stepping down,heading forward...

In about 2 weeks the year would come to an end, and another yr will start.Imagine,how great a person could be and etc..at the end of the day noone will get more than their fair share on time...because regardless who it may be, time is just the same for everyone of us....thus,as i recall my last few weeks before the year 2005 would finally come to an end....endless list of resolutions, happenings n memories run across my mind...yet, all i can say is definitely i had a memorable yr being 21, an age of complete freedom, supposedly...nevertheless dere may be things that i would ve done which i am not proud of however there r plenty that i did which had make a rather meaningful year as well..:P

Regardlesss what the following yr would to come about, i shall not dwell in the past , the negative side and all and continue to look ahead for a better start, a better approach on a better year ahead.Of course, the many friends that i had the opportunity to meet, to learn and to share with, its really a pleasure even know it may be for a short time or so, however i believe that when u meet a person ,whoever it may be, how long or short ,what matters is det every other being will definitely leave some sort of lesson or experience det we can learn from ...but of cuz the friends by our side, those are indeed precious and priceless ,so i really do count my blessings in having u all..( u know who u r ) meanwhile last week was packed with loads of things from the World peace forum which i attended grace by all those very important leaders of the world to my involvement in the bowling tournament etc...

By the way, shoutouts to those with bdays and all, we did celebrate in style..:P meanwhile xmas just around the corner, may everyone ve a great christmas,eat well be merry and god bless !

the short holiday..urban city gal gets cultural shock hehe

phew...past week have just flown by, let me start updating bout my busy week, it was a really sweet one though...i was in kuching, sarawak wif my mom on a buisness cum leisure trip,stayed at the hilton considered as the best hotel dere...it was really a great trip,despite the heavy schedule, we managed to squeeze in time to sightsee the city,paid a trip to the cultural village as well....regarding the cultural trip, gosh it was really an experience of a lifetime for a city gal like me...meanwhile to keep it short, in summary i had the chance to visit all the longhouses that was built n experience how the people actually stayed n led their lives dere.....i never would ve dreamt of the kinda lifestyle they can actually go through which seriously if i had to do so, i think i really cannot survive it....meanwhile this whole week was really a feast week...i m spoiled wif so many different kinds of food...gosh now my workout out is all in vain..i guess i got to hit the gym pretty soon....u know sumtimes i should count my blessings cuz it seems det i just ve this food kinda luck...everywhere i go i seemed to be offered a lot of food..dets why ppl like me wanna be thin also difficult..but then like the chinese proverb says "sek shi fuk' so i should just stop complaining hehe...
meanwhile besides det i truly had a nice holiday the next one will be the mount kinabalu...truly the highest peak in asia to scale....which means i got to workout more get more stamina n then climbed all the way hehe..:)

beneath a dream..lies an ocean of truth

a feeling of loss,
emotions are the cause,
whats not to unfold is a mask of silence,
a story untold, unheard of..
the ending unknown but the meaning deep in turns,
unable to escape the immense pressure,
memories just could not be tossed.

paying a price,
of an unworthy quest,
lies the beholder of a sharp image of the knife,
which cannot cuts any ties it bounds but would rather lose eternity
then force itself to be set free.

some things are not meant to be controlled,
or rather unjustified for words or actions,
yet some things are meant to dwell in the dark,
just so it could be forgotten and let go...the past..

why is the action of an undesirable cause a series of unknown,
perhaps dere's lies bigger things untold,
or perhaps life is just meant to be hard,
but suffering the hardest lies the soul of the heart.....

someone told me the answer to love...

(well, this is something i find meaningful, yet practicing it honestly...its huge pressure anyways here goes...)

To love is one thing.
To be loved is another.
But to be loved by the one you love is everything.
You never lose by loving.
You always lose by holding back.
Sometimes the heart sees what is invisible to the eye.
You cannot make someone love you.
All you can do is be someone that can be loved.
The rest is up to them.
Sometimes we look too far off in the distance to find that one person we want to share our lives with, without realizing that often times they're just in front of you loving you all this time.
True love doesn't have a happy ending.
That's because true love doesn't have an ending.
A heart truly in love never loses hope but always believes in the promises of love, no matter how long the time and how far the distance.
Love has its own time, season, and own reasons.
You can't ask it to stay, you can only embrace it as it comes and be glad that for a moment in your life it was yours.