you need to do is sit down and set your goals. Diana Scharf Hunt said "Goals are dreams with deadlines." A lot of times, people are thrown off by the idea of taking the time to set their goals. But when you take a trip, do you not come up with a plan and ultimate destination. Well, setting goals is the same process. I suggest that you first do a Must Have, Why, How analysis.
First, write down a list of must haves; bigger home, luxury trips, new cars, work from home, etc. Then decide why these must haves are important to you and prioritize them. Lastly, write down how you are going to get the must haves.
Also, ask yourself these questions:
What are the tools and resources do I need?
Why do I not have what I want now?
What past experiences are in the way?
Who can I talk to that has already succeeded?
How am I paying for this?
What are the tradeoffs?
What am I going to give up?
From this analysis, start writing down you goals. Remember, without a start, there cannot be an ending. Denis Watley stated "The reason most people never reach their goals is that they don't define them, or ever seriously consider them as believable or achievable. Winners can tell you where they are going, what they plan to do along the way, and who will be sharing the adventure with them."
Once finished writing your goals, next you need to start visualizing your dreams. Henry David Thoreau once said "If one advances confidently in the direction of his dreams, and endeavors to live the life which he has imagined, he will meet with a success unexpected in common hours." You need image yourself accomplishing your goals and obtaining your treasures. Will yourself into succeeding. Never think that you cannot reach your desired results. Talk about the desires as if you have already obtained it. A good practice is to read your goals daily. If you are having a bad day, read them over and over.
Thirdly, you need to get the tools and resources to needed to accomplish your goals. Maybe you have decided to start a home-based business as a mechanism to consummate the acquiring of your dreams. Start gathering documentation on how to run your home-based business. Join service group that might help you. Take the step to start reaching your goals. Kathy Seligman said "You can't hit a home run unless you step up to the plate. You can't catch a fish unless you put your line in the water. You can't reach your goals if you don't try." Get started today!!
The fourth point is to surround yourself with like-minded people. In the Bible, Jesus told one of his disciples, "Get behind me Satan." What he was saying was if you are not with me, you are against me. The same applies to you. Detach yourself from people who are negative towards you goals. If you are going to be rich, why not surround yourself with people who are already rich. David Joseph Schwartz once said "Think little goals and expect little achievements. Think big goals and win big success."
Lastly, and most importantly, do not be afraid of success. This phobia is the main reason most people fail. They make no preparation for succeeding. When they succeed, they do not know how to act. People start questioning their success. They start telling themselves that they do not deserve to be successful. And eventually, obtain what they profess. When you are setting your goals, make a plan for being successful. Tell yourself that you deserve to be successful and that you should procure your desires. Catherine Pulsifer best sums this up, "The unfortunate aspect about living life without your own goals is that you may very well reach a point in your life where you will wonder, 'what would have happened if I had only done..." In closing, the first thing you need to do is start planning and setting your goals. Then you need start visualizing yourself completing your dreams. Also, you will need to get some tools and resources that will help you achieve you goals. And surrou nd yourself with people who are positive and have the same goals as you do. And most importantly, prepare yourself for success. When the time comes, don't be afraid to be successful. Think about this, in the Bible Jesus said, "As a man thinketh in his heart, so is he." You need to start seeing yourself as attaining your goals. Act and talk as if you already have obtained them. Now get started!
The first thing you need to do is sit down and set your goals. Diana Scharf Hunt said "Goals are dreams with deadlines." A lot of times, people are thrown off by the idea of taking the time to set their goals. But when you take a trip, do you not come up with a plan and ultimate destination. Well, setting goals is the same process. I suggest that you first do a Must Have, Why, How analysis.
First, write down a list of must haves; bigger home, luxury trips, new cars, work from home, etc. Then decide why these must haves are important to you and prioritize them. Lastly, write down how you are going to get the must haves.
Also, ask yourself these questions:
What are the tools and resources do I need?
Why do I not have what I want now?
What past experiences are in the way?
Who can I talk to that has already succeeded?
How am I paying for this?
What are the tradeoffs?
What am I going to give up?
From this analysis, start writing down you goals. Remember, without a start, there cannot be an ending. Denis Watley stated "The reason most people never reach their goals is that they don't define them, or ever seriously consider them as believable or achievable. Winners can tell you where they are going, what they plan to do along the way, and who will be sharing the adventure with them."
Once finished writing your goals, next you need to start visualizing your dreams. Henry David Thoreau once said "If one advances confidently in the direction of his dreams, and endeavors to live the life which he has imagined, he will meet with a success unexpected in common hours." You need image yourself accomplishing your goals and obtaining your treasures. Will yourself into succeeding. Never think that you cannot reach your desired results. Talk about the desires as if you have already obtained it. A good practice is to read your goals daily. If you are having a bad day, read them over and over.
Thirdly, you need to get the tools and resources to needed to accomplish your goals. Maybe you have decided to start a home-based business as a mechanism to consummate the acquiring of your dreams. Start gathering documentation on how to run your home-based business. Join service group that might help you. Take the step to start reaching your goals. Kathy Seligman said "You can't hit a home run unless you step up to the plate. You can't catch a fish unless you put your line in the water. You can't reach your goals if you don't try." Get started today!!
The fourth point is to surround yourself with like-minded people. In the Bible, Jesus told one of his disciples, "Get behind me Satan." What he was saying was if you are not with me, you are against me. The same applies to you. Detach yourself from people who are negative towards you goals. If you are going to be rich, why not surround yourself with people who are already rich. David Joseph Schwartz once said "Think little goals and expect little achievements. Think big goals and win big success."
Lastly, and most importantly, do not be afraid of success. This phobia is the main reason most people fail. They make no preparation for succeeding. When they succeed, they do not know how to act. People start questioning their success. They start telling themselves that they do not deserve to be successful. And eventually, obtain what they profess. When you are setting your goals, make a plan for being successful. Tell yourself that you deserve to be successful and that you should procure your desires. Catherine Pulsifer best sums this up, "The unfortunate aspect about living life without your own goals is that you may very well reach a point in your life where you will wonder, 'what would have happened if I had only done..." In closing, the first thing you need to do is start planning and setting your goals. Then you need start visualizing yourself completing your dreams. Also, you will need to get some tools and resources that will help you achieve you goals. And surrou nd yourself with people who are positive and have the same goals as you do. And most importantly, prepare yourself for success. When the time comes, don't be afraid to be successful. Think about this, in the Bible Jesus said, "As a man thinketh in his heart, so is he." You need to start seeing yourself as attaining your goals. Act and talk as if you already have obtained them. Now get started!
Thursday, July 13, 2006
tranquility
when thoughts are ajar,
when imagination is far,
what makes the mind in accordance,
is what makes the heart at par.
when the moment get the better of you,
when nothing revolves and nothing comes through.
seek within your soulful self,
you will find all you need and thats what that helps.
when troubles arises,keep firmly on your grounds,
stand around and look before you when you start.
when actions count and nothing leads you to go in between,
you will see the sun rises and you feel like a queen.
this brings about a vivid dream,
a fairytail of wonders,
a life peaceful and serene.
what makes the heart sees,what makes the eyes breath,
tranquility,the ore within!
when imagination is far,
what makes the mind in accordance,
is what makes the heart at par.
when the moment get the better of you,
when nothing revolves and nothing comes through.
seek within your soulful self,
you will find all you need and thats what that helps.
when troubles arises,keep firmly on your grounds,
stand around and look before you when you start.
when actions count and nothing leads you to go in between,
you will see the sun rises and you feel like a queen.
this brings about a vivid dream,
a fairytail of wonders,
a life peaceful and serene.
what makes the heart sees,what makes the eyes breath,
tranquility,the ore within!
Monday, May 22, 2006
redang trip..
immediately after i came back from s'wak, upon resting for 2 days and its off again to redang island. We left on mother's day, i had dinner at the ship wif my family before they drop me off to board the bus with the whole bunch of my uni mates....all in all the experience was one word"unforgettable" ...
Having travelled pretty much since i was younger, i definitely experience all sorts of vacations, from camping types, to boarding a yatch,cruises,tours, performances etc lets just say i had it both sides, being with the groupies, the snobs and now the mates... anyhow i took this experience and the other experiences as well to learn the most out of everything, and the best thing i learned through travelling is the way one person can adapt and tune him/herself accordingly to fit the boarding deck. its all in the mind, and its all the head to have fun no matter wat circumstances...i have to say this, i m proud that i suceeded in doing so :)
Hence, what turn out to be a boring beach hol to many on the other hand gave me pleasure in being fascinated with all sorts of activities, however the most fascinating of em all is how the behaviour of humanity turns out to be, the way mannerism is concocted, behaviours twisted yet at times hilarious....U know when u travel wif all sorts of ppl its pretty good for observing how the person is, den again i guess i ve my fair share of being scrutinized..anyways...to get to the trip basis, it was a great 3 days, fun filled with beaches, snorkelling activities ( gets pretty boring too... cuz the poor corals are dying off, and sceneries as advertised are not as good as it looks)
However, we had a chatty( or rather irritating at times) guide which somewat gave us a overall tour of the island, btw we manage to celebrate wai pin's bday as well cuz there was a bbq dinner for one nite which we had a grand feast i must say..( for the very cheap price det we pay) no complains lar... Oh btw, i came back 3 shades darker or rather i turn into another race, my mom prolly thought det her daughter is abducted at sea and in place was a substitute lol i wishlar...
Anyways, to cut the long story short, the trip was a breath of fresh air, beautiful scenery ( det i must praised) however, if only the facilities were a lil better, frankly i dun mind paying more..but like they say go with the crowd...it would be a whole lot betta..( den again it wont be as much fun as it could ve turn out rite? :P hehe ) check out the pics below den..for some awesome scenic views..
Having travelled pretty much since i was younger, i definitely experience all sorts of vacations, from camping types, to boarding a yatch,cruises,tours, performances etc lets just say i had it both sides, being with the groupies, the snobs and now the mates... anyhow i took this experience and the other experiences as well to learn the most out of everything, and the best thing i learned through travelling is the way one person can adapt and tune him/herself accordingly to fit the boarding deck. its all in the mind, and its all the head to have fun no matter wat circumstances...i have to say this, i m proud that i suceeded in doing so :)
Hence, what turn out to be a boring beach hol to many on the other hand gave me pleasure in being fascinated with all sorts of activities, however the most fascinating of em all is how the behaviour of humanity turns out to be, the way mannerism is concocted, behaviours twisted yet at times hilarious....U know when u travel wif all sorts of ppl its pretty good for observing how the person is, den again i guess i ve my fair share of being scrutinized..anyways...to get to the trip basis, it was a great 3 days, fun filled with beaches, snorkelling activities ( gets pretty boring too... cuz the poor corals are dying off, and sceneries as advertised are not as good as it looks)
However, we had a chatty( or rather irritating at times) guide which somewat gave us a overall tour of the island, btw we manage to celebrate wai pin's bday as well cuz there was a bbq dinner for one nite which we had a grand feast i must say..( for the very cheap price det we pay) no complains lar... Oh btw, i came back 3 shades darker or rather i turn into another race, my mom prolly thought det her daughter is abducted at sea and in place was a substitute lol i wishlar...
Anyways, to cut the long story short, the trip was a breath of fresh air, beautiful scenery ( det i must praised) however, if only the facilities were a lil better, frankly i dun mind paying more..but like they say go with the crowd...it would be a whole lot betta..( den again it wont be as much fun as it could ve turn out rite? :P hehe ) check out the pics below den..for some awesome scenic views..
Saturday, May 20, 2006
MIRI: Mulu caves trip :p
Its been a while since i updated my blog, meanwhile i just came back from a long 5day trip flying towards the east coast.Meanwhile it was a very needed rejuvenation trip to revive myself of my existence. Life really truly is something precious, memories and experiences serve a greater object to remind one of its true significance.
After my finals, i took a trip to Miri sarawak with a gd friend wai pin, n together the both of us spend 4 days 3 nite in miri and mulu caves, a reserve spot for caving and climbing activities.
The trip was an eye opener, having been to many places when i was younger, however, seeing sceneries of caves, natural formation of underwater grounds , stalagtites and stalagmites. All in all it is a whole new different experience, nothing city, nothing urban just plain and natural.To think that civilization had created such drastic difference and how evolvement of humanity had turn out to be, n yet needless to say GOD is still majestic, for his creations is truly astounding and if he can create he definitely can destroy, hence, the trip had serve myself a great reminder of being humble in my presence towards life itself.
To summarize off, we spend 2 days exploring the 4 famous caves known as lang,deer,wind and clearwater caves.We saw thousands of bats circling around caves, especially the view of the underwater caves that reminded me of clips i saw from Lord of the Rings and Indiana jones.
Both of us check in the famous royal mulu resort and had a pretty good stay dere.The rooms
were build in a forest like cabins, it was just so refreshing waking up to birds chirping,peaceful serenity and good weather,had such a great rest dere.Apart from the food which does not really fit our tastebuds, probably due to our fussy and overly picky appetites, nevertheless i had enjoyed myself tremendously. We experienced flying in fokker planes, those tiny planes det carry a max amount of 50 passengers, the flight was really fun, becuz the height we flew enable us to view mountains all the way. A special thanks to our classmate steve who took the trouble to host us around miri upon arriving dere.Needless to say, life was indeed a breath of fresh air, and it was really a trip worth taking .:)
After my finals, i took a trip to Miri sarawak with a gd friend wai pin, n together the both of us spend 4 days 3 nite in miri and mulu caves, a reserve spot for caving and climbing activities.
The trip was an eye opener, having been to many places when i was younger, however, seeing sceneries of caves, natural formation of underwater grounds , stalagtites and stalagmites. All in all it is a whole new different experience, nothing city, nothing urban just plain and natural.To think that civilization had created such drastic difference and how evolvement of humanity had turn out to be, n yet needless to say GOD is still majestic, for his creations is truly astounding and if he can create he definitely can destroy, hence, the trip had serve myself a great reminder of being humble in my presence towards life itself.
To summarize off, we spend 2 days exploring the 4 famous caves known as lang,deer,wind and clearwater caves.We saw thousands of bats circling around caves, especially the view of the underwater caves that reminded me of clips i saw from Lord of the Rings and Indiana jones.
Both of us check in the famous royal mulu resort and had a pretty good stay dere.The rooms
were build in a forest like cabins, it was just so refreshing waking up to birds chirping,peaceful serenity and good weather,had such a great rest dere.Apart from the food which does not really fit our tastebuds, probably due to our fussy and overly picky appetites, nevertheless i had enjoyed myself tremendously. We experienced flying in fokker planes, those tiny planes det carry a max amount of 50 passengers, the flight was really fun, becuz the height we flew enable us to view mountains all the way. A special thanks to our classmate steve who took the trouble to host us around miri upon arriving dere.Needless to say, life was indeed a breath of fresh air, and it was really a trip worth taking .:)
Monday, April 10, 2006
lucky valley, camp rejuventaion...
a lot have happen the past weeks... i am on study break now becuz finals are just around the corner and i m so stress out i was really feeling a whole lot of emotions last 2 weeks, i went on a yoga rejuvenation camp in a spiritual place named lucky valley...gosh having stayed in msia for so long, i guess my geography must be really bad cuz i never heard of this place before in my life....and it existed...it turns out det this valley is a place where the tai chi,kung fu and yoga masters all over the world comes out for their practices as there lays a famous pyramid which was believed to contain "chi" also known as energy, and the whole place is charged with energy balls which are floating around in the skies among the valley...( the founder from taiwan was given a calling by GOD to search for this in 1984 and he took 2 yrs to find this valley and ve sinced established it till today...)
to put it in short, some ppl actually seen GOD dere, buddhist devotees claim det its a spiritual ground which a lot of supernatural forces are found, hence, upon knowing about the history of this place, i now starts to realized the utmost importance of the trip which i ve just went and came back....having said det....let me tell u how i wind up going to a place which i guess even my mom feels det its way out of the world for someone so city like me to actually go,( btw did i tell u det the facilities are somewat like a camp thingy nevertheless its only a 2 day 1 nite thing, so i manage to survivelar..)
meanwhile, i was going to the gym so often det almost all the instructors are my best friends hehe....seriously, anyways edwin( the master instructor of yoga in california fitness) he organized this trip and he actually approached and invited me along, gosh....i m so honoured, to think det he actually feels det i ve the potential to join his group of "pro" yoga ppl ( seriously these ppl been doing it for 3-10 yrs sorta thing) anyways i figure i should go despite hesitation ,cuz seriously i still dun think i meet the standards...( btw i was the youngest dere, tks to my good friend wai pin whom i drag along to go wif me, cuz all the ppl were like in their late 20's to 40's., all the fanatic yoga practitioners..).meanwhile it was the most rejuvenated camp i ever been in my life.....as i was going through some issues of late, in fact i was losing faith in so many things.....anyhow, when we did the sun salutation facing the east as the sun rises above us, strangely i experience this sorta energy which i never felt before, it really feels like GOD's touch,my body was rejuvenated at that second, it felt so light, so peaceful, it felt like i died and float somewhere becuz i just thought of nothing, but a feeling of deep calm peacefulness....
it came and went in a second,strange and weird, and i ll never forget det feeling, i came back a whole new person...
and i know now det despite the many obstacles in life, GOD is watching all of us, i still doubt my own faith level at times, because i am and feel det i can never live up to what christianity should be simply becuz i am still unable to accept some things or rather i just don't feel like facing it yet...i am not good, to the standard that i perceived that a good christian should be, i feel det i cannot live up to the notions of it, becuz i am just caught up still in the material world, my ambitious nature, too high expectations of my life, these are the things that i cant let go....but in the end i believe all these are excuses , i hope someday i can find the courage to do so, or maybe this are all too much for me to face for the moment.....
i believe very much in love.....probably this ll be the last call where i can understand det the reality of the world stills bounds around an emotion and however much it twists around, the grasp of love is still the stronger one....
( this post is just to share some sights and personal issues of what i view life as, meanwhile if u r really in need of an answer for ur life,or simply to release stress, u should go to lucky valley.....check it up on the website...this place is really one word to describe, simple, yet the power it reveals, amazing.:))
to put it in short, some ppl actually seen GOD dere, buddhist devotees claim det its a spiritual ground which a lot of supernatural forces are found, hence, upon knowing about the history of this place, i now starts to realized the utmost importance of the trip which i ve just went and came back....having said det....let me tell u how i wind up going to a place which i guess even my mom feels det its way out of the world for someone so city like me to actually go,( btw did i tell u det the facilities are somewat like a camp thingy nevertheless its only a 2 day 1 nite thing, so i manage to survivelar..)
meanwhile, i was going to the gym so often det almost all the instructors are my best friends hehe....seriously, anyways edwin( the master instructor of yoga in california fitness) he organized this trip and he actually approached and invited me along, gosh....i m so honoured, to think det he actually feels det i ve the potential to join his group of "pro" yoga ppl ( seriously these ppl been doing it for 3-10 yrs sorta thing) anyways i figure i should go despite hesitation ,cuz seriously i still dun think i meet the standards...( btw i was the youngest dere, tks to my good friend wai pin whom i drag along to go wif me, cuz all the ppl were like in their late 20's to 40's., all the fanatic yoga practitioners..).meanwhile it was the most rejuvenated camp i ever been in my life.....as i was going through some issues of late, in fact i was losing faith in so many things.....anyhow, when we did the sun salutation facing the east as the sun rises above us, strangely i experience this sorta energy which i never felt before, it really feels like GOD's touch,my body was rejuvenated at that second, it felt so light, so peaceful, it felt like i died and float somewhere becuz i just thought of nothing, but a feeling of deep calm peacefulness....
it came and went in a second,strange and weird, and i ll never forget det feeling, i came back a whole new person...
and i know now det despite the many obstacles in life, GOD is watching all of us, i still doubt my own faith level at times, because i am and feel det i can never live up to what christianity should be simply becuz i am still unable to accept some things or rather i just don't feel like facing it yet...i am not good, to the standard that i perceived that a good christian should be, i feel det i cannot live up to the notions of it, becuz i am just caught up still in the material world, my ambitious nature, too high expectations of my life, these are the things that i cant let go....but in the end i believe all these are excuses , i hope someday i can find the courage to do so, or maybe this are all too much for me to face for the moment.....
i believe very much in love.....probably this ll be the last call where i can understand det the reality of the world stills bounds around an emotion and however much it twists around, the grasp of love is still the stronger one....
( this post is just to share some sights and personal issues of what i view life as, meanwhile if u r really in need of an answer for ur life,or simply to release stress, u should go to lucky valley.....check it up on the website...this place is really one word to describe, simple, yet the power it reveals, amazing.:))
Friday, March 31, 2006
how innocent are u ??
this is a good one sent to me by a friend, enjoy reading, and ve a great laugh afterthat..:P smile and be happy...
A first-grade teacher, Ms Neelam (Age 28) was having trouble with one of her students.
The teacher asked, "Boy, what is your problem?"
Boy answered, "I'm too smart for the first-grade. My sister is in the third-grade and I'm smarter than she is! I think I should be in the third-grade too!"
Ms Neelam had enough. She took Boy to the principal's office.
While Boy waited in the outer office, the teacher explained to the principal what the situation was. The principal told Ms Neelam he would give the boy a test and if he failed to answer any of his questions he was to go back to the first-grade and behave. She agreed. Boy was brought in and the conditions were explained to him and he agreed to take the test.
Principal: "What is 3 x 3?"
Boy: "9".
Principal: "What is 6 x 6?"
Boy: "36".
And so it went with every question the principal thought a third-grade should know. The principal looks at Ms Neelam and tells her,
"I think Boy can go to the third-grade."
Ms Neelam says to the principal, "I have some of my own questions".Can I ask him ?"
The principal and Boy both agree.
Ms Neelam asks, "What does a cow have four of that I have only two of?
Boy, after a moment: Legs.
Ms Nee lam: "What is in your pants that you have but I do not have?"
Boy: Pockets.
Ms Neelam: What starts with a C and ends with a T, is hairy, oval, delicious and contains thin whitish liquid?
Boy: Coconut
Ms Neelam: What goes in hard and pink then comes out soft And sticky?
The principal's eyes open really wide and before he could stop the answer, Boy was taking charge.
Boy: Bubblegum
Ms Neelam: What does a man do standing up, a woman does sitting down and a dog does on three legs? The principal's eyes open really wide and before he could stop the answer..
Boy: Shake hands
Ms Neelam: Now I will ask some "Who am I" sort of questions, okay?
Boy: Yep!!
Ms Neelam: You stick your poles inside me. You tie me down to get me up. I get wet before you do.
Boy: Tent> >
Ms Neelam: A finger goes in me. You fiddle with mewhen you're bored. The best man always has me first.The Principal was looking restless, a bit tense and took one large Patiala Vodka peg.> >
Boy: Wedding Ring> >
Ms Neelam: I come in many sizes. When I'm not well, I drip. When you blow me, you feel good.
Boy: Nose
Ms Neelam: I have a stiff shaft. My tip penetrates. I come with a quiver
Boy: Arrow
Ms Neelam: What word starts with a 'F' and ends in 'K' that means lot of heat and excitement?
Boy: Firetruck.
Ms Neelam: What word starts with a 'F' and ends in 'K' & if u dont get it u have to use ur hand.
Boy: Fork
Ms Neelam: What is it that all men have one of it's longer on some men than on others, the pope doesn't use his and a man gives it to his wife after they're married?
Boy: SURNAME
Ms Neelam: What part of the man has no bone but has muscles, has lots of veins, like pumping, & is responsible for making love ?
Boy: HEART.
The principal breathed a sigh of relief and said to the teacher, "Send this Boy. to Delhi University, I got the last ten questions wrong myself!"
are you as innocents as this boy?
A first-grade teacher, Ms Neelam (Age 28) was having trouble with one of her students.
The teacher asked, "Boy, what is your problem?"
Boy answered, "I'm too smart for the first-grade. My sister is in the third-grade and I'm smarter than she is! I think I should be in the third-grade too!"
Ms Neelam had enough. She took Boy to the principal's office.
While Boy waited in the outer office, the teacher explained to the principal what the situation was. The principal told Ms Neelam he would give the boy a test and if he failed to answer any of his questions he was to go back to the first-grade and behave. She agreed. Boy was brought in and the conditions were explained to him and he agreed to take the test.
Principal: "What is 3 x 3?"
Boy: "9".
Principal: "What is 6 x 6?"
Boy: "36".
And so it went with every question the principal thought a third-grade should know. The principal looks at Ms Neelam and tells her,
"I think Boy can go to the third-grade."
Ms Neelam says to the principal, "I have some of my own questions".Can I ask him ?"
The principal and Boy both agree.
Ms Neelam asks, "What does a cow have four of that I have only two of?
Boy, after a moment: Legs.
Ms Nee lam: "What is in your pants that you have but I do not have?"
Boy: Pockets.
Ms Neelam: What starts with a C and ends with a T, is hairy, oval, delicious and contains thin whitish liquid?
Boy: Coconut
Ms Neelam: What goes in hard and pink then comes out soft And sticky?
The principal's eyes open really wide and before he could stop the answer, Boy was taking charge.
Boy: Bubblegum
Ms Neelam: What does a man do standing up, a woman does sitting down and a dog does on three legs? The principal's eyes open really wide and before he could stop the answer..
Boy: Shake hands
Ms Neelam: Now I will ask some "Who am I" sort of questions, okay?
Boy: Yep!!
Ms Neelam: You stick your poles inside me. You tie me down to get me up. I get wet before you do.
Boy: Tent> >
Ms Neelam: A finger goes in me. You fiddle with mewhen you're bored. The best man always has me first.The Principal was looking restless, a bit tense and took one large Patiala Vodka peg.> >
Boy: Wedding Ring> >
Ms Neelam: I come in many sizes. When I'm not well, I drip. When you blow me, you feel good.
Boy: Nose
Ms Neelam: I have a stiff shaft. My tip penetrates. I come with a quiver
Boy: Arrow
Ms Neelam: What word starts with a 'F' and ends in 'K' that means lot of heat and excitement?
Boy: Firetruck.
Ms Neelam: What word starts with a 'F' and ends in 'K' & if u dont get it u have to use ur hand.
Boy: Fork
Ms Neelam: What is it that all men have one of it's longer on some men than on others, the pope doesn't use his and a man gives it to his wife after they're married?
Boy: SURNAME
Ms Neelam: What part of the man has no bone but has muscles, has lots of veins, like pumping, & is responsible for making love ?
Boy: HEART.
The principal breathed a sigh of relief and said to the teacher, "Send this Boy. to Delhi University, I got the last ten questions wrong myself!"
are you as innocents as this boy?
Wednesday, March 15, 2006
A dedication to the people around me...:)
People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime.
When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person.
When someone is in your life for a REASON,
it is usually to meet a need you have expressed.
They have come to assist you through a difficulty,
to provide you with guidance and support,
to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually.
They may seem like a godsend and they are.
They are there for the reason you need them to be.
Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time,
this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end.
Sometimes they die.
Sometimes they walk away.
Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand.
What we must realize is that our need has been met,
our desire fulfilled, their work is done.
The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.
Some people come into your life for a SEASON,
because your turn has come to share, grow or learn.
They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh.
They may teach you something you have never done.
They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy .
Believe it, it is real. But only for a season.
LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons,
things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation.
Your job is to accept the lesson,
love the person and put what you have learned to
use in all other relationships and areas of your life.
It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.
Thank you for being a part of my life, whether you were a reason, a season or a lifetime.
When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person.
When someone is in your life for a REASON,
it is usually to meet a need you have expressed.
They have come to assist you through a difficulty,
to provide you with guidance and support,
to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually.
They may seem like a godsend and they are.
They are there for the reason you need them to be.
Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time,
this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end.
Sometimes they die.
Sometimes they walk away.
Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand.
What we must realize is that our need has been met,
our desire fulfilled, their work is done.
The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.
Some people come into your life for a SEASON,
because your turn has come to share, grow or learn.
They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh.
They may teach you something you have never done.
They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy .
Believe it, it is real. But only for a season.
LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons,
things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation.
Your job is to accept the lesson,
love the person and put what you have learned to
use in all other relationships and areas of your life.
It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.
Thank you for being a part of my life, whether you were a reason, a season or a lifetime.
Wednesday, March 01, 2006
GReat Party....:P
On sat, i decided to throw a party a the legend hotel since my mom had been so excited to do so, well it was a tradition since young where i always used this particular day to get friends together, hence, it was great to be able to do it again. Meanwhile, i had a hi tea thing and really to some of my friends out dere, i want to sincerely apologize if i miss u, cuz it was hell of a last min thing, and i had to limit my guests because the bookings were full.....however dun u worry....dere's still many yrs more ...hehe wink wink...:P
Anyways, all my guests turns out full force, and really it was great, i mean i felt good to see all of u enjoying urself so much..( i hope..) meanwhile, the food spread was really great, although the line was rather long ....anyways,...i simply enjoyed the beautiful tiramisu cake....gosh ..thumbs up to alexis...for those of u who missed tasting this , honestly u miss the whole thingla.r..:P
Anyways...just a shout out to my aunt for giving me that cake, cuz really this cake and i had a history...(hey dun use ur imagination so much k :P ) anyways its just my magic booster, when i m down, all i need to get things done, honestly even sex is not as good...(ok..i ll try to be more decent with usage of words..) hmm..maybe the cake n sex....oops..:)
Meanwhile, i did felt like barbie det day, the feeling was good...but of cuz its the smiles i see around det makes this euphoric feeling....anyways...just want to thank u all for making it a great day.....meanwhile i adored the pressies that i received, thanks for the perfumes, chocolates( u r trying to make me fat eh..),phone (smirk),cosmetics , etc....as i m turning older by a yr, i ve decided det life is just about to get started full force, hence, its time i put it in action and leave things behind...which i ve done.....:) meanwhile...dere's this saying, u built an ark u get wood out of it, u built gold, and u get wat u r looking for.....i intend to go for platinum....wanna challenge me..wink wink...hehe...(this blog is meant to keep me amuse, so dun take things to heart k....) :P
Anyways, all my guests turns out full force, and really it was great, i mean i felt good to see all of u enjoying urself so much..( i hope..) meanwhile, the food spread was really great, although the line was rather long ....anyways,...i simply enjoyed the beautiful tiramisu cake....gosh ..thumbs up to alexis...for those of u who missed tasting this , honestly u miss the whole thingla.r..:P
Anyways...just a shout out to my aunt for giving me that cake, cuz really this cake and i had a history...(hey dun use ur imagination so much k :P ) anyways its just my magic booster, when i m down, all i need to get things done, honestly even sex is not as good...(ok..i ll try to be more decent with usage of words..) hmm..maybe the cake n sex....oops..:)
Meanwhile, i did felt like barbie det day, the feeling was good...but of cuz its the smiles i see around det makes this euphoric feeling....anyways...just want to thank u all for making it a great day.....meanwhile i adored the pressies that i received, thanks for the perfumes, chocolates( u r trying to make me fat eh..),phone (smirk),cosmetics , etc....as i m turning older by a yr, i ve decided det life is just about to get started full force, hence, its time i put it in action and leave things behind...which i ve done.....:) meanwhile...dere's this saying, u built an ark u get wood out of it, u built gold, and u get wat u r looking for.....i intend to go for platinum....wanna challenge me..wink wink...hehe...(this blog is meant to keep me amuse, so dun take things to heart k....) :P
Sunday, February 19, 2006
dancing fever....:)
phew, finally the last test is over and i get a week off before the battle of the continuing tests continues, gosh these past 3weeks had been stressful, however i still manage to squeeze in time for all the things that i should not be doing hehe...no wonder they say that women are great multitasker which is true in my case, i realized det i can do 3 things at once but only prob is i ll end up messing up...anyways...i had send off my invitations to all my friends for the upcoming "event" hehe next sat...actually its just an excuse to get everyone to catch up and det i get to be the mediator in between, nevertheless i do hope det U n I mean U people will turn up n get back to me asap k.....stupid hotel ppl, been bugging me to confirm the numbers for so many days, its just a small thinglar...not like i m throwing a wedding or so....gosh, so annoying....
meanwhile for those of u that ve confirm ur arrival, we r gonna be having a blast, great food n me as the source of entertainment, free of charge, what better way to enjoy ur day....hehe..:)
oklar i ll stop being so perasan.... btw guess wat happen.... i gotten a present from a friend, and it was the v3i phone det i wanted gosh..i was reluctant to take it at first, honestly..i mean its such an expensive gift besides gifts like det normally comes with some form of intention which i thinklar....and not to say anything not det i cant afford to buy it...nevertheless it just feels so good to receive a pressie like det, just wanted to thank u...n still think det u should not waste ur $$$ anyways after confiding in a few ppl, everyone says det is ok to take...so i takelar....m playing wif this new baby, falling in love with it too...:P
meanwhile lately i ve been so into dancing, i counted det in just 3 weeks alone i attended almost 20 hours of dance classes, excluding clubbing which does not count...honestly if u ask me 2 yrs back i ll never b able to do this much dancing in fact i dun even know how....but as i see the progress today,i really wanna thank these few special ppl for giving me so much guidance over the 2 yrs, frank,yvette, farah (especially u) and lingerto gosh now i m ur leading dancer eh..hehe
anyhow i vow to take up dancing seriously after graduating, really love it n i m really gonna major in BD n watever det comes...but really this is getting me motivated in reaching goals det i ve set out to pursue and m still going strong despite many setbacks.....
nevertheless i always believe det u must never give up no matter wat u do, i ll stick to that attitude...until then even the darkest hour of the day can still shine brigthly if u want it to shine....hence, just got to find my own light, dets all...
anyhow i ve nuthing to complain and nuthing to say anymore except det life is always great regardless how it turns out, every possible thing that happens just ve a good reason out of it...and as long as u dun run away but face the problem n get it over n done with, u ll be fine, n then just let time takes the course of the healing journey....n get on wif life....having figure det out i m just so gonna enjoy my life, love my family, love u my friends n just want to spread love to every person i meet....muaks..:P hehe.....(ewww i sound so lovey dovey..):)
meanwhile for those of u that ve confirm ur arrival, we r gonna be having a blast, great food n me as the source of entertainment, free of charge, what better way to enjoy ur day....hehe..:)
oklar i ll stop being so perasan.... btw guess wat happen.... i gotten a present from a friend, and it was the v3i phone det i wanted gosh..i was reluctant to take it at first, honestly..i mean its such an expensive gift besides gifts like det normally comes with some form of intention which i thinklar....and not to say anything not det i cant afford to buy it...nevertheless it just feels so good to receive a pressie like det, just wanted to thank u...n still think det u should not waste ur $$$ anyways after confiding in a few ppl, everyone says det is ok to take...so i takelar....m playing wif this new baby, falling in love with it too...:P
meanwhile lately i ve been so into dancing, i counted det in just 3 weeks alone i attended almost 20 hours of dance classes, excluding clubbing which does not count...honestly if u ask me 2 yrs back i ll never b able to do this much dancing in fact i dun even know how....but as i see the progress today,i really wanna thank these few special ppl for giving me so much guidance over the 2 yrs, frank,yvette, farah (especially u) and lingerto gosh now i m ur leading dancer eh..hehe
anyhow i vow to take up dancing seriously after graduating, really love it n i m really gonna major in BD n watever det comes...but really this is getting me motivated in reaching goals det i ve set out to pursue and m still going strong despite many setbacks.....
nevertheless i always believe det u must never give up no matter wat u do, i ll stick to that attitude...until then even the darkest hour of the day can still shine brigthly if u want it to shine....hence, just got to find my own light, dets all...
anyhow i ve nuthing to complain and nuthing to say anymore except det life is always great regardless how it turns out, every possible thing that happens just ve a good reason out of it...and as long as u dun run away but face the problem n get it over n done with, u ll be fine, n then just let time takes the course of the healing journey....n get on wif life....having figure det out i m just so gonna enjoy my life, love my family, love u my friends n just want to spread love to every person i meet....muaks..:P hehe.....(ewww i sound so lovey dovey..):)
Sunday, February 12, 2006
lost light...
in times when the light seems blinded by the clouds,
itsa never easy to search the passage for the road to walk on.
in times when u lost your light,
its difficult to explain why people feels n do as they does.
yet some things like hope, love,
they do exist ,as such in times when u feel utterly lost,
u must search within and find the faith to get on
to get by,and det's where the direction of the light
will switch on and allow u to see where the right path is for u.
some things are unexplainable,
but then if everything has an answer,
then life ll not b as fascinating as it should be..
yet sometimes its such an emotional ride,
out of control, irrational,deprived..
the lost feeling and the sense of frustration that accompanies,
an undignified existence, an unknown unleashed,
then again, the light is in the hands of the controller who controls,
or is it the seeker that seeks?
or rather the fate that has befallen
onto what is not being chosen but rather what is being given.....
itsa never easy to search the passage for the road to walk on.
in times when u lost your light,
its difficult to explain why people feels n do as they does.
yet some things like hope, love,
they do exist ,as such in times when u feel utterly lost,
u must search within and find the faith to get on
to get by,and det's where the direction of the light
will switch on and allow u to see where the right path is for u.
some things are unexplainable,
but then if everything has an answer,
then life ll not b as fascinating as it should be..
yet sometimes its such an emotional ride,
out of control, irrational,deprived..
the lost feeling and the sense of frustration that accompanies,
an undignified existence, an unknown unleashed,
then again, the light is in the hands of the controller who controls,
or is it the seeker that seeks?
or rather the fate that has befallen
onto what is not being chosen but rather what is being given.....
Monday, February 06, 2006
Debbie Gibson-didnt ve the heart
I found somebody new,
Though you mustn't believe,
That means I'm over you.
I know that in time,
We'll figure it out,
You'll read my mind ,
And though I'll wait for that day ,
Without making a sound.
I don't want to be,
The one who's letting you down,
I just want you to know ,
The reason behind the rhyme.
CHORUS:
It's not that I didn't have the time,
Didn't have the love,
I didn't have the strength,
Not to fall apart .
It's not that I don't care,
It's just I wouldn't dare ,
Cause I just don't have the heart.
VERSE2:
Love is not black and white,
You'd believe that it's true .
If you saw me tonight ,
I struggle with what is real .
But the logical side ,
Doesn't stop what I feel,
And though you're holding your breath,
To be given a sign .
Your heart cannot be ,
Broken in pieces like mine.
I just want you to know,
The reason behind the rhyme.
CHORUS:
It's not that I didn't have the time,
Didn't have the love,
I just didn't have the strength,
Not to fall apart .
It's not that I don't care,
It's just I wouldn't dare ,
Cause I just don't have the heart.
BRIDGE:
Loving you was more than I could stand,
I was scared my heart was in your hand .
But I know now I figured it out ,
Beyond a shadow of a doubt I must let go.
CHORUS:
Yes I had the time ,
Yes I had the love,
I just didn't have the strength,
Not to fall apart .
It's not that I don't care,
It's just I wouldn't dare ,
Cause I just don't have the heart,
I don't have the heart....
Though you mustn't believe,
That means I'm over you.
I know that in time,
We'll figure it out,
You'll read my mind ,
And though I'll wait for that day ,
Without making a sound.
I don't want to be,
The one who's letting you down,
I just want you to know ,
The reason behind the rhyme.
CHORUS:
It's not that I didn't have the time,
Didn't have the love,
I didn't have the strength,
Not to fall apart .
It's not that I don't care,
It's just I wouldn't dare ,
Cause I just don't have the heart.
VERSE2:
Love is not black and white,
You'd believe that it's true .
If you saw me tonight ,
I struggle with what is real .
But the logical side ,
Doesn't stop what I feel,
And though you're holding your breath,
To be given a sign .
Your heart cannot be ,
Broken in pieces like mine.
I just want you to know,
The reason behind the rhyme.
CHORUS:
It's not that I didn't have the time,
Didn't have the love,
I just didn't have the strength,
Not to fall apart .
It's not that I don't care,
It's just I wouldn't dare ,
Cause I just don't have the heart.
BRIDGE:
Loving you was more than I could stand,
I was scared my heart was in your hand .
But I know now I figured it out ,
Beyond a shadow of a doubt I must let go.
CHORUS:
Yes I had the time ,
Yes I had the love,
I just didn't have the strength,
Not to fall apart .
It's not that I don't care,
It's just I wouldn't dare ,
Cause I just don't have the heart,
I don't have the heart....
Friday, February 03, 2006
pu tong peng you-tao zhe
wo wu fa zhi shi pu tong peng you,
gan qing yi na me shen,
jiu wo zhen me neng fang shou,
chorus:
tang ni shuo i,
i only want to be ur friend,
zuo ge peng you,
wo zai ni xin zhong jiu shi just a friend,
wo gan ji ni dui wo zhe yang de dan bai,
dan wo gei ni de ai zhan shi shou bu hui lai,
so i , will only just try to be a friend...
wo zai yi zao jiu xiang yao shuo ming bai,
wo jue de zi ji hao shi bai,
wo yuan yi gai bian,
chong xin zai lai yi pian,
chorus...
gan qing yi na me shen,
jiu wo zhen me neng fang shou,
chorus:
tang ni shuo i,
i only want to be ur friend,
zuo ge peng you,
wo zai ni xin zhong jiu shi just a friend,
wo gan ji ni dui wo zhe yang de dan bai,
dan wo gei ni de ai zhan shi shou bu hui lai,
so i , will only just try to be a friend...
wo zai yi zao jiu xiang yao shuo ming bai,
wo jue de zi ji hao shi bai,
wo yuan yi gai bian,
chong xin zai lai yi pian,
chorus...
Wednesday, February 01, 2006
happy CNY...2006
the month of january seems like a bolt of lightnining to me, and lo n behold comes feb, i had such a tight schedule the past 3 weeks, days seems like hrs,n hrs seems like minutes...etc..meanwhile uni started and boy am i in for a stress filled one.With 6 subjects to cram in just 4 months of studies, god knows how the hell i m gonna survive through it.Anyhow, if i really had a resolution ,i had better stick to being discipline n studying my butt off if i ve too neways CNY this yr was just like the previous yrs, nuthing really special,i went back penang, this time stayed at Evergreen hotel, nice view facing the sea, as usual did a couple of visiting around relatives....meanwhile i attended michelle 21st bday, sorry for arriving late, meanwhile been hanging out wif karina,thanks to her for constantly dragging me to the gym otherwise i m gonna be a piggy again...hehe oink oink....meanwhile paul van dyke is in town....shit i ve to go nevertheless i still ve tons of reports to finish up...gosh..n i just made a resolution to study...
meanwhile another few more days n uni resumes, sigh...i m really starting to get the jitters thinking bout it, wif the upcoming tests quizzes, who says that this is holiday, this is pure mental torture of a holiday..i think i should just stop complaining so much at times, den again, well thats the purpose of a blogger afterall, my purpose at least to vent n complain hehe....
i gotta go for my BD class now...once again happy Cny to everyone,hope u ve a great new yr wif full of angpaos hehe...:)
meanwhile another few more days n uni resumes, sigh...i m really starting to get the jitters thinking bout it, wif the upcoming tests quizzes, who says that this is holiday, this is pure mental torture of a holiday..i think i should just stop complaining so much at times, den again, well thats the purpose of a blogger afterall, my purpose at least to vent n complain hehe....
i gotta go for my BD class now...once again happy Cny to everyone,hope u ve a great new yr wif full of angpaos hehe...:)
Monday, January 02, 2006
last week of the year 2005....
phew...it has been an exhausting week though, my line up of activities , of meeting with all the possible friends that i could before uni officially resumes on the 3rd of jan...meanwhile a fast recap, starting from the 23rd-
went for ferry corsten with mun,johnson and Yc...steph was suppose to meet up but she din turn up so was johnson's cousins..man i hate ppl who ffk, but its oklar...this is msia afterall, its normal...meanwhile we still had a blast as ferry corsten is really trance king ,with his strings of awards n titles under his belt, he really bring the hse downlar...btw i gotten pissed drunk, fk...lucky i was wif some *good* friends...so if i troubled u in anyway m sorry k..:p(but it was fun..) hehe
24th-xmas eve, i attended mark's class, he had been back up dancers for missy elliot,justin timberlake etc, thus his hip hop class is of cuz fully packed, lucky i gotten in to the gym early otherwise i would ve missed seeing this incredible dancer wif of cuz good looks to match hehe..."),meanwhile went for a family xmas dinner in the nite n headed off to the curve to join my ex school mates for the xmas countdown,its been a while really, met up wif ppl i havent seens in 3 yrs eversince high school...we had fun spraying each other wif all that glitter, n dirtying the whole street, i seriously pity the cleaners who ve to clean up the mess..
25th-merry xmas, basically spend whole day opening pressies, went for xmas buffet wif familly at some hotel,ate so much till i was so stuffed, now u know y i had to go to the gym so often, otherwise i would ve became a balloon...neways, food was really good, supposedly had the biggest fine dining spread ...but too bad cuz i only attack the dessert parlour n really after det my lil tummy just simply can afford the rest hehe....
26th-happy bday tjun, one of my best buddy (heng tai) 21st, went down to his hse wif py n co,had the best satays dere, cuz wat he staying in kajang famous for it..basically spend the nite wif great friends chilling, finally we r all legal at last...:P
27th-another hse party, pot luck event, spend the morning preparing the salad det i offered to make cuz i dun cook so this is the best i could do ,was wif steph at starbucks n we went for manicure session,she was so pissed cuz british high comm was close n her passport is dere, she was suppose to leave perth the next morn but now its impossible n she had to buy new tickets again wat a waste.
28th-met up wif sally,bump into tons of ppl today from clubbing kakis to god knows who, seriously i wonder y i cant make an effort to remember ppl's name, feel so embarassed when someone start saying hi n all i could wonder was who the hell r they ...mental note:to remind myself to start remembering faces....:P
30th-took the car for servicing in the morn, had such a funny expereince, u know while waiting for the car to b ready, i was at a cafe having bfast, this ang mor stranger suddenly came up n started to ask me for directions, mind u the cafe that i was in was filled wif loads of other ppl, meanwhile without hesitating he sat down opposite me n before i knew it, he was actually making conversation bout the book that i waS reading...gosh,anyways i just had to bear wif him, though he was kinda cute but i still feel det this is so corny...no offence but reallylar he could just come over n chat instead of using some stupid excuse of asking me directions n den the funniest part was when i noticed det he had an office tag,he's working wif NAZA..my goodness..luckily my phone rang n the service guy told me det my car was ready for pickup, so i politely excused myself, n left as fast as i could,..actually if he tried a diff approach i probably will stay on to chat but seriously for a guy who looks n dresses so smartly etc ,y the hell does he wanna start wif such a bad pickup line for, puts ppl off...sigh....
and finally...
31st-new year eve-j lim pick me bout 8pm n we rush down to Kl to join the rest of the gang, dere's jeannioe, terrence, py n all their friends almost the 18 of us in TARBUSH-a restaurant famous for middle eastern cuisine, saw sq who came back from new zealand for hols..basically almost everyone studying overseas r back for hols, n me..i m starting uni in a few days time..so sad rite....anyways after the hearty meal, which has like meat from every poultry they can find, its good though we went watch the fireworks display n den its time to partay.....it was rum jungle this time...beautiful setting inspired by tarzan n jane hehe..very suggestive eh..finally i could put my belly dancing skills to use haha...more like a bear dance...meanwhile it was a great nitela.r..all in all met friends here n dere...couples everywhere, n me?? i m the happy go lucky,flirty n bitchy gf of just about anyone..hehe..gosh i sound bad...nolar..just to cover up my singlehood..hehe..but honestly i m so enjoying life now..so watever comes come ,if not then DONT!! bump into yc opposite poppy n of cuz julynn n gang but somewat lost them in a massive crowd....all in all...it was a great nite, a good way to end year 2005, n tomorrow well...i m older by a yr now...so ..any resolutions?? forget it..... finally happy new yr to all of ya..:P
went for ferry corsten with mun,johnson and Yc...steph was suppose to meet up but she din turn up so was johnson's cousins..man i hate ppl who ffk, but its oklar...this is msia afterall, its normal...meanwhile we still had a blast as ferry corsten is really trance king ,with his strings of awards n titles under his belt, he really bring the hse downlar...btw i gotten pissed drunk, fk...lucky i was wif some *good* friends...so if i troubled u in anyway m sorry k..:p(but it was fun..) hehe
24th-xmas eve, i attended mark's class, he had been back up dancers for missy elliot,justin timberlake etc, thus his hip hop class is of cuz fully packed, lucky i gotten in to the gym early otherwise i would ve missed seeing this incredible dancer wif of cuz good looks to match hehe..."),meanwhile went for a family xmas dinner in the nite n headed off to the curve to join my ex school mates for the xmas countdown,its been a while really, met up wif ppl i havent seens in 3 yrs eversince high school...we had fun spraying each other wif all that glitter, n dirtying the whole street, i seriously pity the cleaners who ve to clean up the mess..
25th-merry xmas, basically spend whole day opening pressies, went for xmas buffet wif familly at some hotel,ate so much till i was so stuffed, now u know y i had to go to the gym so often, otherwise i would ve became a balloon...neways, food was really good, supposedly had the biggest fine dining spread ...but too bad cuz i only attack the dessert parlour n really after det my lil tummy just simply can afford the rest hehe....
26th-happy bday tjun, one of my best buddy (heng tai) 21st, went down to his hse wif py n co,had the best satays dere, cuz wat he staying in kajang famous for it..basically spend the nite wif great friends chilling, finally we r all legal at last...:P
27th-another hse party, pot luck event, spend the morning preparing the salad det i offered to make cuz i dun cook so this is the best i could do ,was wif steph at starbucks n we went for manicure session,she was so pissed cuz british high comm was close n her passport is dere, she was suppose to leave perth the next morn but now its impossible n she had to buy new tickets again wat a waste.
28th-met up wif sally,bump into tons of ppl today from clubbing kakis to god knows who, seriously i wonder y i cant make an effort to remember ppl's name, feel so embarassed when someone start saying hi n all i could wonder was who the hell r they ...mental note:to remind myself to start remembering faces....:P
30th-took the car for servicing in the morn, had such a funny expereince, u know while waiting for the car to b ready, i was at a cafe having bfast, this ang mor stranger suddenly came up n started to ask me for directions, mind u the cafe that i was in was filled wif loads of other ppl, meanwhile without hesitating he sat down opposite me n before i knew it, he was actually making conversation bout the book that i waS reading...gosh,anyways i just had to bear wif him, though he was kinda cute but i still feel det this is so corny...no offence but reallylar he could just come over n chat instead of using some stupid excuse of asking me directions n den the funniest part was when i noticed det he had an office tag,he's working wif NAZA..my goodness..luckily my phone rang n the service guy told me det my car was ready for pickup, so i politely excused myself, n left as fast as i could,..actually if he tried a diff approach i probably will stay on to chat but seriously for a guy who looks n dresses so smartly etc ,y the hell does he wanna start wif such a bad pickup line for, puts ppl off...sigh....
and finally...
31st-new year eve-j lim pick me bout 8pm n we rush down to Kl to join the rest of the gang, dere's jeannioe, terrence, py n all their friends almost the 18 of us in TARBUSH-a restaurant famous for middle eastern cuisine, saw sq who came back from new zealand for hols..basically almost everyone studying overseas r back for hols, n me..i m starting uni in a few days time..so sad rite....anyways after the hearty meal, which has like meat from every poultry they can find, its good though we went watch the fireworks display n den its time to partay.....it was rum jungle this time...beautiful setting inspired by tarzan n jane hehe..very suggestive eh..finally i could put my belly dancing skills to use haha...more like a bear dance...meanwhile it was a great nitela.r..all in all met friends here n dere...couples everywhere, n me?? i m the happy go lucky,flirty n bitchy gf of just about anyone..hehe..gosh i sound bad...nolar..just to cover up my singlehood..hehe..but honestly i m so enjoying life now..so watever comes come ,if not then DONT!! bump into yc opposite poppy n of cuz julynn n gang but somewat lost them in a massive crowd....all in all...it was a great nite, a good way to end year 2005, n tomorrow well...i m older by a yr now...so ..any resolutions?? forget it..... finally happy new yr to all of ya..:P
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