Life after MSc graduation Feb 2009....;)

I took one year off, and my blog was dead as I had to focus and use all my energy on studies, assignments, projects and thesis writing instead. I manage to come out with the whole book alas under 3 months!!!

In the midst of doing so, I had to sacrifice my social life which was place on hold for nine trying months. Imagine that most people will be celebrating after 3/4 years of getting a bachelor's and yet being the kiasu one out of the whole lot, I readily jump into a Master's programme right after that. Not to mention one, which most ppl have seriously no clue on what the hell we're studying about!! And seriously for a person like me (super city gal) to do it, I'm much more surprise than anyone the fact that I could be thrown into a jungle/plantation seeing and talking to nothing but greens, yet...WTF I make it!!! ;)
To be honest, I never expected to be accepted into this MSc in Crop Biotech programme under Nottingham Uni, somehow I feel that my PR skills got the better of the course director, and now the chief supervisor of my project!! So, it goes to show that anything is possible if you prance and dance around like you own it and just be super hyper and convincing lol...well I'm not lying because although some ppl will say that I am smart (perasannya) , but I really think I'm more of a street smart than a book smart kinda person. but whatever it is, I would still have to say that nothing beats hard work, perseverance and a kiasu attitude lol...;PPosing with palm oil bunches, bitten by mosquitoes all over trying to get palm oil fruits.

The city gal and bunches if palm oil fruits. Seriously it was so hot, I was trying my best to just get through the day. FYI, this is in a super remote area and the hotel I was staying with my best gf whom is also my classmate was super haunted no joke!!!!

This is a dragon-druit plantation which we visited in the field trip.

The poster which was done in 2 days and less than 8 hrs sleep in the process of doing so, still dunno how da hell I survive it!!
Wannabe scientist...seriously I was screwing up so badly here as I realized I mixed up all the wrong DNAs in the wrong tubes hehe..

My best friend WP and I camwhoring when we were suppose to be doing stuff, if you look closely we had panda eyes from deprivation of sleep!!!

It was indeed a challenge, which I hope that this decision will not be all in vain. For now, I am all ready to partay the hell out of this whole intense period and hence I am starting my holiday tour with HK , the starting leg of my world tour, before flying off to Florida,Orlando for 3 mths again, (yes, I did this last year but trip was cut short cuz of studies.... ) to be part of the SeaWorld Internship programme and just fking hell regain back my party queen status!!!
Meanwhile,I don't really want to go into details the amount of stress nor to mention the intensive and trying times which I undergo. But I guess I have to say that after all the endless dramas, over addiction to caffeine and constant battles of the mental mind aka brain. I offically made it on the 21st of Feb 2009.Waiting for my turn to get my gown fitted on.

Acting all cool while getting a pic of myself taken fr the back, to be honest, I was nervous as hell!!


Posing with my super cute brother (sry he's taken hehe) also one of my major supporter in my studies, seriously I owe him big time and I'm not kidding when I say that he's the best brother on earth. I 'm super duper lucky ;)


And the main person behind my success all this while, is non other than my super awesome and pretty mummy!! (Now you know where I inherited my good genes from ..)

This was the 2007 Bachelor's graduation (notice the robe is purple,which was held in March 2008.

Receiving my scroll for the 2nd time within 10 months, quite a record huh...lol ;) This angmoh which is quite cute is seriously a pain in the ass when you see him walking ard in my faculty dept..
Posing with the current chancellor of Nottingham University (63rd ranking in the world according to Times Higher Education,2008). so proud that its a chinese chancellor...go CHINA hahahah

Neways...I m dead tired now, still got tons of pics not to mention stories to continue on, stay tune for part 2 of the grad stories and yes, I plan to revive my blog and am gonna make sure that its gonna be damn awesome, because I have every reason too... not to mention that my pics yet to be posted is so fking awesome!!!! Seriously I aim to be even more famous then xiaxue combining with dawn yang and even Kenny sia although he's not really my main competitor because:

A) I'more educated lol,
B) I 'm damn chio and a city gal too...
C) I've or rather I date angmohs too,
D) I 'm in da states as well, just so that dawn yang can understand det just bcuz she's in NYC, its
not det big deal, cuz god damn it, its just another city and seriously nuthing much to shout abt
and
E) I have made it to be an Asian baywatch chick or rather a Lifeguard in the state, and in Florida the place where Miami is, since I'm certified by the American Red Cross, I can very well be working in the beaches of Miami if I want too. And yes I am or rather ,I was the only chinese Malaysian LG working in da newest water park by SeaWorld called Aquatica opened recently in year 2008, its super awesome park (pics will b posted soon) ....neways my blog title says it all...

So, who's better than to write you all the news and the real deal, hence if you want source of entertainment and a lot more info to help you be inspired,entertained, amusement etc....you just gotta stay tune for more....;)

Hugs & kisses,
Lynn

Memories of no regrets...

Unleashed a moment of glory,
despite all the unnecessary.
So beautiful to have such a feeling,
be it temporary, it will be cherished.

Hopeful of long term reconcilation,
lost with words of imagination.
Time heals and the soul rebuilds,
Happiness rise when life within glows with pride.

Love is so beautiful,
everlasting desires,immuned to behaviour.
Expectation are not in need of a cure,
just a moment of silence and a second of knowing
that one is loved...

Life may be short,
but every new chapter arises,
for now life is just a start,
of a neverending path.

Lastly, u know who u r,
i thank u from the bottom of my heart,
the feeling is unexplainable,
lets see where the boundaries take us afar....:)

Letting go...

To Let go does not mean to stop caring......
it means I can't do it for someone else.

To Let go is not to cut myself off......i
t is the realization I can't control another.

To Let go is not to enable... ...
but to allow learning from natural consequences.

To Let go is to admit powerlessness... ...
which means the outcome is not in my hands.

To Let go is not to try to change or blame another......
it's to make the most of myself.

To Let go is not to care for, but to care about.
To Let go is not to fix, but to be supportive.

To Let go is not to judge... ...
but to allow another to be a human being.

To Let go is not to be in the middle arranging all the outcomes.
.. ...but to allow others to affect their destinies.
To Let go is not to be protective... ...

it's to permit another to face reality.
To Let go is not to deny, but to accept.

To Let go is not to nag, scold, or argue... ...
but instead to search out my own shortcomings and correct them.

To Let go is not to adjust everything to my desires... ...
but to take each day as it comes, and cherish myself in it.

To Let go is not to criticize and regulate anybody... ...
but to try to become what I dream I can be.

To Let go is not to regret the past... ...
but to grow and live for the future.

A little gal's riddle.....

a lil gal sat by the window,
running around in circles.
a life filled with many more laughter,
a love that never rekindles.

She often ask why and what was her fault,
being not the molded creation?
or being ashamed of all that has happened?
The funny thing is that it is not her fault yet,
she wonder why she make a mountain of creations.

Perhaps, all was it to protect,
the very person that made her the way she is,
or rather led her through so much uncertainty,
and yet manipulated her feelings and thoughts.

Let me bring you back to the chapter,
where she was filled with so much love,
she holds on to her impression,
for they say love is all that conquers..

Yet, does it actually matters,
that the very person that meant all the world to her.
seems so lost in space,
so they say forgive and forget,
but what was being inked onto it,
can be forgiven,
but never be forgotten because it has already been displayed.

Now the footing has to be mend,
she goes all out to prove her worth,
she make sure she don't make anymore mistakes.
for she does not want to b made a laughingstock,
for the mistakes that was not hers to carry,
neither was her burden,nor was her making.

She became so torn in between,
either to save herself or make up stories,
or rather save the very person she trust,
for she knows noone will ever bother,
about this pitiful figure,
whom had given her much and yet taken it off as well.

They say being what you are,
truthful to yourself is really what matters.
if u r a good gal,just b proud and b one,
if u aren't,GOD never make u bad,
so this is probably your own making, deal with it.

Yet, sometimes its very unfair that those undeserving ones,
get everything that is not theirs.
And for those that does,not only that they don't get what they deserve,
instead are being thrown all in the wrong path.

So to speak, humans are still made of feelings,
what more a lil gal??
maybe the reason that everything happens,
is all that makes a person learn,
what is left to be, and make to be.

Hatred is gone, love in place,
yet a journey of hurt still takes place.
Somehow its always end in its own way,
to blessed the person of their lost ways,
or bitch it and end up a whole pile of confusion.

Alas,the lil gal learn det,if u do love,
then you must understand and learn to let go.
to blessed them as they carry on their journey,
bless urself more by letting of the burden,
of not ever having to feel sorry,
becuz u have already LOVED..:)

(PS: it has been criticized all along this theory, but how could u change a person whom have so much to offer, when there's already less out dere? being true is what really matters...hence,the story of the lil gal might never have a happily ever ending, but hopefully one that has meaning in which she cherished!! :P)

in the darkest hour

seeping through you,
strangling through all the absence,
noone can tell how perfection kills.
countless of times you want to pull the finale,
you stop yourself because there is too much at stake.

it is worth it??
not to your imagination,
nobody will understand,
because noone can comprehend,
how lovely u look,
how much u accomplish,
yet noone bothers to know,
that what was dere was merely nothing as compared.

you know why the achievement was achieved,
the sorrow det endured,
the pain that cannot be replaced
how can you possibly explain?
you yearn for everything that was never gonna be dere,
you play the impossible,
you live like you were given the best,
or so they thought..

you feel selfish for being incontended,
for what was yours was rob away,
how can they possibly compare?
the only way that could ever matters did not.

values of your concern,
beliefs of what that does not rebel.
you think so much, u are such a loser,
why cant you just be truthful and just let loose?
yet how do you go about and start,
when you know its rather impossible to even know when is the start?

it is possible to hide away,
to run and just never face the truth?
or is it better just to conceal,
play the eye of the beholder,
play the role of perfection,
play the role of everything but not yourself.
because u were ashamed of whatever it could ve matters,
your mind are playing games,
in this darkest hour,
u fear u ll lose,
insanity arises,
or sanity kills,
in such a sad journey,
u ve to rise above.

it was never your decision,
neither your choice,
but you make the best of what you imagine,
you know nothing will help,
because all they ever care,
is how much you are of value to them,
of use, and of purpose,
of sights and of gold.

you either die rich or poor,
never the latter,you finally found love,
but is it for real?
even strangers seems sincere,
even det moment that provided was wat u r willing to sacrifice for,
just to feel a sense of true touch,or sense of self..
complicated, beyond words..
in the darkest hour,
you find its easier if you just end everything
and everything....

life goes on,
stop complaining,
but seriously can it??
angelic people come to your rescue,
and all u ever think about is how stupid they think they are,
that they will ever understand,
or they will ever come close to understanding.

how do u compare, in the 1st place there's no comparison,
u feel like even if u were played out of feelings,
it does not matter,
not like u ever care det it was real anyway,
bcuz even if so it was probably temporary,
and u dun mind sacrificing that second,
why bother to see what is the real conclusion anyway??

its better that they did so to you,
cuz rather than you hurting them
you can get over your conscience anyways,
what was not yours will never be,
and what was yours was also taken away.

maybe its time you just leave,
cuz nothing really matters anymore,
when you feel torn in between,
fake,a mirror of lesions,
life has always been a tough journey.
so u either play along or play within,
or just don't play....

leave...thats the answer,or rather a solution....

in the darkest hour.....

Beneath lies and acceptance...

Covered by a dark cloud,
the sun shines over but it never ceased to open.
It is covered with layers of memories,
so sad it does not realized how entwined it has been.

How else who it have realized?
That being honest is all it needs to unpeeled the layers.
Its sorrowfulness is indeed a surprise,
because it came as a shock from between.

Sometimes its better,
to just accept what was fated,
whether things were to happened?
looking forward is now all that matters.
Fragile to the point it became strong,
no cracks in between, immune to resist.

Its always better to experience then to talk,
because it never understood when no actions are brought upon.
However much difficult,
life goes on...
sometimes we wonder why we made such delirious mistakes..
it feels weird to a point that it just make belief,
but what actuaaly took place cannot be erased deep within.

So what next,
ponders the question of denial,
what happen cannot be changed back,
neither reversed,
taking a day at a time,
until all is well, healed and loved...

if u only knew...

threats are meaningless,
if u leave with it the wounds you hurt.
letting go is never easy,
but moving on is what u need to do to stay alert.

some people r just so beautiful inside,
yet u ve no means to hurt them,
and decide otherwise to leave em.
It ponders on the loss you will regret in time,
or the joy u would never had received.

sometimes its just a matter of choice,
yet, some choices are fixed upon.
we wonder why??
Thinking twice,
its really a matter of 2 lives entwined,
somehow belonging to 2 diff worlds det will never coincide.

the mind makes complications,
det arise like no intuitions.
alas its not a kindred spirirt,
intentions at large,or rather pure spirits.

have loss many senses of faith,
to revived again somehow takes too much effort and drive.
maybe drifting away at a point allows the freedom of the mind,
or perhaps, if it never encounter the sheer temptations,
it will continue to just stay put and turn dry.

you will never know until u try,
that was being said all the while.
yet, when what turns ugly at the end of times,
definitely is not easy to comprehend with just a good cry....